Wisdom from my walk

In Dean’s words, UGH! Caleb just figured out how to take the electric socket cover off the outlet! Guess those people who made them didn’t count on a nearly 9 month old figuring out how to take it off! Luckily I had something to plug in there that if I put it in the top socket then it covered both, and it’s one of those heavy box like things you plug in , so hopefully he wont be able to get it off anytime soon. But theres several in the living room, I dont know what I’ll do about them! Just when you think you are babyproofed enough…….

Caleb has taken a sudden interest in zippers. He can get them unzipped! It’s so cute to watch him think so hard about it. He really wants to play with the keyboard for the puter but instead we gave him a spare one to play with, but somehow he seems to know hitting buttons don’t do much unless he does it while mommy is typing on her keyboard.

I think Caleb finally kicked his bug. He was finally, for the first time since Thursday, able to drink a bottle of formula without throwing it all up again! Wohoo!! I was SO happy. We have plans to go to the zoo tomorrow and I would have hated it if we had to cancel cause he was still sick. I am really looking forward to it. He’s also just about walking on his own. He can take 2-3 steps unassisted! He is always standing by himself now and tries to take steps alone but only gets a few before gracefully falling on his bottom. He’s so independent. He will play by himself for hours if we let him. His favorite thing to do is stare out the window and watch the birds and squirrels. We stopped by the pet store yesterday and he didnt even get excited looking at the animals, I hope he finds the zoo a little more enjoyable. I think he will since he is feeling more himself now. Well he’s calling for me as I write, he may be independent but then there are the times when he’s glued to us….

What would you do-o-o-o for a Klondike bar? I’d pick up baby poop off the carpet then scrub it up then change 10 more dirty diapers in 3 hours! Argh! I hate having a sick baby! He wont drink pedialyte. He will drink some gerber juice. He would love to eat solid food but every time he does the diapers gets worse. He throws up anytime he drinks formula! What am I to do? I told Dean we should just give him pedialyte and juice for 24 hours, that is what the dr said to do last time he was sick, but this time he wont drink and he wants real food. Poor thing about screamed at me whenever I try to eat something. If he doesnt start to drink something soon I may have to take him to the er. He has had some baby food, I thought maybe some bananas would help his belly go back to normal, but he still needs fluids and he just doesnt want it.

In the meantime, Dean’s out and about having a grand time. I told him I’d be okay, I know he’d be upset if I told him I needed him to stay home. He’s been so into his plans to go to this Christian rave tonight. He wanted me to go, and I knew I didn’t really want to, and there was no way we were taking Caleb out in his condition. I am not even sure I’ll drag him to church tomorrow. Depends how he does through the night. I wanted to put the poor kid to bed at 6, but I knew it was way too early. But he was tired and so was I. I finally wore him out playing and with a bath and kept him up to a little bit ago, about 8:30 he finally fell asleep. I was so relieved! I am exhausted and not having Dean around didnt help much.

Now hopefully he’ll at least sleep until Dean gets in so I can enjoy some ice cream and watch Armageddon.

What a horrible night! I awoke around 1-ish to hear Caleb crying on the monitor. I went to get a bottle from the kitchen. When I got to his room, it was quiet. He had fallen asleep again, and laid down right on top of a whole bunch of throw up! I hated to move him cause he was so peaceful but it stunk. So I laid him on the changing table and he slept while I removed the dirty sheets and blankets. He woke up while I changed him and I held him as his fell asleep. A few minutes later he gets restless and sits up and throws up all over and keeps doing it. He’s never really gotten sick,he would spit up when he was younger but this was the real deal. I was so scared. I started crying cause I didnt know what to do. Dean came in and held him, then I bathed him to soothe him. He then laid in bed w/ us and was fine the rest of the night. I am so scared to feed him becuase I dont want a repeat performance, but he has to eat. I dont know what I will do if he ever gets really sick, I am so bad at that part of being a mommy. I can deal with other peoples sick kids, but when its mine my heart just hurts too much! Hopefully today he will be fine.

I made the call today, I am starting the process of being a family day care provider!

Just a quick thought, I am the luckiest woman in the world, my hubby is great! I’ve had a rough weekend and he’s been so patient with me and has been doing his best to watch Caleb. Today Caleb and I took a long nap together, we’re both feeling a little under the weather and it’s been such a busy weekend that I think we both just needed to cuddle and rest together. It was so sweet. Then this evening Caleb fell asleep in bed watching tv with us, Dean fell asleep shortly thereafter. I just watched my two angels sleep and counted my blessings. This emotional roller coaster I am riding must be a non stop ride and I hate that I am making my whole family get on board, yet I know every thing I say and do affects my family. It’s been a real battle lately and I know I am blessed to have such a great husband who is willing to stand by me and even hold me up when I can’t do it by myself. I know I probably never show or tell him enough how I feel, but even with all of the stress lately it feels like we are coming at a new point in our marriage. We’ve been trying to take the time that Caleb is sleeping in the early evening to be our time. Sometimes we do our own thing but some days we devote to having time together. Today was especially great as we cuddled on the couch watching tv. When Caleb was up he joined us some but he preferred practicing his new found trick of standing by himself. You can see from my entries that this weekends been a mix of up and downs for my emotionally, but somehow, just like always, Dean is there and makes me see the bright side of things. Right now as I watch him sleep, I can only hope that he knows how much I love and appreciate him!