Wisdom from my walk

i know I’m a worrier by nature, but seeing my son in pain and miserable is really scaring me. since i’ve had meningitis I’m always more concerned about someone getting it. He started w/a high fever and headache and now his neck hurts. i’m very scared. I dont even want to go to the dr w/ him w/ those symptoms in fear it’ll mean a spinal tap, god help me I will not let them give the kid one, but he sure has all the symptoms of meningitis and it’s just 2 weeks and 3 years after my having it so it’s that time of year I guess. please pray for my kid !!! I dread calling the dr about it becuase when i went when I was sick and told them my symptoms I was sent straight to the ER. I cant watch my kid go through that. well he’s calling me to come lay with him and watch tv so I better run. I hate having a sick kid!! I wish I could do something for him.

I think I’ve said it before but for the last few years I havent been able enjoy thanksgiving due to one illness or another. I started feeling ill on friday and still feel yucky today but I managed to still make it to church. since we were all up early we went to the first service and Dean was going to take my spot in nursery during second service. Before we left Caleb said his head hurt, but was fine. Halfway through the 2nd service he was very upset and felt fevered. He and I ran to walmart for tylenol and left Dean and Bo at church. Caleb kept falling asleep in the cart and I was afraid he had passed out. We just got in and Caleb’s temp is 102.6 and he’s sleeping. he doesnt want to get out of bed. Only complaint is that his head hurts badly. we’re scheduled to leave for Ohio on Tuesday. I’m afraid we wont be going but Dean’s determined, but unless we all get better miraculously I’m not letting him take me sick or the kids if they are still sick. I’m really worried about caleb, it’s odd how it hit so suddenly and how hi the fever is w/ no symptom but headache. I’m afraid he’ll end up throwing up soon or something since I’ve had a yucky belly as do friends kids who’ve been around us. He was just out of school for a week sick and I know he wont go tomorrow now and we’re supposed to leave tuesday. I am so frustrated, we just got over this and now here we are again.

Good news of the day, my best friened is preggo!!! I am so excited! Also; we are test driving the van today but having caleb sick is making doing so hard. dean drove the van home from church and I our car so we’ll see if all of us get to go for a ride together in it or not today. Pray caleb and I get better quick, and that all he continues to have as a symptom is a headache!!! what a weekend!!

Enjoying his party!

caleb giving Boaz his first present from his big brother!

Boaz’s first birthday cake

My baby boy and I

Last week I considered not rescheduling Bo’s party, but we did, making it today. I’ll post pics tomorrow hopefully. below will follow a ton of reasons throughout our day I should have just cancelled it…and how today went…

Yesterday I kept losing my voice and was fatigued beyond belief! managed to still get the house spotless and Bo’s cake done. Last night Dean and I went out shopping to the mall w/out the kids, that was sooo nice!!! We also looked at our friends van; we’re test driving it tomorrow but are very interested in buying it from them!

So today’s highlights included:

woke up late, alarm never went off, threw up several times and got a shower and got ready
7:55 a.m. drank orange drink for one hour glucose test at the lab
9:15 a.m. Got home from lab just in time to pick up Dean, say goodmorning to my mom and my kids then leave again
10 a.m.-11 a.m. ob u.s. unable to find out sex of baby, it had it’s legs crossed, unable to get profile pic so u/s tech said dr will order another in w/in the next few weeks
11:30 went to Chicfila w/ mom, kids, hubby then left hubby and kids to go to the store w/ mom for last minute groceries
12:45 got home for good finally, made appetizers and decorated house, cleaned up soda that spilled all over the floor, got dressed and ready for party
2:oo – currently house full of people come and go, crazy kidness and I felt really sick again

