zeke’s first birthday bash was today and except for a meltdown on my part when seeing a huge mess in the playroom and sadly a bad response to it it was a great day.  after the party my SIL did a Mary Kay class, we did facials, it was fun.   after everyone left Dean, the kids and I went to Mcdonalds for dinner and left the party mess at home!   after that Dean got the kids bathed and ready for bed while I cleaned up.

I’m really feeling upset about how I reacted to a situation today.  I definitely need to get over my clean freakiness but after all the stress of the day it was just too much for me to handle.   I just dont know how to get past it sometimes.   I know sometimes it’s a bit much but sometimes others go too much to the other extreme too, and I’d prefer being too clean then the opposite.   oh well.   it’s late and my home it back to it spotless state, as I like to keep it.  I dont know how I manage to keep it this way all of the time and others cant but I guess it’s a blessing and a curse.  I was actually glad yesterday that I like to keep it so clean, I didnt clean the house at all today before the party because I keep up with it so much that it was already clean.  so that’s a definite plus when planning for a party.   I didnt make any food other than the cake and dessert and I did that yesterday so this morning was pretty low key around here, which was a nice way to start the day.

well I’m trying to get pictures downloaded and hope to have some up soon….better get working on that before I fall asleep..