Forgiveness
Bobby Tomberlin/Jim Witter

Little Mickey Johnson was my very best friend
In first grade we swore we’d stay that way to the end
But in seventh grade somebody stole my bike
I asked Mickey if he knew who did it, and he lied
Cause it was him…

And when I found out it hit me like a ton of bricks
And I can still see that look on his face when I said
“I never want to talk to you again”

Sometimes we lose our way
We don’t say things we should say
We hold on to stubborn pride
When we should put it all aside
To waste the time we’re given seems so senseless
And one little word shouldn’t be so hard…
Forgiveness…

A little card arrived on my wedding day
“Best wishes from an old friend” was all it had to say
No return address, no, not even a name
But the messy way that it was written gave it away
It was him…
And I just had to laugh as the past came flooding through my mind
I should have picked up that phone right then and there
But I just didn’t make the time…

Sometimes we lose our way
We don’t say things we should say
We hold on to stubborn pride
When we should put it all aside
To waste the time we’re given seems so senseless
And one little word shouldn’t be so hard…
Forgiveness…

Sunday morning paper arrived on my step
The first thing I read filled my heart with regret
I saw a name I hadn’t seen in a while
It said he was survived by a wife and a child
And it was him…
When I found out, the tears just fell like rain
Cause I realized that I’d missed my chance
To ever talk to him again…

Sometimes we lose our way
We don’t say things we should say
We hold on to stubborn pride
When we should put it all aside
To waste the time we’re given seems so senseless
And one little word shouldn’t be so hard…
Forgiveness…

One little word shouldn’t be so hard…
Little Mickey Johnson was my very best friend…

Sometimes you just know when your heart is being pulled in too many directions. While standing in line to get my new cd autographed today I was trying to keep Caleb quiet and carry on a conversation with a lady in front of me. She started talking to me at first about Caleb and I slowly learned that she would have talked to anyone who looked willing to listen. We talked a little, in between trying to get Caleb to get still long enough to be in line. Ends up she has had 9 pregnancies, 6 of her babies are “in glory” as she stated. I believe most were miscarraiges and the one she talked about most was her son who was still born. She said she has 3 wonderful daughters that are all in school now. I felt such a pain and guilt that I didnt know what to say to her. She told me lots more about herself, and this was a complete stranger. I knew there was a reason I was there and was talking to her but now I feel like I let her and God down. I was my usual introverted self and did my best to talk to her but I just couldnt handle all the stuff she dropped on me and wrestle w/ Caleb. I wish I could go back and ask for her forgiveness and take her out to lunch and talk more. Funny how my day keeps being about forgiveness. I’ve been struggling a lot lately emotionally for several reasons and often when I get in these moods it takes me back to my past and brings up lots of feelings I hate to have. Feelings that I wasnt a good enough friend to people and that I let a lot of people down. Not sure why I’m struggling with this, but seems to always happen as I start new relationships and try to build lasting friendships. It sucks. Why cant my baggage get lost , maybe if I check it at the baggage claim area it will conveniently get misplaced…..if it was only that easy…….