Wisdom from my walk

freaking time change.  kids up at 6 am again today.  my kids normally sleep til 7:30, somedays later if we have no where to rush out to.   this so sucks on my own.  i went to be early last night but am still dragging this night, ok by early I mean before 11!  i guess i better start going to bed when the kids do.  I even kept caleb and zeke up later than usual to try to keep them in later this morning, didnt work.   bah.  I hate mornings.  and to think I used to be a morning person.

uh oh…if i put my kids to bed at 8 pm today but time changes over night, wont they get up an hour earlier than usual?!?!?  I wish I had remembered earlier I would have kept them up later.   bah!   praying they decide to sleep in, bo should since he didnt nap today.  wow.  now I’ve got an extra hour to catch up on my shows on tivo..wohoo!

it’s sad that I got all excited about my big Purchases today.  I got this carseat, well two actually, one for Boaz and one for Zeke.  Bo’s current car seat only goes up to 40 lbs and I really cant lift the infant carrier w/ the pain I’m in these days, so I wanted a new seat for Zeke too.  So after days of searching for a store that had 2 of the same car seat in stock, and preferrably one that was an infant – 100 lbs (though I settled for infant – 80 lbs, but that’s fine both boys wont be that big for a while! )  I finally set out to get the carseats after leaving the kids w/ a friend today.  earlier this week I went searching for carseats w/ kids in tow and tried to look online for what I wanted so I was more prepared at the store.   I reluctanly got these seats today, mostly because of how much money I was spending.  they did give me 20% off the second one, the discount said it was for multiple births.  guess they assumed my buying two of the same meant I had or was going to have twins…I didnt say I had twins and wasnt asked so I figured it wasnt deceptive of me, I was glad to accept the discount.   the seat I got on clearance yesterday was a graco one w/ a lizard pattern and I got it for $9!!  so now all of the boys have new carseats, I am so excited, it’s nice to have something new and nice even if it’s something as trivial as carseats, but it’s also comforting to know they will all be traveling safely those 500 miles to Ohio!

the good news today:

I dont have lupus – but we’re back to square one as far as no diagnosis.  and I am feeling worse again, sure taking care of the kiddos non stop isnt helping
Caleb didnt break his arm – thank god!

well that’s all I’ve got but it’s something good I suppose.   no weekend plans, maybe taking the kids to my friends house so I can pack up some stuff around here and go get the kids new carseats.  I managed to get out today w/ them for a while, but I want to get Zeke and Bo matching car seats that will last them a while and none of the places I went had two of the same ones available.   but target did have a cool backless kids booster seat on sale for $9!! I got two, one new one for Caleb and one just to have.  I cant wait to get zeke a new seat so I can stop carrying him around in the infant carrier.  My arms hurt constantly and lugging that around all of the time makes me want to cry the pain is so bad, and that’s after two kinds of pain meds I am on, I cant imagine how it would feel if I wasnt on pain medicine!

dean’s been busy working.  our realtor wont return our calls today, we were hoping to make some decisions about some major things today and she hasnt called.   I want to move ASAP, with or without our house selling but we dont think we can afford it.

I probably wont update unless something major housewise happens this weekend.  sorry for the boredom of my entries, things have just been rough around here lately.

on top of my life’s craziness I’m worried about a friend today who is having some medical procedures done this afternoon.   I care about her very much and am sad that because I’m by myself w/ the kids I cant really be there with her through this stressful time in her life.   Praying all goes well and that she comes out of this with great news and a happy heart!  i’ve been crying over my own issues these last few days and then I think of what I know others are going through and know my stuff is meaningless to their struggles.   It’s just hard to remember that in the middle of one small crisis after another.

i missed the call from my dr yesterday w/ my test results, hoping I dont miss it again while I’m out taking caleb to get checked out by the dr.   Bah…not like I really want to hear what she has to say anyway.

I want my husband home, my kids healthy and a good nights sleep, or to at least wake up not feeling like I got run over by a truck. Today is not going well at all….taking Caleb to the dr in a bit…sent him to school, they called within 15 minutes to send him home. Fun way to start my day, i’m so sick of this crap. Why does everything have to be so crazy in my life??? I’m ready to w/draw him from school and pack up and go live in a hotel w/ Dean until we can move. Dont let me forget to mention, that in the midst of trying to decide whether to wait for the drs office to open at 9 or take Caleb to the ER w/ all the kids I tried to reach Dean at work.   He never answered.   I know he’s been really busy and away from his desk and it was my own fault for having his cell phone so he wasnt reachable, but when he called me after 9 am. he said he had been sleeping, overslept.   Figures.  I’m here struggling alone and he’s sleeping the morning away.  Great just freaking great.  I guess at least one of will be rested.

just wanted to let those of you who were worrying about me know…the boys and I left the hotel in Cincy at 9 a.m. this morning and arrived safely home in baltimore at 8 p.m.   it was a very long, tiring trip, I about fell asleep several times driving.  I made a lot of stops because of my exhaustion and pain.   despite my condition, the trip was great.  the kids were awesome, the best ever on a trip I believe!   that was very helpful.  the biggest downside to driving alone w/ three kids, two under 2 esp. is when you have to go to the bathroom.  I had to unload all of the kids whenever I had to pee, if someone had been with me they could have stayed in the car w/ the kids.  so that wore me out more, and usually meant getting drinks and snacks and fresh diapers for all everytime we stopped.   blah!  I’ll write more about the trip later, I am way too exhausted to stay up much more.  when we got in I unpacked everything, bathed the little ones, put them to bed then got Caleb in bed just a little bit ago.  checking my email and then heading to bed myself.  I miss Dean already.   our 8 year wedding anniversary is next Wednesday, he wont be around for it.   its very sad!  we havent been apart this much since college, I love that man and hate having to be separated so long.  caleb is angry at me for making him come home, he wanted to stay in Ohio with daddy, grandparents and his cousins.   I didnt really want to come home, but I was getting sick of 3 kids in a hotel room.   oh..lots of stories there…the best is last night when the power went out at the hotel for a while…anyway…got to get in bed.  we are back..not sure for how long but I’ll try to get around to a real update tomorrow sometime.  after looking at so many houses last week then walking into our spotless one here, I was amazed at how nice our home actually is.   it took going to look at others to appreciate what we do have here.   God if i Have to look at another dirty home for sale I am going to scream..but that’s another story altogether.