Wisdom from my walk

Since yesterday I’ve been having contractions (and some bleeding) again, and today I was ready to go to the ER for it. It got worse the later into the day, by the time Dean got home I knew if I didnt lay down I’d end up at the hospital for sure. So after dinner I laid on the recliner and finally, an hour later the contractions stopped or at least slowed down some. Now I just feel like throwing up and going to sleep. I’m hoping I dont have to go to the ob again for this stuff esp. since things were doing so much better. So if you would say a prayer for me and the baby that would be great. I am sure it’s just a side effect of doing too much all weekend, but I cant exactly lay around all day either! Ugh, this returning morning sickness is getting to be a pain too! ok enough complaints, just wanted to share how things were going and ask for your thoughts and prayers…

i had my 30 week appt today.  I was happy to have lost 1 1/2lbs, thanks to the insulin and strict diet.    The dr noted that my c-section is scheduled for 39 weeks.  She thinks they will do it at 38 weeks instead but said we’ll wait a little longer to watch my sugars and how the weekly biophysical profiles and non stress tests go.   But she seemed almost set on changing the date there at first, so I’m guessing that’s what is going to happen.  Boaz was born at 38 weeks so I know the baby will be fine, not to mention at that point I was already 3 cm dilated w/ Bo so I’m guessing I’ll be earlier than 39 weeks with this one too.   But that fact is scary, I mean before this appt I thought I had 9 weeks left, changing it to 8 weeks means the end of march, hey it’s already February!!!  It set in that this kid will be here very soon!!!

I see the endo. on Monday, his email yesterday to call him was because he was concerned with my amt of throwing up, i told him I’m used to it and that this has been better than the other 2 pregnancies as far as that goes.  but my m/s is definitely back in full force so I’m grateful to cut a week of of being pregnant if I can!   so he just wanted to make sure i knew to at least drink carbs/calories if I”m throwing up and cant keep in my food since with being on insulin I need to keep food in my system.   It’s so cool to have a good dr that is so on top of things though.   It makes me much more confident about the care i’m getting than I got last time for my diabetes.   My first pregnancy was pretty good to as far as care, I loved my specialist for that pregnancy!   I’m glad that I am able to see this dr for this one though, so far other than having to wait to be seen a few times it’s been great.    the ob’s office has been great to, considering it’s not a high risk ob and all the crap I have during pregnancies.   So the single digit week countdown is on folks, and I’m so excited, and scared, and freaked out….yeah happy and afraid at the same time, crazy but that’s pregnancy for you.   I cant believe I might be having this kid before April!    I’m excited that my next ultrasound is in 2 weeks, it seems like forever since i’ve had one.  Dean’s taking off to go, I want him to be at least one more, and this one will be at the drs office and i love their u/s tech so she’s always great about sharing stuff with us, as opposed to the dumb radiology place I was having to go to.  She said because of the diabetes and them being weekly biophysical profiles, they just have to get authorization from the insurance and i can get them done at  the office, a huge answer to prayer!  I was dreading having to go to the other lab and then the ob’s office, I can take Bo with me to get u/s at the ob’s but kids arent allowed at the other place, so it will be much easier.  But I might still need a sitter for the non stress tests.

well I have tons to do since we’re hosting a game night at our house tonight, email me if you want to come over!  (and you’re not some crazy stalker type stranger then well too bad!!) gonna post a 30 week preggo pic later once I get it uploaded…

I’m sure I’m overreeacting….but….so  I have this great endocronologist who is following my diabetes.   Since seeing him last he had me start insulin and email him my glucose levels every couple of days.   It’s awesome!  So I sent him an email this morning, and when I got home this evening I have an email saying to call the office in the morning!  Bah!  Now I’m dying to know what is up since my levels are finally normal!   He had wanted me to call the dietician back after I emailed him on Monday with my high numbers but we increased my insulin and I stopped trying to beat my checks (by eating less)and am eating exactly as my diet calls for and it’s working!!   So i didnt call the dietician since things have been fine now.   I’m hoping it’s just becuase I have an appt to see him on Monday, and that maybe I wont need to go in since he’s been emailing me.  If it’s not that, well then I dont know what he wants!   i get to spend all night worrying about it.  I have my 30 week ob appt in the morning, hoping i get a call into the endo. before that appt in case it is more important than a scheduling thing.     well I need to get to work on finishing up some laundry and into bed, caleb didnt have school today so I am worn out from keeping up w/ the two kids and cleaning the house like crazy.   A friend is keeping the kids(no school again for caleb tomorrow) in the morning for my appt, I am looking forward to the peace and quiet, even if it’s something as boring as a drs appt!

