What a boring Friday night! Neither Dean nor I were feeling up to much and Caleb was so fussy. He's been very clingy the last few days, all I can think is that he's either teething or that the separation anxiety is getting worse as he starts walking all over the place by himself. I'm having some bad cyst like pain and was actually double overed in pain earlier, but luckily it was during Calebs' nap this afternoon. We're entertaining tomorrow night and all week long I kept thinking that I had tons of stuff to do before then, but today I am just so blah about it. I am not feeling up to cleaning and its not like our house is ever dirty, Dean thinks I get OCD when it comes to keeping the house clean but anymore its just pointless with the baby and Dean leaving crap everywhere. I wear myself out cleaning up all day and at the end of the day I look around and am satisfied, but before the day even gets started the next day its a mess again. I cant imagine how bad it will be when Caleb is big enough to leave his crap lying around and not caring about it. For now I will savor the neatness I maintain around here, but for tonight the mess can wait. I think I'd better tend to my pain or I wont feel much like entertaining, with or without a clean house tomorrow.
Stefani's blogmakes me remember what those last few weeks and days felt like before Caleb. Dean and I had discussed when we'd start on another baby, and we both know we arent financially able to, but isnt the second one cheaper? Especially since by then Caleb will be off formula and hopefully out of diapers? My ob/gyn and I decided at my last apptment to discuss possibly starting to try at our next apptment, which happens to be in two weeks. I so hate taking BC and it's not even helping, I mean the whole reason I want to take it is to stop PMS and maybe my period altogether, no such luck. I still have pain in the middle of every cycle anyway, so who knows if it is working at all. And lets not even mention that orthotricyclene is supposed to help acne, well I have clear skin, but since I've started it every cycle I break out horribly. Whats the plus side to taking it, peace of mind I guess. But if I silently long for another baby whats the point? yeah, if you read the earlier blog from today, I am sure I have enough on my plate to worry about today, but it sure would be nice, cause I am for sure not working if I am pregnant, been there and threw up on too many pairs of scrubs to do it again!
On Tuesday we had decided after talking to our counselor about our current money situation that we could get by without my working. Yesterday I got two calls for interviews from when I sent out my resume over 2 weeks ago! So I figured I'd see how it goes, I mean I'd rather live comfortably than just getting by. So I called the lady back that I was supposed to meet w/ last week about watching Caleb but since a week had gone by and I hadnt gotten back with her, cause of spending most of last week in the hospital w/ my brother and then being too busy to call til yesterday, she had already taken on an infant and had no more openings. So at first I told myself the call about a job interview was my sign to go back to work, and surely the second call was to reinforce that point. So does the fact we dont have daycare mean I continue to stay home or does it just mean that that wasnt the person who was supposed to become our daycare provider??? So many questions, and no one has answers.
I want to support us financially but I also want to be able to keep being the glue that holds our household and family together too. I know women do both all of the time but I barely get me time now, I am sure w/ working and then coming home to the baby will be even worse. It's such a tough choice. We have a month before our mortgage is due since we just settled on the house so it's not like we wont be okay, but we really have a horrible car situation, the lack thereof, which I think would make it harder for me to get a job, but Dean said to worry about that when and if I get a job. Somedays I just hate being an adult. And its even harder to think about going back to work after I just cuddled w/ my son and watched him as he fell asleep in my arms! He's grown so much in the last week, physically and mentally, and being here to see it was amazing. But in the same respect, I've been here for his first step, his first word, so it's not like theres many more firsts of the first year to see but still....argh! I wish someone would just tell me what to do! Neither Dean or I think its good for Caleb for me to work, but we also know its not good to be this close to not being able to pay bills. But as I always say, people do it with a lot less money than we have, so whats our problem!
Shortly before 2 p.m. Caleb was playing in the living room and I was watching tv, and him of course! Caleb decided he was sleepy and laid down on the floor and cuddled up w/ the towel I had used to dry him after we played outside in the water. Before I knew it he was asleep! I took the time to get motivated and work on removing the chipped paint in our bathroom in hopes we can repaint in there sometime soon(hint hint Dean!). Now there is a huge mess in the bathroom! I grabbed a quick shower, since I was covered in paint and dust, sure to get out and hear Caleb awake, but he's not. I know if I try to get a quick nap he is sure to wake up, but I can always try....
Been a busy week already, the inlaws left on Monday, my brother arrived Monday evening. I spent the day out w/ my brother and his family yesterday. Today is our first day w/out plans, and it's nice!
