A year ago things started to go downhill with my health. Things haven’t really turned around since then, it’s been one thing after another trying to figure out what’s going on with my stupid immune system. I wish I could say we knew more now that it’s been a year, but we don’t. We are still waiting on some test results that are due back this week and genetic testing that won’t be back for a few more weeks still.
Currently battling an infection that’s making me unable to talk and eat normally among some other bothersome symptoms. The good news is I have been on antibiotics all week so am not contagious, but it’s hard to convince others of that when they hear or rather don’t hear my voice and assume I am on deaths door.
Though I occasionally feel that way, there are glimmers of hope. Several days last week I was able to exercise normally. I look forward to a time when I can get back to being the badass chic who can conquer 5ks or 10ks and manage working and keeping up with her family without feeling horrible. I really just long to be able to communicate again, it’s amazing how negatively it affects your relationship with your husband and kids when you can’t talk.
I share because I know that this isn’t impacting just my relationships at home. I know I have been absent from social events. I know I am not serving the way my heart longs to beside the people I really want to serve. I know that a lot of you truly care about me and my family.
I just want to ask for a few things. First prayers are greatly appreciated. For my health. For how it’s impacting my kids, my marriage, my workplace, my inability to do ministry. Secondly, when you see Dean or the kids, please take some time to love on them for me! It’s so very hard for me to be the mom and wife I want and need to be when I can’t be there for them. I want them to know how loved and cared for they are, and I know a lot of you do truly care for them and their well being.
Thanks for reading this far, it shows how much you care! We appreciate your words of encouragement, prayers and support over the last year and know that no matter what the next chapter of my journey looks like that you will be along for the ride! I guarantee it will be a bumpy one, but the view is always spectacular if you keep your eyes on the things that really matter.
