What should be day four of my new job is being spent at home being sick and miserable w/ a fevered and sick toddler as well. All week long I’ve been wiping runny green mucus noses at work and then yesterday one little girl coughed so much she was throwing up her lunch. Then we took her temperature after she settled down and it was 102! Last night Caleb’s fever hit 102. It’s been better today but he’s not been himself. I feel horrible, the heaviness in my chest and coughing is unbearable. we fell asleep around 11 for an early nap since I just couldnt keep going anymore, and we’d been up since 6:30. I’m up but Caleb’s still napping. I know theres no way he’ll get an afternoon nap, but oh well, I feel a lot better after getting up. The pollen count is high today and it’s supposed to be nearing 80 degrees out. It would be a great day to get out and play except we already are having difficulties breathing and I am sure the increased pollen count and humidity wouldnt be too good for us. I am upset w/ myself for not going to work, but I dont get paid nearly enough to fuss w/ being sick myself and tending other sick kids all day. So here we are.
Been a lazy first week of work, and I like it that way. It would be fine if we werent paying for Caleb to be there full time when # he isnt there full time and # 2 I am with him the whole time. So its like I pay them to take him they pay me to work there and then my paycheck comes back w/ like a $1?? No not really, unfortunately wont get a paycheck til the week of the 20th, so we wont know if it’s financially doable or not till then which sucks because we could pay for these 3 weeks of Caleb going and then me not get paid enough to cover that or to cover just that. If I work 40 hours a week we’ll come out on the positive side but not by much, but I ‘m not working 40 hours and it doesnt seem like I will be. Oh well, for now it’s just a wait and see thing. Dean may be getting good news about getting hired on soon, so if we are patient all things could work out and I could be a stay at home mom again for a good long time. Then maybe talk of another baby will happen…ah my dreams, to be a stay at home mom of a clan of little Deaners! No really, my dream is to own a Christian coffee house that offers drop in childcare in the evenings and weekends so single parents, young parents, or even grandparents, well anyone, can come and enjoy fellowship, music, and of course all sorts of baked goods made by myself of course in my free time?! Big dreams I know, and maybe when we are old and our kids are out of the house we’ll have time and money to invest in it, as Dean has a similar dream as well. It’s always fun to dream big. Right now my immediate dream is to be able to financially afford and be comfortable as a stay at home preggo (it is a dream!) mom.
Despite my big dreams, I really am loving how things are right now, minus the horrific cold or flu we’ve got again. It’s just too bad it’s probably not going to work out. If only there was a way I could work part time, take Caleb with me, and still make a little money. I am sure there is, but dreamers aren’t neccessarily able to become doers or to see how to make the dreams possible. One thing I know I can do though is enjoy another stay at home day w/ my baby boy. He’s surely not a baby anymore. he’s gone potty a lot this week, even at the daycare. It’s easier for him there, since it’s a childsize potty and he can open the bathroom door on his own, if only he could take off his diaper and pants by himself. I think we’re going to have to get some pull ups today though, he fussed and threw a huge tantrum when it was time to get off the potty and put a diaper on. I had some cloth training pants I put on him and he was ok with that but no diaper. So time to move to the next step. I am so thrilled, my other dream is that he is potty trained before age 2, which at this point seems like a big reality. Not that its a dream, but that the fact will be he will be potty trained by the time he turns two. Sad how going potty can make a mommy so proud!
Well I better work on getting our lunch ready so when he wakes up he can eat. Hope everyone else is enjoying this nice weather!
