Wisdom from my walk

why is it that stressful things keep happening?!?!?  our friend came over with her kids today to keep my 2 so I could go get caleb since the fridge was to be dropped off during the time I go get Caleb.  about the time the fridge was being brought in our friend’s son hit his very hard, he has a horrible gash and huge egg knot on his head.  i was trying to calm him and the other kids down while his mom called the dr, but then the delivery guys told me the new fridge wouldnt work.   I handed the crying kid off to his sister and tried to keep Bo from running in and out while dealing w/ the delivery and fridge issues.  it has been the nuttiest afternoon ever.   I still havent heard if our friend’s kid is ok, she took him to the dr after she called them they told her to come in and they’d see if he needed to go to the ER.   fun times….
i now have 2 working fridges….apparently the outlet died not the fridge …..i dont know what to do…..i can plug in the new fridge w/ an extension cord but we dont need a new fridge if the old one works, but the delivery guys put the new one in the kitchen and left the old one in the driveway once we realized the problem. a guy friend from church was here as well (working on fixing our deck) who helped some but said we need an electrician to fix the problem. but that if the old fridge starts to work , we have it plugged in via extension cord in the driveway, then we dont need the new one. i just dont know what to do and my husband wont answer the phone. do i use the new one and then not be able to return it or try to find 2 guys willing and able to move the old one into the kitchen until best buy comes to take the new one back….and plug in the old one via electric cord in the kitchen next to the new one until it’s gone back….I was crying as the delivery guys rushed me into making my decison, I think taking the new one (which i can still return) and keeping the old one was the best choice based on the fact they were sick of waiting for me to decide. but now i have no cold food or drinks, still….i just want my hubby back or to be in ohio already. this so sucks….

Dean is currently working in Ohio, I mean at this very moment, working.  he says they will probably work til 2 or 3 am to get things done for tomorrow so that the next step can happen w/ the computers being set up!   nothing like jumping into work I suppose!

before taking him to the airport today and talking w/ the realtor about what to do about our fridge dilemma, we went and bought a new one.  it’s being delivered tomorrow afternoon.   I didnt think about not having cold juice or milk for the kids this evening.   they had hot dogs for dinner, but they ate them all and it’s 10 pm and I still havent had dinner. I was thinking I’d have a bowl of cereal, then was reminded we have no milk.  Caleb asked for juice and I told him it’s warm so he asked for ice, I had to remind him we dont have any.  I had to throw out all of the groceries I had just stocked up on on Saturday and Sunday.   so now we have nothing to eat.  I think I’ll make some easy mac for myself before heading to bed.  I think Bo and I will eat out tomorrow and praying that I can have the new fridge up and running and filled for dinner time, or at least for the next day!!   thank goodness Caleb can buy lunch at school!

the kids did suprisingly well at bedtime, caleb tried to convince me that he wanted to sleep in my room but I wouldnt give in.   I knew Caleb would have the hardest time w/ Dean gone but so far today has been good, but I’ve kept him busy and happy, which makes for a very tired momma.  I just finished cleaning house as best I could for now, so now maybe I can eat something and head to watch some shows we tivo’d.   if I can stay awake long enough.  day 1 (well 1/2 day) without dean, going well…..will be much better with a fridge full of cold food and drinks….I am realizing how spoiled we are!!   I would love some cold soda or juice right now, guess I’ll settle for cold tap water..mmmmm…..I am sure there’s tons of lessons to be learned this week, without Dean and without refrigerated food and drinks.   Maybe I was taking things for granted that I shouldnt…but come on….a fridge!!  really…did I need to learn that lesson right now??  ok…as Dean said, not everything is a “sign” or “message” but I still doubt it’s coincidence that everything always goes crazy at the McKenzie home all at once. I am grateful though that currently all 3 boys are sleeping and the house is mostly clean.   what more could I really ask for…other than for my sweetheart to be here w/ me enjoying the quiet evening…I miss you honey!!

Today has been nuts!!  This morning I headed to Home depot w/ Zeke and Bo to get outlet/light switch covers and some flowers for our flower pots on the deck.   I picked out my flowers and was searching for the outlet covers when Bo fell out of the car seat.   there were several men in the same aisle and saw it happen, but all ignored me, even as Bo threw up all over the floor and cart and then looked as if he was going to pass out. I was standing there holding him, saying Bo dont fall asleep, stay awake baby.  no one offered a hand.   a home depot employee walked by twice, the second time I saw her I asked for help as no one seemed to care what was happening.  I asked if she had some paper towels or something. she said go to the bathroom to get some, I told her waht happened, how Bo fell, hit his head then threw up, she said I should take him to the dr.  it’s not like I said hey my kid has the flu…I saw he fell out of this cart, hit his head on the hard concrete floor and started throwing up.  I tried to carry Bo, push the huge cart, it was one of the ones w/ the two seats, and the regular seat and cart and make it safely back to the van in one peice.   I did so and not once did anyone offer assistance, nor did I leave with anything I needed to purchase.   Needless to say I went to Lowes later in the day to get what i needed.

I made it home in time to barely clean up Bo before the realtor showed up to take pictures.  did I mention I spent the first half of my morning cleaning the yard and deck up for said pictures.  We talked a bit, and after she left I fed Zeke lunch while Bo napped.   we walked to get Caleb, hung outside for a bit then came in so Caleb could do his homework.  then we went to Lowes and got back just as Dean got home from work.   But while I was at Lowes Dean called to tell me he’s leaving tomorrow, his boss booked him a flight out tomorrow afternoon, 2ish.

