Wisdom from my walk

due to the passing of Dean’s aunt we will be housing Dean’s parents and aunt this weekend.  Dean is flying home on Friday, while his parents drive here, which I think is ironic.   Everyone is concerned about stressing me out, I laughed it off, as if having 3 kids by myself for 10 days isnt stressful enough, I am glad to have more folks around to change diapers instead of just having to do it all myself!!   Free room and board for anyone who feeds, changes, bathes and cares for my kids for a day or even a half day!  😉 heck even an hour…I just want a nap!!  seriously though, a wedding, a funeral and packing the house up while figuring out if we are going really try to buy the home we want in Ohio.   should be a fun weekend!!

just so you know, aside from being tired, which isnt that new for me, handling the kids alone has been much easier than I expected.  I’m sure not everyone could handle it but I thank God for blessing me w/ the gift of (sometimes) being able to adequately manage a handful of kids and a home easily.   I’ve found I actually feel better when I dont take my newest medicine, I think it makes me more tired than I already was, I didnt take it yesterday and I was much better, today I took it and the pain is actually worse and I’m more tired, but it also could just be I overdid it yesterday and thus the pain and fatigue are worse today?  who knows.  I’m not supposed to stop the meds cold turkey but it’s hard to remember to take them when I am trying to get the kids up and out by 7:30.  I did remember to take them today…speaking of which..I need to go take the rest of them now.

goodnight and it might be kind of busy the next few days but hoping to get some pics of the kids up soon.   they are growing so fast, zeke especially.

Got this dress today for the wedding…it’s so comfy the pattern is odd but the style is very slimming and just awesome.

i’ve told Dean he can put an offer in on this new construction 4 bed 2 1/2 bath w/ a spousal approval contingency, so basically offer but say if I get there and dont like it we can back out.   new construction, less than a year old!!  first floor laundry, I am so in heaven!  2 pantries!!   pics are here that Dean took yesterday, he’s gone to see the house twice, hes been to see about a dozen homes already.   and more tonight but I think we both love the idea of a new home! unfinished basement but w/ 4 bedrooms we’d have time to build out the basement and enough room for storage in the 2 car garage!! wohoo!!   we should probably be able to afford it to, maybe at the same pymt we have now but that depends on the down payment amt.   so maybe a little less, but for a new home!!  it looks nice and his mom approved of it…so thats comforting.

-to cut the grass, and to borrow the neighbors lawnmower when the pull string on yours break after only getting half the yard mowed

– to trim long dead branches on the big obnoxious tree that made it hard to cut the grass

– to sweep up the leaves from the driveway

– to change lightbulbs when more than 2 go out at a time at different places in the house

– to move the ladder that’s been sitting on the deck for a week unused

– to help care for fussy kids

– and more importantly to cook for you every now and then!!

I did most of those things above yesterday or today already….the cutting grass was fun w/ the kids, at least Zeke was taking a nap.  another showing of the house this morning, so the house needs to stay clean.  I’m taking the little ones w/ me to look for an outfit for the wedding we’re going to on Saturday, yeah for finding friends to watch the kids!!!

gotta run, I cant wait to have dean change some stinky diapers for me….of course both have them at the same time..

Dean went to have dinner and play a game with a friend of his who he used to work with in Ohio.   He has several friends he has kept in touch with since we moved.    When we left Ohio I was just starting to have a close friendship with several ladies, I had one friend there who I worked with  who I had a close friendship with but because she had infertility problems and was facing those challenges when I got pregnant w/ Caleb it got hard for us to get together.   granted she tried hard to look past my pregnancy and her infertility but it was hard and I cant imagine how hard it was for, ok maybe I can somewhat.  but we lost touch once I switched jobs, shortly after I found out I was pregnant.  in Baltimore I have a lot of girlfriends, several close friends in fact, but Dean has only recently started a meaningful friendship with another guy.   So this move is going to be harder on me in that aspect.  Dean has a network of friends to move back to and I am moving away from all of mine.   I know most of it is because I’ve grown to be more open since we moved so I’ve made it an important part of my life to engage new people, something I never used to do.  I definitely have changed a lot since we came here, guess growing up does that to you. I only hope I can continue to be so open and find some genuine friendships once we move.  but I am already dreading saying goodbye to my closest friends.   I cry every time I drive to my best friends house.   I know, I’m silly but it’s hard.

by the way anyone know where I can get moving boxes, and easily w/ three kids in tow?  or want to get some for me????? I think after Dean’s week home we are driving back with him to househunt and be with him at the hotel.   We have been pre-approved for a loan and there are several ways they said we can manage a new loan while we wait to sell, so I am more hopeful that we can find a house, buy it , move then wait for this to sell.  its looking very encouraging, Deans got a date with the realtor tonight to go see some we found online that look nice.

Last night when Bo saw the orange juice I bought he wanted some, I remembered that last time I had gotten it he liked it.  Which was odd since Caleb never liked orange or oranges.  So he had some last night instead of milk and this morning, did you know it has the same amt of calcium as a glass of milk?   So earlier he had a messy diaper and his bottom was red.  Then while outside he started screaming for now reason and pulling his diaper.  his bottom is now not only red but raw and bleeding, I had just changed him prior to going outside so it’s not like he sat in the messy diaper for a while.  then I remembered that this happened last time he had orange juice, how could i forget!!  I feel so bad.  he is so miserable because his bottom is so sore and raw.  I am such a bad bad mommy.  poor kid gets my digestive system I suppose, nowadays anything I eat makes me sick, Bo is often the same way.   I think I might start keeping a list near the fridge of who can eat what, like Bo and caleb cant eat pears(For the same reason as the orange juice), Zeke hates peaches,  bo should avoid orange juice.   Spaghetti sauces tend to make Bo break out in a rash too, on his face where the sauce touched, the same is true of Caleb with peanut oil.   fun stuff, how am I supposed to keep track of all of this w/ three kids!?

aaahhh a nap!!  Bo ate a late late breakfast, guessing it was more like brunch and when zeke fell asleep around 11:30-45 I thought maybe I could get Bo to nap at the same time and get some rest myself,  it worked, we all napped for a while.  Zeke is up now, at least now I should have enough energy to walk to get caleb.  I dont feel like the walking dead like I did this morning at least!  hoping the rest of the afternoon sails on quickly.  a few more days til my honey is home!!   Contemplating whether its worth spending the money or not, but it’s 99 cent happy meal night today…..I will probably give in and do that so I dont have to cook and clean up!  I just hate doing that when I have frozen french fries and nuggets in the freezer.  as you can see I havent really talked myself into it yet….well Bo’s awake.  back to work…:-)