Hopefully I can get Caleb into a schedule again. He is doing so well. He's walking all by himself now. he can get to a standing postion w/out pulling up onto anything. He waves hello and says Hi sometimes but he is just getting the hang of the waving thing. It was nice having everyone around as he took his first steps and started waving hello. He's just 9 1/2 months but he looks and acts like a 1 year old!
we talked to a counselor last night about our money problems, he seems to think we can afford to not have me work, it will take some strict budgetting and planning, but seems to think we will be okay. I am so excited! We could use a lump of money now to work on our car situation, but we know God will provide and somehow we will figure out what to do about the car. After talking to him I think both Dean and I felt a lot more hopeful about our financial situation. As a result of closing on the house we paid off our last school loan, so that was good. Now we just need to get rid of our credit card debt! Easier said than done! But if we focus on it we can take care of it a lot quicker.
My brother is doing so much better. He's still having some trouble w/ his speech, but he sounds so much better than last week. His head hurts badly but that's to be expected. It was a horrible scare he gave us, and it will be awhile before he's back to his old self, but we are just glad he's ok. Made us all think about how important seat belts and insurance are! Well, Caleb is finally napping and I should use that time wisely since it might be the only nap he takes, he's so mobile and nosey it's hard to get him to nap, but he was amazing and napped a lot throughout the craziness last week so he might do ok now that things are more normal around here.
My brother is doing much better! He is still having some speech problems, but they discharged him from the hospital today! He cant drive for 2 months and will have to work shorter work shifts for a while once he goes back. They drove to the shore today, they were ready to be home. But are coming back Monday night so that he can be here Tuesday for a check up and to get the stitches taken out. He still has a lot of recovery and rehab to do and it will be a long process, but the changes in the last few days have been amazing, definite answers to prayers.
other good news, Caleb is walking! All by himself! I think chasing his cousin around motivated him. He spent most of the week w/ family in the waiting room and we were all cheering him on yesterday as he took tons of steps alone. It was exciting for everyone to be able to see this huge accomplishment and help him learn. The inlaws are here and he is loving the time w/ them. He's doing great despite the roguh week we've had. We wont be back on any sort of schedule for a while, yet he amazingly naps, even at the hospital and even tonight while we ate out. he's an angel! I think he's napped more these last few days than he does when it was just me and him at home, I think all the walking and visiting w/ family is wearing him out.
We closed on the house today, the mortgage pymt ended up being more than we thought it would, but as Dean pointed out we still couldnt get a 2 bedroom apt for what we will be paying for a 6 bdrm, 3 bath house! (at least not in Maryland!)
I was able to nap today while Dean and his parents visited his grandad, the week has taken it's toll on me, and after closing on the house and hearing my brother and his family were safely back at his mother in laws on the shore, I was relieved and exhausted. I came back home to rest and it wasnt long before I was out. Dean came home hours later and I still only woke long enough to get a kiss and ask what was going on. Then we got up and went to dinner,mmmm! Crabs and a shrimp salad sandwhich! Well now its time for a relaxing night at home...goodnight!
My wonderful husband had this to say. Meanwhile, my brother is doing amazingly well today! he was up and about, walking and sitting in the waiting room w/ us. They took the bandages off today, he looks a lot better than I thought it would. He's talking better, he's doing better in general. Chances are he will be discharged tomorrow, but the recovery will be long and hard. They want him to come back for therapy and he cant be alone for a while, so the hows and wheres of what will happen are still in the works. Right now we are just happy to see him doing so much better. Meanwhile, my inlaws just arrived. Tomorrow we settle on the house, tomorrow my brother gets out of the hosptial, tomorrow...tomorrow....it's only a day away! oh no wait, only a few minutes away...it's way past my bed time! I have tons more to write but time is short and my brain is already compacted w/ so much else right now....so good night and tomorrow...tomorrow...
