Wisdom from my walk

We awoke and got ready just like any other day, at least Dean and I did. Caleb still wasnt awake when we were done getting ready, so I went to get him up to find him covered in throw up as was the crib and everything in it. We never heard him cry through the night or throw up for that matter. It was horrible. He’s still been sick all day. His playmate from church had this flu last week that lastest for 4 days! I pray to God it doesnt last that long. I can took blood but any other type of bodily fluid is just not my thing. I SO want Dean here to deal with this. I’ve done 3 loads of laundry and thats just sickness related laundry. Changed at least a diaper an hour, lately more so. My poor little hyper boy is laying around. After a dose of tylenol he perked up a bit, long enough to get sick again. He refuses to drink. Gave him a popsicle, he loved it, but later his belly didn’t. We have no health insurance so I’ve got to keep him hydrated since we cant afford an ER visit. Irony was he was supposed to go to the dr today for a rash that was worsening, but after an “incident” in the car on the way home from taking Dean to work I thought better of a car ride again and cancelled it. We know this is just a bug, it’s going around. Not like I can afford to pay a dr to tell me that! It’s been a long morning, Caleb’s finally napping peacefully on the couch. His second nap today. I hate seeing my baby sick. It just breaks my heart. It hurts more to know I dont have the strength or stomach to hold him while he throws up, I managed to make myself last time but then I needed a change of clothes. So I am trying my best but this is just not my department. I can managed house, and do all sorts of motherly things but tending to a sick baby, or at least a vomitting one, isnt my forte. I was going to get Dean to come home early but we cant afford him to miss hours especially if theres a chance he’ll need to miss soon if he gets this bug himself. So I gotta buck up and deal with it, one mess after another. The joys of motherhood.

It’s finally sunny, in the 60s and beautiful out. Too bad I feel miserable. I took Caleb out for a bit but I just didnt have the energy to chase him, or walk for that matter. We so need health insurance soon! If I dont get to a dr soon I dont want to think of how bad I could feel. My biggest fear is of losing sight in my right eye although I keep trying to be positive and think the surgery helped, but I am not so sure. Well enough whining for me. In a more positive note: Caleb is talking! Really talking. He will say Eat Eat when he is hungry. Juice or Milk if thats what he wants. He answers No to most of our questions but not always. Sometimes he’ll say yeah or yessss w/ adorable excitement. Theres so much more he says but I cant think really. He figured out how the turn the tv on and off by himself, which drives me crazy sometimes. He also loves to turn the microwave on and off. Well speaking of Caleb he’s figured out how to open the entertainment center door, ahhhhhh!

Let me just say that if at all possible, ie. if we could afford to right now, we would switch car insurance policies in a heartbeat. Too anyone who can, boycott Geico! They are liars and steal your money. Right now they have us paying for two policies on one car, how the hell can that work? Talked to several different people there today and they told me that I shouldnt have gotten what I got in the mail, which essentially showed me that they stole my money from me. We made a payment. They cancalled the coverage then credited the account for the payment we made but we never got the money back! So where’s my freaking money Geico!!! Then they started the coverage again and say we owe them another $1500! But we already have another policy for that same car. It’s a bunch of crap, let me tell you I dont curse, but today I did make a few comments that I feel bad for making but not as bad as I feel for me who is out the money apparently. Geico sucks!

What a day! I woke up w/ no energy but have managed to motivate myself enough to get a lot accomplished and to deplete the rest of my energy. Caleb and I went out to play today since it was considerably warmer than yesterday. Since we got rid of the 2 non working cars we had sitting in our driveway I thought that would be a great place for him to ride his bike. And while he rode I swept up leaves and raked the back yard. Yes, raked. We didnt do a great job in the fall getting rid of the leaves so they had made quite a mess w/ all the melting snow. Caleb kept jumping in the piles of leaves. It was adorable. We got very dirty and even muddy and tired. So in we came for lunch and to give Caleb a bath. After that he played a bit, but not very much, he was worn out. So nap time, at last.

Being the Super Woman that I am, I used this time to scrub the kitchen and dining room floors, do laundry and head back outside to bag leaves and trash from the yard and driveway. Came in to finish up laundry and console a crying Caleb back to sleep. He wakes up after about an hour of napping everyday just to look for me then once I get him and put him in our bed he goes right back to sleep. So here I am now, enjoying some restful blogging. Ah….peace and quiet….what a day! And it’s only 3! Couple more hours to go before we go get Dean from work and then the night gets busy with dinner making, eating, cleaning up and then lounging around. Maybe if its still nice out we’ll take a family walk. I cant wait for spring and summer so we can spend nights walking to the park as a family. Dean loves to go fly his kite and Caleb loves just about anything outdoors. Me, I just like to walk and watch them have fun. *heavy sigh* I love being a wife and mommy!