I’m currently hiding away in our quiet bedroom, hoped to fall asleep and wake feeling better but my back hurts so bad I cant get comfy to sleep so thought I’d update here. everyone left here is eating dinner I made before retreating for my much needed peace and quiet. It’s been quite a day and I feel like crap. Have since yesterday but life goes on. didnt want to cancel party due to me, several people cancelled on coming due to sick family members, really wish I had cancelled although it’s been great to see family and friends who did come. got to see our friends new baby, she looks perfect! Almost like a little baby doll, I’m now more excited about this baby on the way then ever, today made it so real and seeing their little baby reminded me what I get to look forward to…meanwhile the zillion loud toddlers made me consider never having a kid party here again….I’m just too worn and miserable today to handle all the commotion and I know I was a bad host but cant do anything about it now. I apologize to all guests for my lack of interest today and lack of better planning for the kiddos, it’s been crazy round here lately and I just dont have it in me!

Aside from my miserableness, it was great watching our youngest enjoy his cake and ice cream! I will share pics tomorrow at latest. He got some great gifts and all the kids enjoyed playing w/ them! well I guess since I’m not able to sleep I’ll go try to keep everyone company! so it’s been a fun filled day, lots of memories for sure. Amazing to me all in one day our sons 1st birthday party and Dean and I get to have first u/s together for Baby E. it was pretty neat; just wish I didnt feel so crappy!

my thoughts for today….tired…very tired….i think I”m getting sick. I’ve thrown up this morning, not sure it’s morning sickness since I havent in a while. feel yucky overall and am soooo tired. I keep losing my voice too. I dont want to be sick…we rescheduled bo’s party for tomorrow and I am praying I can make it….it would help if today wasnt so busy and tomorrow too!! ugh….I just want to nap….I shouldnt be tired. Bo’s back to sleeping all night, and hasnt been waking til 8-9 am so I am not sure why I feel so bad today. Well gotta run and get Bo ready so we can pick up Caleb from school, I hate half days!!!

Please say a prayer for us if you do that kind of thing, friends are getting rid of a van; it’s got a lot of miles on it, but aside sounds nice, even has a tv/dvd in it! we’re looking at it tomorrow night! we’re hoping we can work something out, the problem with getting something not from a dealer(and trading ours in then) is paying insurance on ours til we sell it, so basically insurance on two cars, it’ll be hard but might be worth it since the dealer wouldnt give us what we wanted to trade ours in. so we ‘re hoping to list it on craigslists to get at least the blue book value. Tomorrow if shaping up to be a very busy day, and it should be interesting all around. the weekend in general is going to be crazy busy, and next tuesday we are leaving for our thanksgiving trek to Ohio. lots to do between now and then, so off to bed with me, after I make the boys lunches that is….

I have been hot for about a week. Last week I thought for sure I had a fever but never did. today I sat on the couch sweating and couldnt figure out why I was so hot. The thermostat said it was 74 degrees in our house, and I guess being pregnant made me feel so much hotter already. but 74!! the heat was off and a window or two was open. The news says it’s currently 70 outside. I cant believe it. I am glad our electric bill will be cheaper this month because of it but it seems so odd to be so warm in november. It wasnt necessarily cold this time last year, but it was definitely cooler.

Almost a week til bo turns one. it’s so hard to believe. He’s growing so fast. yesterday I had a major baby E milestone. I hadnt really felt the baby move all that much, i was guessing it was from how it was in there in an odd place, why they couldnt find the heart beat easily. All day yesterday I felt hard kicks. I thought it was a fluke but all day long I felt it off and on. it’s amazing. It’s my favorite part of being pregnant. I get freaked when weeks from now you can see body parts sticking out when the baby moves, but these type of movements I love to feel. I mean I really hate to see a foot or butt sticking out of my stomach, really. It’s creepy, but this I like. it hadnt felt real to me but yesterday I couldnt help but remember there’s a baby in there! Saturday is our big u/s and we’re hoping to find out the sex of the baby. I’m excited; really excited.

well Bo keeps reminding me that I’m not playing with him so gotta run. Hoping to take him for a walk before it rains. Going to test out my double stroller because my friend is bringing her baby for me to watch for a bit! its defintely too nice a day to be stuck inside, esp. when it’s 74 in the house!