My brother was in visiting from the Eastern Shore this week, he was leaving this morning. My husband stayed home today to go to a job interview in the morning and was going to babysit in the afternoon so I could go to an orientation for getting my daycare license. I wasnt able to shower til a little after noon, right after cleaning house and eating lunch. As we prepared to walk out the door to leave, we got THE call. I told Dean not to answer if it was my mom, but then changed my mind and said to tell her we were leaving. He answered, I noted the change in tone and the quiet responses and he hung up. I was worried, and rightly so. My brother was in the ER, he'd been in an accident a bad one and my nephew was in the car with him too. We were the only ones who knew how to reach my sister in law who was in training downtown so we went to get her, and none of us knew how bad it really was til we saw him. The baby was unhurt, not a scratch on him. My brother now lays in the neurological critical care unit. He has a bad skull fracture and his brain is bleeding. We wont know until tomorrow if it requires surgery, in the meantime we only saw him briefly and when we did he was awake, but had trouble speaking. The frustrating part was the accident happened at 9:30 a.m. and we werent reached til almost 1 p.m.! My brother couldnt remember phone numbers and his wife didnt know til we told her. Thats a long story, but the important part was my brother remembered one number, my grandparents, my dad's parents. My granddad was there at 9:30 and took my nephew home with him and he tried to reach everyone he could, but didnt think I would know how to reach my sister in law so didnt think to call me. I know he was dealing with a lot, but it still hurts to know how bad shape my brother was in and not being there right away. Last (last night) I saw my brother he was doing good, we just finished playing cards, Stacey and I beat him and Joe. We'd had a good night, I'd spent the day yesterday watching my nephew. All good memories, but I am scared to death that those might be the last of the good memories for a while....I will write more when I am not so upset and when we know more about his condition. So I probably wont be around here much until things are calmed down some. Your prayers are needed and much appreciated. We know God kept my nephew safe and worked out a lot of things before the accident happened, like my granddad, whom was the first called, isnt usually home on Tuesdays and just happened to be off today, my husband just happened to be off today, and the very fact that my mother and father were in the same room and I think even shared a word or too is a miracle! funny how tragedy changes people.
We had a very uneventful weekend. The muffler on the car we've been using fell off Friday as we drove home from picking up Dean at the train station, and we are w/out funds to fix it so we didnt want to drive that car all weekend. The other choice was to fix the flat on the other car we are using. So we did that , but that ended up being an ordeal too. point is, we went no where all weekend until yesterday when we tried out a new church, and then spent the afternoon hanging out at the mall waiting for the new tire. After that I washed the cars and Dean hung out w/ Caleb. The night was pretty relaxing, I went to bed quite early since oh yeah, I forgot that part...well Saturday night Jess came over and played cards w/ Dean, Stacey and I. She didnt get here til after 10, so we started late, but we played cards til 2 am at which time Dean went to bed while the gals talked. I was up til 4 when Jess finally left, then Caleb woke up around 4:30 for a bottle. I fed him then crashed for a whole 2 or 3 hours til he was up again. So last night I went to bed early to try to make up for that long night. Today my brother is in town, so we'll be hanging out with family. Tomorrow I have a meeting w/ a daycare provider. Hopefully soon I'll get some calls about the zilllion resumes I've sent out. Til then, I am enjoying every last minute home w/ my son!
When I worked at a daycare, I always enjoyed coming up w/ things to put in the sensory table. The kids always loved it, and I enjoyed it, but it was usually always messy. I've been wanting to do something similar w/ Caleb but we didnt have anything to use as a sensory table. Then last night it hit me, we dont use his baby bath tub any more and that would be perfect for filling with different things! So today I did just that, to introduce him to it, I figured I'd just start with water. And to avoid a huge mess, being the nice day that it is, we went on the deck and Caleb wore a pair of spiffy swimtrunks Dean and I got at Childrens place. I think his first thought was "hey what's this?" Once he realized it was okay to play and get wet, he started enjoyinghimself.
My son is such a ham! I think I heard him say Cheese!
Tonight we are going to pick up the Baby Animals Baby Boosters Book Kit from the library. It's a neat concept. You get a bunch of books at one time, and they are all themed. Too bad you have to return them! Today we went to the library for Books for Babies. Mostly fingerplays and songs, since it for ages 0-23 months. Caleb enjoyed the other kids. We really need a play group. Hopefully next week at the MOMs meeting we can work on that. But it seems like a waste if I am going back to work, I dont know. I am so torn. I so enjoy helping and seeing Caleb develop. Sent out a few resumes today, if I am lucky no one will call me! That's horrible, I mean I know we need money, especially since we are thinking about getting a new car soon, but......I hate being a grown up sometimes!
Tonight while at Walmart we found this inflatable ball filled car. It was on sale for $9.00 so I just had to get it. We let Caleb wear himself taking the balls out before bedtime. Here's some pics of him enjoying his first car.
Caleb Standing in New Car
This is soooo much fun, Daddy!
Will you just look at all these balls!