I know it probably doesnt mean much to others, but my little boy went poopy on the potty today! I usually miss the chance to get him to the toilet, by the time he notifies us by tugging at his bottom and saying potty we are usually greeted w/ a messy diaper. Not today. Today he pulled on his diaper and I took it off to find it empty, not even wet, so off to the potty we went. At first he said no and struggled so I said ok then we need to put a diaper on. He said no and ran. Ok, so he didnt want to potty and he didnt want a diaper? so I told him if you dont sit on the potty then it’s time to put on a diaper, he immediately went to the toilet and he sat there for a while playing w/ the shower curtain. Then finally he had his first poop on the pot. I know it’s kind of gross to talk about , but for me its an accomplishment. I’ve been putting him on the toilet several times a day and nothing happened. He has been fighting when it comes to put a diaper on, he just wants to run around w/ out one which would be fine if it wasnt 30 degrees out. It would be easier to wait til summer to potty train but I know they say if you miss the window when they want to potty train then it would be harder. Caleb is definitely ready to get rid of diapers and has been telling us for the last few weeks after he has gone and when he needs a diaper. With any luck today is just the beginning of him noticing before his diaper is dirty. I am so proud of my little pooper….

oh, and yeah, he said his first “sentence” today : Me thirsty momma! I turned around so quick and asked him what didyou say, and again: Me thirsty momma! I gave him a sippy but he didnt seem to really be thirsty. Maybe he doesnt know what it means, but I found it odd since it’s the first time he’s said that word. He may have picked it up over the weekend playing w/ Abby, his new playmate. I know I’ve heard her say it before. Either way, he still said what I would call a baby sentence. It’s early, wonder what else he’ll amaze me w/ today.

Well it’s been a busy weekend, sort of. I’ve had Caleb by myself most of the time so Dean could help friends install their floor which meant I got a nap both Saturday and Sunday. Both days we ate dinner at our friends house and let the kids play well past their bed times. Finally home now, looking around at a clean quiet house. It’s Sunday night, where oh where did the weekend go?

next weekend I’ll be going away, well just for a night and a day, for a womens retreat with church. I am really looking forward to the oppurtunity to get to know some other women in the church and have some alone time as well. Mostly looking forward to a chance to get away from this house. I am really getting sick of our badly painted walls and chipping floors(in the kitchen). After helping friends update their new home it really gets me in the mood for home repairs. Our house looks good, not too bad, but we definitely did a rush job on the paint last year just so it would look decent enough to move in. I love the colors we have now, it’s just poor quality paint. And it’s not holding up to being banged and scratched by a toddler and his toys. So hopefully we’ll get some good paint up and we are hoping by the time summer is over to be able to put in new flooring in our kitchen and dining room. It’s hard to be home all day and not notice all the flaws.

It’s been a fun weekend, getting the chance to know new friends better, getting some time for me as well. I cant help but enjoy having Caleb to myself sometimes. He may be a bear sometimes but he sure has his moments when I fall in love again with him. He’s so precious to me. There’s been lots of talk this weekend about babies, other peoples, and the question of when we’ll have one. No decisions have been made, but lets just say we thought for sure I was pregnant last month but turned out it wasnt so. I love my husband more and more each day. it’s odd how seeing him hold a baby can stir up feelings up desire, but I’ve heard it said by many a woman that they fall more in love w/ their hubby when they see them tending baby or playing w/ the baby. Guess its just seeing the nurturing and vulnerable side to men that gets us. Ah…babies……if they’d only stay that way a little longer….

Gotta love 60 degree weather and sunshiny skies! It’s been a good weekend thus far. Last night we went to City Lights Seafood Resaurant. I had a salad and a seafood crepe. The crepe was wonderful! Dean had salmon but I think Caleb ate a great deal of it as well. We got there early before the Friday night rush so it was quiet and only started to fill up as we started to finish up our meals. We then headed home to put the little one to bed and enjoy some time together.

This morning I got a chance to sleep in a bit and only got up so I could run Dean to a friends house to help them install new flooring. Then Caleb and I headed across town to my moms for lunch and shopping. We had a good time enjoying family and the lovely weather. Now Caleb is napping and I am procrastinating cleaning up the house. Dean’s still working on the floor and they dont know when they will be done. We, Caleb and I, will probably head over there after he naps so he can play with his “girlfriend”, an adorable red haired 2 year old! They are so sweet when they hug and kiss each other good bye. He’s been saying her name all of the time lately, she cant say his well, not that it’s an easy name, so she calls Caleb “cup” instead. I so want a little girl of our own..but thats another topic altogether.

well I hate to ruin a lovely day with housework, but a womans job is never done, especially not on a Saturday. Hope everyones enjoying their weekend!