Wisdom from my walk

there was one other thing I wanted to write about but kept slipping my mind. So amidst deep sleep last night, I had a strange dream. We went to Ohio for a visit and for some reason I had to get an emergency c-section while there. We had a little baby girl, we kept calling her Carly in the dream. She was born a premie so it’s kind of an unnerving dream, I dont think we are planning on going to Ohio other than up upcoming thanksgiving trip so I dont think it’s a risk but it was still a little frightening. In my dream I told the drs that I was glad to have the baby there, that that is what I wanted all along. who knows what it all means, but I’ll say it again, I really still want a boy, but more for practical reasons than any other. I mean sure it would great to have a little girl, it would be fun even, but theres so many things about having a girl I dont want to deal with. oh well, we’ll see soon enough, or we hope to on the 19th at least!

A few things I wanted to write about lately; so sometime this week I told caleb he had bugs in him making him sick. So yesterday he said my throat hurts, know what I think mommy, I think the bugs in my belly are kicking my throat and making it hurt. I told him to tell the bugs to stop kicking him! 😉

I’m afraid to even talk/write about it because it might alter things, but Bo has slept from 8:30 pm (or a little earlier) until at earliest 8 am the next day for 3 nights now. he hasnt woken us at all. Now if baby E affecting my bladder and Caleb talking in his sleep would get better than maybe I could sleep longer. I”m still getting a good deal more sleep these last few nights than before so with any luck this is him adjusting to one nap a day and almost turning 1. If he sleeps more than once a day he is up at night so I think that is the key right now. Sure he sleeps for about 2-3 hours in that afternoon nap but as long as it’s just one nap it’s not affecting his nighttime sleeping. speaking of sleep…bo is napping and i’m trying to get Caleb too too so hopefully he’ll be up to school tomorrow. wish me luck!

Caleb was off of school on Friday, teacher development day. Then of course here all weekend. then sunday night he started w/ being sick. He’s still home from school today. Monday he threw a huge fit about wanting to go to school. Yesterday he knew he wasnt going and was going to the dr instead. Midday he said he wanted to go to school. he really misses it, and so do I! It has been nice having him around again, he and Bo play so well together but I just cant keep him busy like they do at school, with bo and house things to do it’s hard. I am going to try harder today to find things for him to do if I have the energy. He seems more sick today than all week long. The dr said it’s a bad cold and that he shouldnt go to school til his nose isnt running, which will probably be sometime next week! I have tons of errands to run for bo’s party but I hate taking both boys, especially when one is so sick. Last night Bo started to sound just as bad as Caleb and felt fevered. Please pray that we can actually still have Bo’s birthday party this weekend! Dean started feeling sick last night, so far I’m fine but chances are I’ll catch it at some point right? Have more I want to write about but bo is awake and must go entertain my boys.

because it was fun, and we’re trying to decide what to get Bo for Christmas I did this.
Everyone of course keeps asking what to get him for his birthday and i had no clue. I know we have tons of toys and my biggest concerns are what we will need when baby # 3 comes but that is being quickly taken care of. I think the only major thing left we’ll need is a new car seat. We’re being given a used crib , since we’ll need two or at least something for Bo til he’s a little older. we got a double stroller from a freecycler. So now I guess it’s a little easier to consider what Bo and Caleb could want/need for the holidays. I just hate telling people things I think they’d want or even w/ caleb things he’s said he wants because I feel like it’s asking them to buy things for my kids. I know it is bo’s first birthday soon and christmas…but I know we will be lucky if we can even afford gifts for our own kids this year so I hate knowing others will be buying us gifts when we cant return any. I hate the holidays for this reason. well I gotta get, Bo just woke up. He slept through the night for the first time in months…it was so nice!!!

On Friday we went to the park and I let Bo climb around the playground for the first time, guess he wore himself out!

Such a good big brother!