It looks like I've been busy today, I mean I've gotten a lot done here today. But I forgot to tell you about yesterday. Caleb had his 9 month check up. He is 29 in. tall and 19 1/2 lbs heavy or light rather. I was hoping he'd gained a few more pounds since his flu but he hadn't. He is very advanced for his age, but I always talk about that. The dr said he is doing good. I was angered to hear that they are still out of prevnar, the immunization he's been waiting to get since they said they were out the first tiime he went there months ago! She said to call in a few weeks to see if they have any since he needs it before his one years shots. I dont know if I should be mad or not, but seems like it is putting him at risk. They wouldnt require it if it wasnt necessary right?
Well after his appt we went to lunch with my mom for her birthday, which is actually today. After that we went to Walmart, and suprisingly Caleb napped the whole time I shopped, that was a first. Then we headed further across town to pick up the roofing inspection for the house. We recieved the final papers that we need to take to the mortgage lady today. So should be soon that we close! Wohoo!!
We spent about 4 1/2 hours out yesterday, but I was still able to do 3 loads of laundry, mop, dust, vaccuum and dust the whole house all before Dean got home! I even fed Caleb his dinner before going to pick Dean up from the train station. By the time we were done dinner I was so tired. Luckily Caleb was too, and he crashed right about 8:00 exactly and slept til around 10 and then only was breifly awake. Then he slept til 5 a.m., another first. But all in all, we had a busy day yesterday. But since Caleb crashed early and without a fight, I was able to finish reading the book I was working on while Dean did his own thing. It was quite a relaxing way to end the night. No plans for tonight really. Theres the Flower Mart downtown that I wanted to get to today, but I forgot to take Dean so I didnt have the car to go. The reason I really wanted to go, other than it would get us out of the house, is because growing up we always went. The lady who babysat us always took us. Her daughter, Miranda danced in the May Pole, or so I remember. We would always get these lemons cut in half w/ a big fat peppermint stick in it. You could suck the lemon juice up through a hole in the peppermint stick. Another fond childhood memory, one of few....Anyway, I mentioned it to Dean a bit ago and he said we could go when he gets home. Other than that, not much should be going on, but another relaxing night at home. And more work on my website too I hope!
Here’s some pics I took today.
Caleb and the box, again.
Can you see the resemblances?
Tenderness figurine and Caleb pics.
What ya doin’ mama?
Caleb’s standing!!
Coasters are cool toys!
Today I received thisas a gift from my in-laws! They had sent me the Tenderness one. I cried it was so thoughtful and beautiful! Thanks! Caleb just liked the box When we had Caleb they got us this New Life one.
These are the two together that we have.
This is the whole reason Caleb and I spent some time in our basement today. Ellicott City which is not very far from us at all, was hit really hard. I thought for sure we had a tornado closeby, it was really nasty out. Lucky me, Caleb and I had just laid down for a nap and I heard the storm worsening and went downstairs w/ a diaper bag and some bottles. I turned on the radio to hear there was a tornado warning for our area! I hate storms, I mean HATE them. Needless to say, Caleb has yet to finish his nap....
The weather lately is horrible! The storms were so bad some trees in our neighborhood were down. I mean pulled out of the ground and not little trees, big old ones! It's scary. They are calling for more storms complete w/ high winds and hail for this afternoon and evening. I hate storms to begin w/ let alone w/out my strong husband's comforting arms around me. Not to mention I have to pick him up from the train station this evening, if I am lucky it wont be bad then.
I am so not in the mood to start job hunting. Things with the closing of the house are getting done so soon our mortgage payment will truly be ours, not my MIL's, and it will be much less than what we pay now. I want to hold out to see if maybe we can make it w/ the lower mortgage pymt, but I think Dean really wants me to get a job.
Tomorrow is Caleb's 9 month well child check up. I am glad, he's been fevered for days now, well we think he has been, he wont let us take his temp, but he will be wearing just a onesie and sweating and his head feel hot while I am cold or comfy. It doesnt look like he is getting a tooth, but last time we didnt see it til it was well through the gums. He wont let me even get near his mouth to look. I am hoping he's gained some more weight too now that he's over that nasty flu bug.
Well, not much else going on around here today. I am trying to relax, I am so tired. Caleb was up so many times last night I almost cried I was so tired when I woke up to hear him not even an hour after I'd already fought w/ him to go back to sleep. It was almost every 2 hours, sometimes less. He's finally settled in for a nice nap now, and I am hoping it's a good long one, I could use one myself!
Angela's new little angel is simply beautiful!
