Wisdom from my walk

Just talked to the ob, right now they have decided not to do anything about changing my due date.   She was expecting to talk to the endo. today but there was some confusion there, and she thought I was seeing the endo today so who knows.    I am sick, have the flu or something, I’ve been unable to keep in much food today which is doing wonders for keeping tabs on my glucose levels.   I go back in on Monday and was supposed to have heard from the endo by now about adding insulin but havent.   She said at any point if things change they will do an amnio and if the baby’s lungs are ready they will deliver but for now they want to wait.   kind of depressing really but oh well.   I am hoping to get a nap, but not sure the kids will let me.   so just 3 weeks from today we’ll meet baby boy #3!

just wanted to say no baby news yet, the ob is calling me tomorrow after having a meeting w/ the other drs to discuss delivering the baby sooner due to the problems w/ my diabetes. spoke w/ the dietician a few minutes ago told her what was going on, she is calling the ob to talk to them and said she’ll email me after she talks to the ob I saw today, hoping she helps them make the right decision.   baby looked good today on u/s estimated weight was 6 lbs 7 oz, (bo was 6 lbs 9 oz at birth) and this is just 36 weeks so thats good, his head was huge like Calebs was, measuring 2 weeks ahead sizewise, his head is that is.   I finally gained one pound, that made the dietician happy!    other than that we are  just in a waiting game with my drs all needing to make some major decisions.   chances of getting an amnio before delivery are good, which scares me but then so does all of this diabetes problems.  so I will update after I know more.    wont be on here for a while since we have plans tonight.    i’m pretty stressed today and have cried more than once, including once when sitting talking w/ my ob.   it’s just too much to deal with right now.  I dont know what I’d rather have, to know the baby could be here early with possible complications due to age or keep him in there and have him be born on time w/ complications from uncontrolled diabetes.  eitiher is scary to me right now.   so say a prayer we have some good news to share soon, I’ll be cleaning baby clothes and blankets tomorrow just in case!

sucks!  fasting numbers up, ketones still, ate a much larger breakfast due to the dietary changes she made, now my one hour is sky high, should be under 120 and it’s 164, anything over 150 is pretty bad.   so chances of starting more insulin injections during the day are pretty good.   I have to eat again at 10 a.m., 30 carbs which is a good sized amt and with my levels already up…theres no way short of insulin to get it under control at this point.  hoping though all this will help me convince the ob that I should deliver sooner, but these facts alone might be all I need to convince them, not to mention if I happen to be contracting or dilating…which I’m hoping…..I know what’s 3 weeks in the grand scheme of things, but really i’m not feeling so good again and we dont know how the baby is affected by the wacky diabetes.  hoping he is well on the ultrasound today, I need to remember to ask how big they think he is.   She forgot to tell me last week.    So we’ll see how it goes.  My goofy toddler woke up around 7 ish, and is already taking a nap, dont know what the deal is.  he was up off and on tossing and turning, he’s cutting yet another tooth so maybe he’s just tired.  it’s probably good though, since once we leave for the sitter we’ll be out til we get Caleb, then I need to stop at the dry cleaners, come home and get some stuff done then go to my baby shower tonight.   so it’s going to be a fun day.  well i need to go throw up…looks like it will be a fun day all around!

I went to see the dietician today.  I was dreading the appointment because I’m still “spilling ketones” in the morning, basically she said there are 3 reasons that cause that, one dehydration and I know that’s not possible.   # 2 is high blood sugars, not having that issue.   # 3 starvation/not enough calories being eaten.  Hmm…so basically, when my endocronologist sent me to see this new dietician he said that because (at that time) my levels were up so he wanted to see if she could change my diet to fix it.  So….two weeks ago at that appointment I got a brand new meal plan that limited my carbs/calories.   So since then I’ve had lower sugar levels but am spilling ketones, so basically I was eating too strict of a diet and wasnt getting enough calories so through the night my body was burning fat instead of the food I was eating and causing problems.    So….starting today I eat more food, as if 3 meals and 4 snacks during the day wasnt enough.    She said she was having to think hard about what to tell me to eat because she’s usually telling patients to limit their caloric intake but I need more calories.   We know that this will probably clear up the burning fat issue and spilling ketones but will take us back to when my levels were high so after seeing how my levels do for 24 hours or less if it gets really bad, then they will add insulin to my morning whereas right now I only take insulin at night.

I told her how concerned I was about the baby being affected and asked which condition is worse for the baby, ketones or high blood sugars.  She said both affect different things, high ketones can damage the baby’s nervous system ( and no kid of mine needs help with that since genetically it’s getting my sucky genes as is) and high blood sugars has a few negative affects most which arent an issue, big baby doesnt matter since I’m having a c-section but….the baby would be big and mature slower and might have problems regulating it’s sugar at birth.   So neither is good and right now we’re trying to fix one problem and causing the other problem.   it’s very upsetting to me since I’m trying very hard and she knew I was doing really well and acknowledged it’s not my fault.   I’m hoping to take some of what was discussed today to the ob tomorrow in hopes of getting my due date changed.   Chances are after my meal adjustments in the morning the ob will be concerned, not to mention how high my ketones have consistently been for the last few days, none of which the ob is aware of since I’ve been contacting the specialist about it.

