Wisdom from my walk

this day sucks

It’s been a busy week.   Today was non stop fun starting w/ the dentist and getting a referral to get my wisdom teeth and one other tooth taken out (the one causing me a lot of pain is the same tooth I had a root canal done on earlier this year, what a waste of $200!) Then Curves and watching my friends son so she could go then taking Dean someplace and having lunch w/ him and the boys.  After that we went to Kmart before heading to pick up the bigger boys from school before coming home and letting Zeke nap while I called and paid a bunch of medical bills that have been building up. (imagine that!)  Tonight the hubby’s and the big boys are at cub scouts and I am at home w/ my two and my friends little one while she goes to a meeting at school.   I am so ready to crash though!

Yesterday I painted a spot in the playroom w/ chalkboard paint and the boys are so excited! Last week I stripped two layers of wallpaper off of one of our bathrooms and it’s almost ready to be primed then painted.  On Monday we’re getting an estimate to replace our master bathroom shower because the tile in it caved in.   We also got an entertainment stand type thing from Ikea for the big screen which is now in the basement.   Trying really hard to get the house ready for me to sit around and do nothing after my surgery and when it’s too cold for them to go out and play.  I feel like it’s nesting like in pregnacy but w/out the coming of a baby!

I made it to curves yesterday and today and it’s harder than it ever has been, guessing it has something to do w/ it just being 2 weeks from my surgery.   Well off to keep an eye on the kiddos. ….I cant wait til it’s bedtime!

If you know much about me at all, you know I avoid talking politics.   As a teen I was very gun-ho about the right to vote and looked forward to the day when I could.  I loved government class but for some reason that was short lived, so short lived in fact I have never voted!   In fact I claim my right to choose not to vote is how I vote.   I will not vote because I don’t feel like voting without all of the facts is worth it.   I don’t complain when a president is bad because I didnt vote for them.    In fact I try not to talk about anything political at all.   I will not make an uninformed decision and thus I choose not to vote.   This election year has got me more interested than ever, but no I will still not vote.  (first women in office sure got me interested, then Obama Biden…because if you read that fast as you drive by a sign all I can think of is Osama Bin laden….not that he reminds me of him, but the irony of the closeness of the those names together…)

Tonight as I tried to read up on the “bail out” plan congress is trying to pass before session ends next week I remembered why I hate politics.   Because no matter how we vote on election day the government will still make their own decisions.  We are not there standing next to them and voting w/ them on this, they are doing it w/ their power.   Power you gave them when you voted for them.   I try not to complain about new laws, no matter how dumb they are but this “bail out’ thing has got me downright angry.

Families everywhere are feeling the pinch of increasing prices, ours included.  We’ve had trouble paying the bills, buying groceries and having gas money.   But we are doing alright.  we wont lose our house, at least not this month.   But there are families who’s homes are being foreclosed upon and there is nothing they can do about it.  there are people who started their own businesses, who have no health insurance, and may have had that business fail and be without.   They are suffering.   The government is not there to “bail” them out.   If Donald Trump gambled away all of his money no one would offer to “bail” him out.  yet the government is going to offer grace to companies who made poor business decisions and maybe even unethical ones just because they can, with our money even.   I don’t get it.  Maybe I just dont understand what the “bail out” is, and that’s fair, because I’ve had a heck of a time understanding what I’m reading, but I think that’s the plan.  they dont want us to know what they are doing, if we, as tax payers, as voters, knew what they were going to do w/ our money we’d be doing everything we could to stop it, oh wait, we cant do anything to stop it.

I just want to know who is going to bail our family out when we cant afford to live life business as usual?   I can give you one guess, it wont be the government.

BTW big layoffs being announced next week at Dean’s work. Please pray we wont be affected.   He’s been laid off twice before and I can’t imagine what would happen if it happened now, esp. now w/ things looking so grim as it is financially and with a big surgery on the horizon.    October is next week.  Hard to believe, a month til our 10 year anniversary, month and half til my surgery, less than 2 months til Boaz turns 4, 3 months til our 3rd Christmas in this house, 4 months til I turn 30……aaaahhhhhh !!!!!