This is my adorable son yesterday as we enjoyed playing at Gwynn Falls Park. Pardon his mismatched clothes, that was all his fathers' doing! Speaking of parents, Happy Mothers Day to all of those great moms out there! I was a little upset, thinking it was my first "official" mothers day and Dean didnt say anything about it until after a ton of people at church wished me a good day! Then we get home and I didn't think he'd done anything, I mean I really only ever ask for at least a card. But he went outside to check on the cement he poured yesterday to stop up the leaky basement, and he came in w/ two cards, one addressed Mommy and one to Amy. I almost cried! I thought he'd not gotten anything. I asked him when he bought them, and he made me feel horrible by telling me yesterday when I was getting a problem w/ the price of Salmon we had paid fixed, he said I was so preoccupied with that and being mad at him for the whole car situation that I didnt even notice what he was up to. He's such a great husband, I so dont deserve him or my wonderful son! To thank him today, I made this great looking Strawberry Shortcake, mmmmm! I hope we dont get too tempted and eat it before we get to my moms!
I figured out some HTML tags! I am so proud of myself. It's not hard when you have a book sitting next to you telling you what to do! What do you think so far? I have a lot of formating to do yet, but in general I am getting satisfied that I am least working on changing things around here!
Looks like this SAHM thing is not going to last much longer. We can't afford for me to stay at home anymore. We tried it and now at the point of poverty we are scared of what happens if I dont get a job soon. I love being home and I know it's going to be hard, but if I have to then I guess I have to. I dont know how we'll afford or find daycare. The worst thing is not knowing if I can even get a job. I have sent my resume out several times over the last few weeks and gotten no calls at all. I really should find good child care before finding a job, I mean the whole reason I started staying at home was because we didnt have good childcare in the first place. But, we just made the decision today, that either I work or Dean gets a second job, but then we'd never see each other, and things are rough enough as is. So it's hard knowing that I have to find daycare and a job asap but it's a Saturday so there's not much I can do right now.
As of last night, it looked like our weekend was going to be a good one. We had a great time at the Balloon Festival. I got a great 6 hours straight of sleep, Caleb only woke once and Dean got up with him. Then I got up early with Caleb so Dean could sleep in; Dean usually gets up and watches cartoons with Dean. So I fed Caleb and he ate some Cheerios while I made some homemade cinnamon rolls, mmmm! I liked them, but Dean didnt for some reason, and he was the whole reason I made them. Oh well. Then we went to Lowes to get some stuff and were going to stop at the market since we were out of baby food. Needless to say the day took a turn for the worst, we had some car trouble, I wont explain cause it was all Dean's fault and he knows it. But we got stuck at the grocery store and Dean's granddad had to come save us. The whole car thing made me very mad at Dean, and my response was very not nice so he was mad at me. When we got home, I spent time w/ Caleb and some time cleaning house while Dean worked on a project outside. The tension got worse, finally we talked long enough for me to ask for Dean to do the check book, since he doesnt like me to anymore. He comes out mad that we dont have money. I got mad knowing he knows its all my fault we dont have money since I dont work. I stormed off, we argued, all about money mostly. After we calmed down we discussed it, and the decision about one of us getting another job was the result. Nonetheless now things seem ok between us. We both know we are stuck under a bunch of bill that keep getting more and more behind and both feel responsible for it. At that same time, I feel worse knowing that I cant give my son the care he deserves if I have to return to work. ARGH! I hate this. I just wish we could go back to the simple days, but then we'd be without our wonderful son, and in a horrible apartment. But stilll....at least back then we had money......
Hell of a mothers day weekend huh? Right now I feel like the worst mom and wife in the world..... and I doubt the feeling will ever go away......
Tonight we are going to the Balloon Festival! I remember shortly after we had Caleb, well he was under a month becuase we were still in Ohio, but we went to a hot air balloon festival. It was at night and they lit up the sky with the lighted balloons. It was a lot of fun, but this time Caleb will be big enough to enjoy it. He loves regular balloons so I am sure he will get a kick out of the big hot air balloons!
well, here it is, me in moveable type! All thanks to Dean. He worked diligently on it whilst I did housework, he's such a gent.
Caleb and I went to our first MOMS meeting yesterday. SO many kids! I have never seen so many kids and pregnant moms in my life! I didnt talk to anyone, but the girl I had talked to on the phone beforehand warned me that the first time would be like that. It was their monthly business meeting where they have a speaker. The next meeting is more informal so hopefully it will be more interesting.
