Wisdom from my walk

Sorry it’s been a day or two since I’ve written, we’ve been somewhat busy. Once again I had to work a nice 9 hours at work yesterday, barely had time to get home and get freshened up before heading to Dean’s parents for a cook out last night. Then we had to rush off to make it to the show where Dean was to usher, but he ended up having to run spot light as well. We had planned on going to usher and then leaving seeing as the play was in the park and it was so hot out. But when we got there they asked Dean to run spot light so we had to sit in the heat and get eaten by a ton of misquitoes all night long. Then we went out to eat with Ann & Dennis. We finally made it home last night around 12:30 am and boy was I exhausted. I had gotten up at 6 that morning and didn’t stop til 12:30! It’s no wonder I was having contractions last night. Or so that is what we think it was. This first time stuff is awful, I keep having a lot of pressure and then other times it is just some stabbing pain.

Thursday night, or Friday morning, whichever, I awoke with a lot of pressure in my lower abdomen and had trouble falling back to sleep. But when I got up Friday morning for work it was gone. But I kept having sporatic sharp pains all day on Friday. And today I have had a lot of pressure again, and even my inner thighs were sore and I could feel the pressure there as well, and I have been so uncomfortable. I cant sit w/ my legs together it is so bad, I have to straddle a chair to be comfy. I know all your guys out there care, but I have to complain to someone! No, it’s not that bad, more uncomfortable; and frustrating that I dont know if it is contractions, or just Caleb moving down into position. I talked to my mom today and she thinks I am in early labor, but when I had gone to the dr Thursday he said nothing was happening, but I guess it could be now. But as if we’d be that lucky. I feel like I have a cold as well, so maybe being sick is just causing Caleb to be miserable too.

But aside from the discomfort we’ve had a great weekend. Today we went shopping and found some great bargains, on stuff we didnt’ really need to purchase, yet we did anyway. Then we went to see a play that a friend of ours wrote, it was very good. Then we had dinner at Dean’s parents, again. We do that often if you haven’t noticed. And Dean’s mom had gotten Caleb the cutest outfit and socks! Now we are just relaxing at home, complaining about how much money we’ve spent. On top of our buys today, on Friday Dean order over $300 worth of new computer parts so he can build us a new computer. Now that is a good price for what he is doing, but a major expense for us. But we never just spend money, and Dean deserves the new computer he has been dreaming of forever. But now he feels bad about spending the money, and nothing I can say helps because he knows we could have lived without a computer. But I am glad he bought the parts, he never buys anything for him and over the last 9 months I have bought tons of new clothes and baby things. So it is kind of like he finally got what he wanted, and I know he will be so happy once he has his new system built.

Tomorrow we have plans to go to lunch with a couple from our small group at church, it should be another fun day as well. I just hope Caleb gets comfy tonight so that I can be semi-comfortable tomorrow. But then again, if he wishes to bless us with his prescence soon, I will not complain, well as much as any other laboring mom!

No good news from the dr today. We were really hoping that we would be told my cervix was thinning at the least, but no such luck. The dr is concerned about my recent high blood pressure, at the last few appts. it has been high. He said to check it before my next appt, so I will have a nurse at work check it. He also told me I tested positive for Group B strep, and all that they means is that during labor I will have to be on an antibiotic and hopefully that will prevent any problems, as if he wasn’t at risk for enough problems as is, for Caleb. Apparently just another pregnancy problem that I could not have prevented even if I wanted, I just got lucky I guess. And as no consolation, the dr advised me that some people are more “pre-disposed” to having problems than others. I could have slapped him for that one. Well gee thanks bud, in other words, you’re just not healthy enough to have a nice normal healthy pregnancy. But other than that it wasn’t too bad of an appt, considering I was meeting with one of the new drs at the ob’s office. There’s only one dr that I haven’t met, so chances are I will know the dr that delivers our baby, especially if they have to schedule an induction. Overall I came home quite depressed. I was really hoping for at least a little hopeful news, I mean I know I have 3 weeks left, but I was just hoping that all this discomfort I’ve had lately meant Caleb was trying to get out to meet us, but apparently not. He’s quite content to stay put and my body is not arguing with him, it is just arguing with me all of the time. It’s been a rough 8 months and it’s not getting much easier for me, I mean it’s pretty bad when at 36 1/2 weeks you are still dealing with morning sickness on a daily basis, and it’s more than just in the morning. The dr didn’t seem too concerned about that, said that the baby is taking up all of the room and my body doesn’t have room to work thus the upset stomachs and morning sickness.