I know my loyal fans are out there wondering what’s happened to me, I havent posted in 4 days!  Don’t go thinking today’s post will be grand either.  I’m just not into writing these days.  I’m tired, very tired.  BUT I did sleep well last night, although I don’t feel like I did.   I’m dreading how much weight I’m gaining by all this sleeping and not being able to exercise so I took the lil’ boys to the mall this morning to get in some walking and window shopping.  Plus I had the added benefit of having some gift cards from December that really needed to be used, so I got myself some new shoes and the boys some lunch at the mall too.   I got Zeke down for nap and told Bo we were going to rest too, but really all that happened was the usual, me trying to sleep while Bo kept bothering me.   he was intently watching Calliou breifly but once that was over he was back to being a wild man.

Not much new going on around here.  Dean’s back at work, which the boys don’t understand.  Today and yesterday, both boys awoke and asked where daddy was, then Bo kept telling me to call Dean to tell him to come several times throughout the day.   I wish he could, but someone has to work so we can pay the bills.  Having to re-stock on groceries due to the hurricane was not something we could really afford this month.   Luckily by cutting back on my social schedule during the days I’m going to be saving us in gas money, but that means I will probably go nuts at home all day w/ the kids, especially if I cant get a break and go to curves.  I’m hoping I am cleared this time next week after my post op appointment so I can get a good 6 weeks of exercise in and maybe lose a pound or two before the hysterectomy.

well off to keep an eye on these kids.   my friend’s son is here and he tends to get them riled up and it’s already too loud for my level of patience…..

wohoo! caleb school finally goes back tomorrow.  They’ve been out all week due to power outages from Ike.    I think Dean is going back to work tomorrow too.   My first day post surgery w/ the kids.  I’ve been resting up all day and I can rest all weekend so I should be fine.

it’s a beautiful day outside, despite the fact we had a hurricane the weather since then has been amazing.   makes it easy to live w/ windows open and no lights when it’s cool out and sunny enough to light the house during the day.  it’s also been a full moon this week so even at night it wasnt that bad.   still have friends that are without power, I cant imagine, it wasnt horrible, but I was ready for it to be over.

hysterectomy is scheduled for Nov. 11th at 7:30 a.m.  wohoo!! a month or almost two for me to think about it!! 🙂

I was laying in bed reading when I heard the strangest sound…..the power came back on!!  wohoo!!  I am still scared it will not last.  we emptied the fridge and threw everything out.  Tonight we took the kids to meet up w/ Dean’s mom so they could spend the night there so I’d be able to rest in the morning again, and her van battery died for the third time this week.  So we were going to go to Walmart w/ her to get her a new one, as soon as we pulled into the walmart parking lot the power went out!!  so we went to another store that had power but I was scared to buy too much in fear we’d get home to no power!!  it’s been a crazy few days.  I didnt really rest much today and now I’m more exhausted than normal, but I’m not in pain.  it’s the oddest thing.  No more bleeding, no pain (at least not in my nose!)  I have several horrid looking bruises from the 3 attempts to get the iv in me, and those look worse than my nose, which looks fine as long as I dont wear the bandage to catch whatever drips out, which at this point is just clear snot!   I feel like I have a cold and am congested and occasionally cough up some blood but other than that I am doing ok.  Tired but ok.

When I awoke after surgery yesterday in horrible pain from the tube down my throat I was so mad at myself and swore I wouldnt get the hysterectomy.  My throat hurt horribly yesterday.    They gave me some pain meds but this morning I was ok w/ just regular tylenol, my throat is fine today other than the coughing up junk.   I dont really feel like I had surgery yesterday except for the extreme fatigue, which isnt too abnormal for me!!

so theres hope I suppose.  I cant lift the kids or exercise or do much strenous for 2 weeks, and then he’ll tell me what I can do based on how I’m healing.   It’s hard not to lift the kids, which makes it easier for them to spend some time at grandmoms if they can!   I cant imagine not lifting them for two weeks!! esp. my baby Zeke!   🙁   at least he is big enough to climb up to me and I can change him that way too.   he has his own potty chair now and used it today.   I am hoping to potty train him before my next surgery, but not being to bed over (another limitation I have for two weeks) will make that hard to do too.

well my eyes are too sleepy….so we have power and I am doing ok after surgery.