Wisdom from my walk

Bo seems to be a little better today.  he is loving chicken broth and popsicles.  He refuses to drink anything.   He’s not peeing either so that’s not good.  his dr called today to check on him she said as long as he’s eating the chicken broth and popsicles it should be enough but to keep trying fluids since he’s not having wet diapers todays.   the good thing is he’s not thrown up in a while, but he’s also not had milk for at least 2 days now; or solid foods either.   He’s still having bouts of unconsolable crying, me too for that matter.  I’m stressed and now I’m starting to feel sick too.   Dean cant take off of work til after the new year so I cant afford to be sick, or rather I get to be sick and have no one to help.  I dont want anyone to come get whatever this is that’s destroying Bo’s and my happiness.   I want to sleep so bad but of course now Bo is not as lethargic instead he’s walking around screaming his head off for no reason that i can tell other than pain and hunger.    I cant feed him real foods yet and nothing is helping the pain.  i almost wish they’d admit him to the hospital for fluids to get him better quicker and so I wouldnt have to do this alone.  it’s a horrible thought but the kid is really sick.   and I’m really out of energy and patience.    If caleb wasnt in school I’d be a real mess, but at least I’ve got a break from his neediness for a few hours.  I feel like a horrible mom but I just want a break.  It sucks that Dean has been working 7 days a week when one of the kids is sick add to that my not feeling good and it’s not a good combo.   Only two more weesk til christmas, we havent bought any presents, have no funds to do so yet and I’m generally not in a real christmassy mood.    I cant wait for this month to be over.   at least then Dean wont be working weekends ,well maybe,  his real job(the 9-5 one) is asking him to work weekends/nights and he’s salaried so he wont get paid any more.  so i get to suffer more alone and without extra fundage to show for it.  God help me I’m going to lose it!

Why would the pharmacy put Bo’s name in the directions?  this is what the label on his antibiotic says : Shake well & give “Boaz” 1 & 3/4 teaspoonful by mouth twice daily.   I’m almost convinced if his name was George or Ed they wouldnt have done that.  Tempted to call and ask them to see if I’d get a straight answer.   I mean they actually put his name in qoutes on the label.  is it me or is that a little rude?  I know I never got a RX for Caleb, myself or Bo that had our name in the direction part of the label.     Any thoughts anyone??  maybe I’m just too emotional today and taking it personally but no matter what it is odd to say the least.

Dean sees Bo sick and think he’s fine.  Give him some milk he’ll be ok.  I see Bo sick, lethargic for hours on end, not playing with toys unless they are next to where he is laying and even then that’s if he can keep his eyes open, and think something is seriously wrong.   Dean goes to work leaving me with sick kid again, who throws up all over the crib, again, and the floor, and manages to get some on the rocker next to the crib.   He cries unconsolable for hours this morning.   Fighting the urge to go to the ER I wait til the drs office opens at 9 am.   Bo doesnt stop crying while I try to talk to the receptionist.  She says he needs to come in.  Bo cries, I cry.   I take him to said dr appt to find out he has an ear infection, a stomach virus and fluid is starting to build in his lungs but that she wont order a chest xray since the antibiotic for the ear infection should hopefully cover both the ear and the beginning pneumonia.  if it were up to Dean the kids would never go to the dr since to him they are always fine, for once my worrying paid off and the kid will hopefully recover quickly with some meds.   Dear God please let him recover quickly, I am worn out, sick of throwing up myself or cleaning up others bodily fluids and doing it alone for most of the day.   I so need a day off!!!

My poor little baby is so sick.   All day yesterday he went without throwing up and seemed to be getting better.  He was fussy but considering I could see the whites cutting through his gums in several spots we figured it was teething.  We managed to even go to church since he ate breakfast, a whole jar of baby food and didnt get sick, diarrhea or vomitting.   He played all through the service in nursery and was fine.   We went to a friends house for lunch and he laid on the floor the whole time.   This is the kid who usually runs around the house non stop almost all day, and in a house full of people he just laid down in the middle of the floor.  he’s since either slept or laid around all day and spiked a fever, again.   I just dont know what to do.  He threw up this evening but his stomach seems to be getting better.   Tomorrow will be one week since his vaccines and I remember the nurse saying he may get a fever in a week from the mmr shot.   I’m praying that’s all it it.  but I hate when they get lethargic, I mean he’s literally not played since 11;30 this morning.   if he’s still lethargic tomorrow I’m calling the dr since this is how Caleb acted when he got strep.   it was a trying weekend with a sick baby and Dean working but as always I got by.   Pray our little guy gets better soon, I’m really getting worried about him.    Luckily Caleb seems fine and we’re hoping he gets to go on his field trip tomorrow.

Why must 4 teeth decide to erupt through Boaz’s gums when he’s already got diarrhea, vomitting, a horrible diaper rash, cough and runny nose?  Why today when I am alone with the kids most of the day!?!?!?   He screamed and screamed for no apparent reason, even after getting orajel and tylenol.   He finally fell asleep crying in my arms.   Ugh..I’m going to hurry and shower while Caleb is engrossed in “little einsteins” and my pumpkin cranberry bread bakes.  Theres a christmas party at church tonight and I was going to send Dean, Caleb and said bread but I think I need some adult socialization so I think Dean can stay home w/ the fussbucket and winterize our windows, i.e. putting this plastic stuff up so I can stop freezing all day!   it’s amazing how drafy old windows are!   well gotta get that shower while I still have time.

It’s 5:30 on a Friday evening.  Caleb is on his way to a kid birthday party thanks to my awesome friends, who not only agreed to take him to the party but came to pick him up as well, so I didnt have to go anywhere today!  Dean is on his way to job #2, the tree lot and wont be home til 9:30-10:00, if he doesnt have to pick up caleb.   I had mcdonalds, which my hubby ran to get me before leaving, for dinner and I’m not even going to try to give Bo food as he threw up everytime I did so far today.   So it’s Bo and I and several loads of laundry that needs put away.  What a way to spend a Friday night.  I’m glad Caleb is getting out of the house and hoping Dean makes a tip or two at work tonight.  Most of all I hope Bo doesnt throw up again this evening and that I can get him to bed without a fight!   I dont know what I’ll do with the kids tomorrow during the day while Dean is working, nothing fun going on around town and with Bo sick it’s not like I have too many options.   it’s going to be a boring weekend and I’m dreading having to keep Caleb busy for the next two days alone again.  Oh well…I guess I’ll go work on that laundry….

Dean took this pic the other day while I was blow drying Bo’s hair after a bath. The boy is so funny, he loves getting his hair done and actually does pretty good brushing his own hair! Notice my too big belly! geez, I cant believe I’m 22 weeks preggo! And that we’re going to have another BOY. I’m so happy, now if we could just decide on name. Guess it’s good we arent sharing names since we cant pick one anyway! (like how I threw in that gender announcement! 😉 )

I’m going to be one cute big brother!!