And to top my day off, I was in such a bad mood driving home, in my non air conditioned car, that I missed my exit on the highway and got ridiculously lost, but I did manage to make it home, after sweating nearly to death stuck in tons of construction traffic. I guess it’s just one of those days……

Thanks Cheryl, Schaun, and Caleb for our receiving blankets!

Dean & I had the best “date” last night. I have been really trying to make sure we dont come home from work and fall straight into bed from exhaustion, although I’d love to, but that always makes for a long miserable night for me. So I have been trying to make sure we always have plans or at least something to do outside of the house, even if it is running to the grocery store for a little bit. So last night, I amazed even myself and made a very nice ravioli dinner, and it was ready shortly after Dean arrived home from work, which is another miracle in and of itself because we usually argue over what to have for dinner because I am usually too tired to cook. So as I was finsihing up preparing dinner I called to get movie times and told Dean what was playing. We decided to go see the new Jurassic Park movie, even though neither of us remember seeing the second one. And I didn’t realize til after the fact that the movie just came out yesterday, so here we are planning on going to see a movie the night it comes out, I was impressed with our plans. And after seeing the movie I was glad we went. It wasn’t anything great, but it was worth going to see, but it seemed short, Dean says it’s because the ending comes to quickly, you are expecting more and then it’s over. And after researching the matter, of course he came home and checked it out online, but this movie was shorter than the first two Jurassic Park movies.

So we had fun, ate way too much popcorn and let me tell you, if you really want to sit through a movie during your last month of pregnancy do not order a drink! I was so mad at myself, we went to see Shrek about a month ago now and I made myself sit through it, holding til the very end my urge to run to the bathroom, but there was no holding back last night, I didnt want to miss anything but Caleb kept moving around and I already had a full bladder so I had to run out to the bathroom. But it wasn’t one of those movies that you miss too much – thank goodness. But I was still frustrated with myself, I should have known better than to try to drink and sit through the movie.

After the movie ended, to our amazement it was only around 9:00 and still light out so we called Dean’s sister to see if we could go over for a swim. By the time we got there the sun was setting and the water was getting chilly, but the half hour or so we spent swimming did wonders for me! I felt really good afterward. Then we hung out with them for a while, and their 6 kids, new puppy, and 2 hamsters! Now that’s a full house!

By the time we got home it was 11:30 and I was ready for bed, and it didnt take long for me to doze off. All in all I’d say we had a great night. Thanks Dean! It’s so nice to still go on dates with the man you love. Yes, okay, I have been smitten by the love bug lately, but I have found myself so much more in love with my husband over the last few weeks, I dont doubt it has something to do with the hormones, but who cares, I am loving every minute we get together, even if there are only a few more weeks of peace and quiet together. Tonight I think we are going to the Warren County Fair, hopefully it wont be too hot out today.

I have my ultrasound and an afternoon dr’s appointment today, I’ll fill in later how it all went…..

Isn’t my husand adorable? Some days I can’t believe how lucky I got!

Sorry I haven’t written, no, no baby yet, we have just been busy. Stacey was here visting. Dean and I don’t usually do much of anything too fun but I hate having people come to visit and having nothing planned. Saturday night we went to the St. Rita’s festival, which is like a huge carnival, except for in Ohio you can carry your beer around with you. In Baltimore you can only drink you beer in the designated beer garden and you can not leave that area with a drink. So it is kind of a strange change, but Stacey didn’t seem bothered by it, I think she is used to college drinking, but I hate being around people drinking. I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it.