Caleb says Dadda all of the time now. It's so cute! Dean isnt too impressed, says that he doesnt know he's calling him that just that he can say something. Oh well, either way, it's an accomplishment and so adorable! When I took him to the dr last week he weighed in at only 19 lbs 8 oz. I am hoping that was just cause he was sick. That means in 3 months he only gained 2 lbs! He goes for his check up next week so mabye he'll have picked up a little more weight.
I am hoping to get the look of this changed, we were taking it one step at a time. And I am thrilled Dean figured out how to get my blogs imported. Well gotta run, Calebs calling for Dadda and for the moment that is me.....
My first attempt to import my blogger entries into MT succeeded, well if I was trying to import all of Dean's blogs into mine! So we deleted it all, tried some different things. then it did import something, but it just showed the date and author it was published. There were no actual entries. So here we go ago, as Dean deletes it all. I have been following the MT directions , maybe that is the problem. Who knows. I give up for now. We'll try again tonight when Dean is actually here to go through it w/ me, maybe he will catch what I do wrong as I do it.
In other news, Caleb fell today and I saw no visibly bumps but then all of the sudden he started spitting blood! It was horrible. I let him suck on a wet rag and I was afraid he'd knocked out a tooth or something but it turns out he just bit hit tongue really badly. It was so scary. He was fine but I was a mess. The site of blood alone panicked me, then not knowing what he'd hurt. He's doing well now, actually napping at a normal time of day for once. I just now got a shower and out of my pjs since he wouldnt let me all morning long. Well, I'll let you know what happens w/ MT.
HELP! My blog was gone! I totally panicked. To be honest with you, if it weren't for Dean I wouldnt know anything about blogs or webpages. I was so afraid everything was lost, but the server was just down for good I suppose. I will be moving to Moveable Type by the end of the week, depending how much time I get by myself to work on it or whether I will have to have Dean help me after Caleb is asleep. I am so pysched about redoing my webpage. I've been wanting to get a page up for Caleb but I just havent had time. When Dean gets home he usually is the one using the computer while I do household chores or rest. We've discussed it though and I think we have come to a better understanding that just because I dont have a better page doesnt mean I dont want one. It's amazing how little time I get for the computer when I am home all day, but Caleb keeps me so busy and I usually use nap times for showers and housework. Or if I am lucky I get to eat lunch somedays.
Please bear with me as I work on getting things updated. Like I said I hope to have a page for Caleb up too, ironically I had started on working on one before he was born, just getting the basics down but I since have had no time or energy to put into it. I really should work on his scrapbook too, so much to do, so little time. I really need to figure out how to watch him all day and work at the same time. I can get housework done but I cant imagine he'd let me do something as detailed and time consuming as his scrapbook. We'll see. Have a good Monday everyone!
We had our first full night of sleep last night in a long time. Caleb went to bed a little after 10 while we sat and watched Law and Order. Dean and I headed to bed around 11:30 and didnt get up til 6:30 when Caleb woke up. He didnt get up at all during the night! I felt so refreshed this morning. I think the rain helped us all sleep better, I know Dean loves that sound even if he's not trying to sleep. So maybe it helped ease Caleb back asleep if he did wake up. Who cares why, cause it sure was nice to sleep, even if it wasn't a full 8 hours, anything is better than 2-4 hours at a stretch. Dean even stayed in bed a little longer this morning, usually Caleb joins us around 6:30 but this morning I gave him his bottle and diaper in his room then rocked him to sleep and put him back in his crib. I figured Dean would appreciate not being woken up yet since he'd slept so good all night. So when his alarm went off he changed it and said it was nice to be able to sleep without Caleb. It was especially nice cause he pulled me to him and we fell asleep cuddling. Caleb slept til about 8 and then we all got up for the day. I hope the rest of the day goes as smoothly.....
We had a great afternoon at the zoo yesterday. Then we had a big family dinner at our house. It was so nice to spend time w/ everyone. The down side being Caleb didn't nap at all yesterday except for the car rides, which really dont count. So I thought for sure he'd sleep through the night, but of course not. Instead he was up every 2 hours! Dean thinks maybe he had a nightmare, then I got scared that maybe he had a bad dream about the animals he'd seen. I hope not, but how can we know. So far today he wont sleep unless I hold him and he wont play unless he's in my lap. Not quite sure what his deal is but it's trying my nerves. I love him to death, but I havent had my morning shower and it's now noon, and the whole point for me to shower in the morning is because it helps get me going. As I type Caleb is wailing for me. I held him til he slept then laid him down, he wants no part of that. We never just let him cry but he sounds so miserable. I was just going to let him cry it out but I dont think I can handle it! Gotta save my son, or rather spoil him more!