Posted on 5/2/2007 by Amy

I’m so determined to kick this darn fibromyalgia in the butt but in the process I feel like the one losing the battle. Today was day 3 of making it to exercise class. I feel like crap. I am so exhausted it’s unbelievable. My glands in my neck hurt so maybe it’s the beginning of a bug, but chances are my body just doesnt like me playing the defensive and trying to beat this thing by getting myself in shape.

I am having the hardest time keeping Boaz in the house when Caleb is outside playing. I dont want Bo out playing unsupervised, since he tends to follow the big kids right across the street without paying any attention to traffic.Right now there’s 4 other kids playing over here, plus my 3 that makes 7 kids I need to make sure dont get in trouble or hurt.  I really cant do this.  I feel bad if I tell them to go home , caleb will throw a fit and then things will be even more miserable around here.  But I just got fed up with having to chase him down while trying to feed Zeke lunch inside that I told caleb he had to come in until I was able to go out with all of them.    that didnt last long, I got sick of Caleb’s complaining and his friends still stayed on the porch while he was in the house.  blah….too many kids.  anyway….Zeke napped during lunch time so now I need to feed him and my whole day is off schedule. I went to the gym at 9, Zeke had P.T. at 11 then we came home for lunch and we all napped. I made Dean pick up Caleb from school.

My head hurts and I really feel like I need to sleep. so much for being able to exercise every day….not sure I’ll make it to the gym tomorrow, I was struggling today in class to keep up from the pain and fatigue, but i made myself and now i feel even worse. Darn illness. I want to get healthy but my body just doesnt do well, heck some days just normal stuff wears me out and I’ve been adding an hour of exercise a day so that’s a lot for my aching body.

I’m determined and hopefully can push through this, but right now it feels like no way i can keep up w/ exercising this often. I need to run the boys are driving me nuts…I wish Dean was home so I could go to bed…

About Amy

Mom to boys who were born Aug. 2001, Nov. 2004, March 2006; and devoted wife to the love of my life since Nov. 1998. Chronic worrier but devoted Christian who is trying to put her fears and faith in the One who created it all and provides for all my needs despite the daily challenges and doubts that arise. Along the way I chose to share my journey with you. Thanks for coming along for the ride! The road won't always be bright and the journey may sometimes be hard, but it can be an amazing adventure if you keep your eyes and thoughts "on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable" (Philippians 4:8).
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