So I started the new meal plan at lunch today, eating so much made me feel so sick to my stomach. my after dinner level was almost too high, and thats going to be what happens as I eat more to clear the ketones, it’s very frustrating to me that there’s no easy way to fix both of these problems.   I dont know how folks who are always diabetic do it.   I’m praying hard that this goes away when the baby is born but the chances of my getting type II diabetes in the future are high.

Dean came home about 3O minutes early because I begged him to leave early since I was feeling bad, knowing full well he intended to go back to work tonight after getting the kids in bed.   So now  bo is in bed, Caleb is watching a movie and dean is on his way to work.   I know he hates his job right now and his boss has told him he needs to start staying later or coming in on weekends, meanwhile he really needs to be able to be home more to help me since it’s getting harder on me to physically keep up w/ the kids.   So he’s going in tonight and I guess its ok if the kids are in bed, but he wont get paid overtime, or get any incentive for working more, he’s salaried.   they wont even let him work from home to be able to help out some w/ me eventhough there are a ton of things he can do working from home.  Needless to say I am frustrated about the whole thing, I wouldnt care if he were getting paid for this extra time but he’s not, and we really need some money not to mention I could use a hand around here, I’m starting to have trouble keeping up with things.  I guess being 36 weeks pregnant and miserable will do that to you.

well time to get Caleb in bed and try to finish up cleaning and doing laundry that I had to neglect today due to being at the drs office for so long then having to deal with a fussy toddler all afternoon.   Tomorrow’s my ob appointment and I’m anxious about it.   I’ll update afterward, when I get time.

we really didnt take too many since
there wasnt much fun stuff going on..but here’s a few including a 35 week pic Dean took of me at the hotel.   the first one is of dean at the Musuem w/ a shuttle.

35 weeks preggo w/ baby boy # 3

Quick update, Dean got home shortly after 7 p.m. last night, after I’d taken the kids for yet another walk(I took 3 long walks yesterday in hopes of going into labor! 😉 ) and then bathed and dressed them for bed.   The car is indeed fixed, almost $700 in repairs later, I was working up the reimbursement stuff for the car insurance today since they said they’d pay some for hotel, food and towing based on our coverage, and those expenses were just under $300, not counting the first hotel night since we had planned on that.   we had planned on the second hotel night but hoping since I called the agent and she recommended staying through til Monday for the car repairs that they’ll pay for both Saturday and Sunday nights.  but I’ll be grateful for their paying for just the one unplanned night, towing and food for Dean the extra day.    which is what they should be paying us for.  it’s just waiting for that money to be reimbursed to us that is bad, we really didnt budget for all that money at all.  At least tomorrow is pay day, hoping then to correct our negative bank balance!   Gotta love the unexpected things life throws at you!   I guess all that walking yesterday was too much on me, I am  running on empty energy wise today.  Bo’s been napping and I took a  short nap too.    Other than that trying to work on insurance stuff and church stuff for a meeting tonight, the only reason I napped was so I’d be up for said meeting.   well I need to grab lunch and wake up the kid so he can eat before we need to get Caleb from school.  So Dean is home, the kids were so happy to see him, Bo ran up and hugged his leg it was too cute!  I was just glad he was home so I could take a break!   I’m a little bitter about the whole him getting an extra day at the hotel alone to do whatever and swim and well relax!   but it was what was easiest, and I have those too frequent drs appointments that I cant miss so I kind of had to come back, and theres of course the kids…..oh well….I guess my next time to get away will be in a few weeks or less while I’m at the hospital for 3 days recovering from delivering baby boy # 3.  that will probably be just as fun as this past weekend away….blah!

i’m exhausted, contracting and sick to my stomach. the car is still not fixed, Dean is checked out of the hotel waiting for it to be. They are still waiting for a part. I dont know why he didnt listen to me…he could have come home w/ me yesterday,worked all day today then we could have gone back and gotten the car was ready  or next weekend at latest, instead he got a carefree day at a hotel while I got a day w/ the kids alone. I’m a little frustrated to say the least. At this rate the kids will be in bed by the time he gets home from Virginia, and that’s assuming the car gets fixed soon. if not guessing the kids and I will be driving down there this evening and we’ll leave the car at the shop.   theres goes my  good mood.   i was falling asleep on the sofa, but the kids wont allow that so I guess I’ll just make dinner and pray the car gets fixed asap and that traffic between d.c. and baltimore isnt horrible, but now it’s rush hour.  ugh….just had  to vent,  again.