well I’m anal and nesting and couldnt just leave the non matching dinos on the different walls.   so I bought more, and seeing as the ones I got are only 25 cents a peice it’s really cheap, the paint is only 99 cents too so in the end a cheap decor and now it’s all the same.  Caleb of course wanted to use the other dinos, so the stickers are now on his bed and on the side of the crib, it’s kind of cute because there were baby dino stickers and bigger dinos so the baby dinos are on the side of the crib and the reg. sized ones on Caleb’s bed.    He wanted the rest of the wood dinos on his door, but thats also where he put his curious george poster we got last night.  a libarian gave it to us last night when we went to the library, she had too many and they were too big so she was trying to get rid of them!   So he wanted a pic showing that off when I told him I was taking pics of his room.    So here’s the latest pics, I noticed after taking these that some of the dinos weren’t aligned right so I went back and fixed some.   it’s hard trying to level them out without any reference, I’m anal but not that anal about that kind of thing!    So I’m much happier with how the room looks now!

I apologize for the cr appy looking pics, something must be wrong w/ our digital camera. I couldnt get decent shots and I tried!! Maybe dean can do better when he gets home. 

I cant decide if I like having each wall having different kinds of dinosaur patterns or not but for now it will do. In general it is ok but I’m not satifisied with our furniture situation but i cant do anything about it; like I said it will do. it’s better than plain walls I suppose. Dean hasnt seen it yet since I just go Bo’s side up today, as far as his name and dinos so I have to wait to see what he thinks, not that he really cares all that much! the only thing wrong is that I couldnt find the spray paint I used for Calebs letters so I bought new and the whites arent the same so I think I will take down Calebs name and repaint it to match bo’s letters just because I’m anal like that. well Bo is in need of a diaper so gottta run. let me know what you think. Love it or hate it?? be honest…oh yeah if you cant tell, there are dinosaurs on the crib blankets in Bo’s crib!

bo fought naptime in the new crib in Calebs room but eventually went to sleep.    So at bedtime Caleb insisted we put Bo in his room with him.   So far the routine for bed was dean reads to Caleb in his room, and I put Bo to bed in his room.  tonight I took Bo to his room to rock him until Dean was done reading to Caleb.    Bo was hesitant again to be in the crib in Caleb’s room.  Eventually Bo and Caleb went to sleep, so we’ll see how night one of the boys in the same room goes!!   I’m hopeful since they are both asleep and it didnt take too long after normal bedtime.

i’ve been waiting for an email from my dr about my sugar levels, and I was honest with him and told him that if I Just eat salad for a meal then my levels are fine but if I follow the meal plan then my numbers are high.  this leaves me either cutting foods out and being hungry all day or eating by the diet and having a day of all high numbers.     I was trying to “beat” the tests by not eating as much but I was sick of being so hungry an hour after eating or sometimes sooner.    But my honesty will probably put me in more of a bind insulin wise, I might have to take it a lot more often than I did w/ the other two pregnancies.  I am upset, I hate not being able to control this.   I’ve been having horrible morning sickness back again too on top of feeling crappy and achy.   Thank goodness theres less than 10 weeks left of this craziness! and then after that I’m done babymaking!!!   I would love to do it again if it wasnt so hard on my body but I cant allow myself to struggle like this again, selfish I know but really it’s best for all of us.  When it gets to the point I have trouble caring for the kids I have now to be pregnant w/ another, well that just doesnt make sense.

we’re having trouble deciding on a name for this kid.  I have a name I love and Dean has a name he loves but they arent the same!    we never had this problem w/ the first two kids!   I dont know whene or how we’ll decide!

well thats all for tonight, Dean went out for the evening after the kids were settled, so I get to do laundry and hopefully get some much needed rest.