Today is another beautiful day outside, weatherwise. Inside I”ve got a sick preschooler and a rotten tot climbing into trouble everywhere with a yucky runny nose too. I’m barely mobile as my back hurts so bad, it’s making for an interesting morning. At least I am not babysitting my friends kids too. I’m trying to decide which dr to call about the back pain. I’ve been debating calling my primary care dr for the last 2 weeks to see what she thinks about all the MS-like symptoms I’m having which seems to be getting worse. Now with the back pain I dont know what to do, if it’s something I should address w/ my ob first or my pcp. I dont care to go to either and it’s not like I’d go w/ two kids today but I think if it is this bad tomorrow I’m going to have to call one of my drs.

I barely slept last night, Caleb ended up camping out on the floor next to our bed and he kept being restless and talking to me all night. boaz was even up once and meanwhile dean just lay there snoring through it all. So on top of sick kids, feeling bad myself and having a ton to do today I am exhausted, more than usual. Gotta love Mondays…

We had a mostly uneventful weekend. Yesterday we enjoyed the warm temps at the park after doing a massive house cleaning in prep for a baby shower I hosted at our house yesterday afternoon. We had said shower for my cousin and then the kids and I crashed, I was almost asleep on the sofa before Dean headed to a friends to play some board games. I have been having trouble staying asleep or being comfortable enough to sleep so going to bed when I’m most tired is my best bet for any decent sleep.

today we attended both church services then enjoyed lunch out. Bo doesnt nap when we do both church services so we came home and all took a good nap, even caleb! It was funny he asked in the car even before we were on the highway, if he took a nap in the car if he would have to when he got home, we said he’d still have to nap at home. Sure enough he was asleep w/in minutes of that conversation and stayed asleep for almost 2 hours once we got him home in bed! The rest of the day he started to sound horrible, he said he felt fine but he could barely speak loud enough for me to hear. After a family trip to the grocery store we got home and had a snack during which he decided he was done and went to lay on the couch. Turns out he’s got a fever now and while he says he feels fine and seems fine, his temp is up and his voice is almost gone, that and he’s just laying around. should make for a fun week! I am worried mostly because one of his classmates was in the hospital last week w/ a 103 fever; but considering he’s been in school a few months and this is his first day he’ll have to miss that’s not so bad. I figured his first few months would be hardest w/ getting used to all the germs. guess the teacher having them all use that antibacterial waterless handsoap all day does some good!

He is very upset that he might have to miss school tomorrow. more upset I believe because his friends were supposed to come over all day for me to babysit and I’m guessing wont now. I called their dad and am waiting for a call back to see if they want to send their kids over w/ Caleb sick. It’s sad cause I’m watching them since my friend is out of town and it’s her birthday so he was going to leave the kids w/ me all day while he’s at work then come over after getting her from the airport so we could all enjoy her birthday dinner and dessert. now who knows, I’m guessing they wont be coming over. i just hope the rest of us stay well since we’re having a small gathering next weekend for Bo’s birthday since we’ll be away for his actual birthday.

I’ve been feeling bad all weekend, had horrible back pain for 2 days now. I had problems w/ caleb w/ this and ended up doing physical therapy while pregnant w/ him. It’s so excrutiating, I thought it was because I did too much yesterday and all I would need was a good nights rest but today it’s just as bad. It lasted a while during Caleb’s pregnancy but then I didnt have an 11 month old to pick up all day to make it worse!

This weekend everyone keeps saying I’m now showing, and it stinks. some people yesterday said I didnt even look pregnant but today I definitely do, I guess 17 weeks w/ my third isnt too bad. I just didnt start showing w/ the others til later. oh well, I should get used to it. but my maternity clothes are still too big so I’m sure I havent gotten too big! Not yet anyway!

I cant believe this is week 17 of this pregnancy! I still dont really ‘feel’ pregnant, the morning sickness comes and goes. the only symptom that stays w/ me all day and night is fatigue! I’ve never been so tired! I am anxiously awaiting our big u/s on nov. 19th and the waiting is so annoying. I just want to see the baby and luckily dean will be w/ me so if we are lucky enough to see if it’s a boy or a girl he’ll be there for the big news! I never cared so much w/ the others but this just still doesnt feel real and I havent been feeling the baby so until that starts the only thing I have to work with it u/s pics! I just cant believe it still….I’m getting more excited and tomorrow I’m hosting a shower for my cousin and that I’m sure will help get me a little more excited. well gotta run Caleb has no school today so lots to keep me busy!