I fed the boys dinner, Dean and a friend went to home depot(blah!) to get some things we needed that I couldnt (interior doors) while I bathed Zeke and Bo for bed.   Now the two little ones are asleep, Caleb just showered for tomorrow and Dean is hopefully on his way home from running an errand for his friend.   He’s not working tomorrow, thank goodness.  Zeke has his 6 month check up in the morning, but First I need to get lab work done that I should have had done last week but didnt manage to.   then we’ll eat lunch and get Dean to the airport, then it’s me and the kiddos!   Dean will fly back on the 13th so he can be here to attend my cousins wedding on the 14th.   after that we dont know what the plan is, when he’ll go back and how long he’ll stay.

the house is listed, pics were added to the listing today, a sign should be up in our yard by Wednesday at latest.   Praying someone sees it and is VERY interested so I am not here alone w/ the kids too long.  A friend of ours, our favorite sitter, may be temporarily moving in to help me out.  my major concern is getting Caleb to school on time w/ the two little ones.  So, if she’s here she can stay w/ the other two while I run Caleb to school. that will be very helpful!  she does work so she wont be around all of the time, but any help will be great!  that and I’m still not feeling so good so by the end of the day I’m dead tired and always still in pain, even though I’m on some painkillers.  so it will be fun trying to do it all alone.   just pray our house sells quickly!!

caleb is already upset about Dean leaving, but if our friend moves in he’ll be happy or at least distracted.    I think the other boys will be ok w/ the changes, at least I hope.

oh and yeah….after dinner I went to get a drink out of the fridge and the light wasnt on. the light bulb isnt burned out, it’s plugged in and well it’s dead.  the fridge isnt working.  today the realtor and I went over what we were taking and leaving….I said all appliances stay and that the only not updated appliance is the fridge.  I cant believe we might have to buy a new freaking fridge right before we move….i’m trying not to think about it!!  so it’s been a crazy day…tons going on and like i Said I dont even want to think about the fridge needing replaced…..

and now we wait!

well Dean got his verbal offer on Wednesday and the written one this morning.  it says his start date is October 1st, so who knows how quickly they will fly him out to Cincinnati.   this could be his last weekend here!!   bah!!   good part is since he’s staying w/ the same company benefits stays effective and the like so we dont have to worry about a lapse in any of that.   sbusy day finishing up getting the house cleaned up then I have a meeting w/. the lady who will be taking my job as nursery team leader at our church.  last sunday was my last official Sunday in leadership, it makes me sad but I know once we move and get settled we’ll be able to attend our favorite church of all time, I’m looking forward to that familiarity and hoping Dean and I can get back on the tech crew for that, I would so love that environment again. he’s had dreams of working w/ the theater group again, It will be nice to go back but hard to leave everyone here.  I have friends here that I’ve had stronger relationships with than  ever before, when we left Ohio we left coworkers and family but we hadnt gotten very deep into friendships w/ that many folks, sadly we had just started a friendship w/ a couple and I’m hoping they are still around so I can look them up when we get  back.  but now I’ve got some great friends that I’ve already cried about having to leave. you know who you are and I love you all.   this is hard on us, as much as we need this move for so many reasons, it’s going to be difficult for all of us.  but I think this is the right thing for our family and a stepping point for great things for us and the kids.   if anything the promotion is a good thing for Dean jobwise so that’s already a positive.   so those of you who are struggling with our decision please know we are doing this for a lot of reasons, none of which include purposefully hurting anyone close to us.   we love everyone in our family and our friends, this isnt about that.  this is about maintaining a healthy family, financially, spiritually, emotionally and even physically.   there’s some good doctors in Ohio, one of the best is there that handles one of my conditions so I know that it might be good for me to go there and see those doctors.   Dean not only hated his current job situation, he got laid off so moving jobs was not an option but a need, so this is a blessing in that area in many ways.   well I’m done trying to convince anyone why we’ve made our choice, the choice has been made and the wheels have been set in motion for this huge transition for our family.  if you cant be supportive of us then please dont bother us during this stressful time in our lives. it’s like when the kids try to help us do something but really only make it harder, so if you cant be helpful and supportive then we’d rather not have your help.  we would appreciate any help though if I havent affended anyone!  I just wanted it be known that I dont want your helping to be more of a burden to us or you, so dont help if you cant.

Dean did get the job transfer to Ohio.  it’s considered a promotion and he is looking forward to doing something different.  they want him there before oct. 9th and said they will be flying him out there sometime next week but that they’d also pay to fly him back and forth as needed to sell the house/take care of family things.   He’s excited to be traveling for business, something he’s never done before. it will be interesting here w/ the kids alone for an unknown amt of time.  The kids and I will stay here until the house is sold, praying that it’s not too long!  well gotta run, just wanted to give everyone an update.  thanks for all the prayers, now we need more so we can all survive this difficult time of transition.

please say a prayer for us today if you do that sort of thing…Dean is expecting a call today to let him know whether or not he’s got the job in OH through his same company. he was offered a job to stay here through the new company but the offer was for less money that he makes now and we cant afford to live on that, esp. if we stay here.   It’s hard waiting for news that will either change things drastically well, either way change things because he will need a job here if he doesnt get the one there and we dont feel we can accept the other offer at the lower salary….this is either the end to the job searching or another beginning of more job seeking.    Bah!!  being an adult sucks sometimes…