Like most Sundays we went to church, and it was my last time working in the booth running the switcher (it is my job to take the cuts that the director calls from one of three cameras, video, or our powerpoint presentation and put it on the big video screen in the auditorium). I had decided that the 15th would be my last day since that is about a month away from my due date and I can’t gaurantee I’d be able to sit through 3 hours of services after that and still be comfy. But I will miss it, I liked it alot. I know that after Caleb is born I will get back into it, maybe learn a new position. Our booth as I call it is like a mini news room, and as stressful as it gets sometimes you’d think it was. But we still end up having a lot of fun. Our church does baptisms about once every few months and we have an all worship service when they do. So apparently during on of the services someone lost a dollar bill in the baptismal pool, and of course since we tape all of the services, when the pastor started joking about the dollar in the water, the crew up in the booth decided to put the picture of the floating bill on all of the projector screens, it was great. So sometimes it’s stressful but for the most part we get to do a lot of fun things.

Point is, yesterday was my last time doing that until after I have Caleb. But poor Stacey had to sit around and wait for us to get finished working. Then we went to Dean’s sister’s for a birthday party for our neice. I had fun, mostly because I got to go swimming, and I love feeling so free and being able to move so much when I am in the water. It feels much better than when I am walking around carrying all of this extra weight.

We didnt do much the rest of yesterday afternoon, around 5 or so we all came home and took a much needed nap. And Dean, who said he didnt need one but would take one, was asleep before I was. So after we all got up we munched on pizza, watched some shows on Fox and then went to rent a movie. We were up so late!

And then on top of that I was up most of the night again not feeling well so I decided to stay home. I called one of the girls at work to let them know, I know today will be busy but I can’t imagine going to work feeling so blah. I am considering going in late, but I dont know if I can get myself going. So Stacey left a short while ago. We had a nice weekend, but it still feels like we didn’t entertain her much. Well, we did get in some good games, particularly of Yatzee. And she said she will come back to visit when Caleb comes, I think I will need her support then, even if I do have Dean. I was thinking that the one type of trial or problem Stacey and I haven’t gone through together was a physical ailment. I mean, not our own anyway. We’ve been through a lot together, but luckily we haven’t had to deal with any heatlh problems, at least not of a great magnitude, but I think labor may be one of those times when I would love to have her support in addition to Dean’s of course. But I am still quite undecided exactly who I will be comfortable with having around for that special day. And who knows if I’ll even have the time to decide and will it really matter who is there? I mean as long as Caleb comes our healthy and safely then I guess it shouldnt matter to me, but I still think that I will be uncomfortable with family around. But who knows, the day may come and all I may want is them being around. Well, I am headed back to bed for a little bit longer, then maybe I’ll head to work, or maybe not. We’ll see…..

Last night we went to dinner with my mother in law and then she wanted to take us shopping for a stroller; so of course we agreed! We went to a few places and picked out the one we wanted, the one we had put on our registry we have decided not to get since it came w/ an infant car seat and we already have a car seat now so we don’t need that one. We will just need an infant-toddler stroller. But my best buy of the night was a big, long, hot dog shaped pillow that is sooo comfy and soft. It’s as long as I am so I cuddled up with it last night and was soo comfy. I kept telling Dean I wanted one of those body pillows but this one is better because of it’s shape and it is soft so you can bend it anyway you want the body pillows looked less flexible. The only thing I dont like about the pillow is that I feel like I am betraying Dean! I usually cuddle up close to Dean when I sleep but last night it was just me and my pillow. And boy was it comfy! Sorry honey, but a mommy’s got to sleep! I dont think he minded too much but I felt like I was ignoring him because I didnt try to cuddle with him, just with the pillow.

Stacey is coming to visit today! Just for the weekend, and I havent seen her in what seems like forever, and she’s never seen me pregnant so it ought to be interesting. I was thinking that it is strange because the only family members, from my side of the family, that have seen me pregnant is my mom and step dad. I just dont think that is normal, I mean I always remember seeing my cousins and family members when they were expecting but all my family knows is that I am! I guess that is good, that way they cant talk about how huge I am , but I wish they could see me because everyone at work and the theater keeps telling me I look so good for being pregnant, and I would love for my family to be able to enjoy my pregnancy with me. But they are just too many miles away. sigh….. I just hate knowing my brother will never know what I looked like when I was pregnant, except for the pictures. I don’t know maybe it isn’t that big of a deal, I just think it isn’t normal. But then again most things in my life aren’t normal.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!