Posted on 8/9/2007 by Amy

I so want this day to end.

couldnt get an edible image made for High school musical, it’s a licensed trademark blah blah blah.   took caleb w/ me to the cake store….he’s happy w/ what we’re going to do…i’m baking it now.  hoping to decorate it tonight.   I hurt my arm somehow and it’s been hurting so bad all day…not good for doing the cake but oh well.  trying to make it a simple design since no ones really coming anyway, just family.

theres a lot of other crap going on and I am just sick of my life.   I’m expected to do things that put me way past my ability health wise and all everyone wants to do is judge me for being a crappy mom when I’m doing the best I can.  whatever.   I just wish people would understand how hard it is to take care of 3 kids when you have a chronic fatigue and pain condition that isnt responding to meds.   I dont even care if they understand, I just wish they’d stop judging me, esp. since I do a damn good job, better than some moms out there and they dont even have 3 kids and bad health.  blah.   ironically the boys early intervention teacher keeps commending me for how good I do w/ the kids and said other moms in the group have told asked him how I manage 3 kids as well as I do, and they dont even know I have health problems, they’d really be proud of me..sadly my own family, hubby included doesnt even realize how well I’m doing considering the things I face every day.    heck getting out of bed is a battle and here it is more than halfway through the day and I’ve gotten a ton accomplished and I left him for a few hours last night and had to deal w/ his crap mess because he couldnt handle the kids alone for that little bit of time.    ok..just not a good day.week month whatever.

About Amy

Mom to boys who were born Aug. 2001, Nov. 2004, March 2006; and devoted wife to the love of my life since Nov. 1998. Chronic worrier but devoted Christian who is trying to put her fears and faith in the One who created it all and provides for all my needs despite the daily challenges and doubts that arise. Along the way I chose to share my journey with you. Thanks for coming along for the ride! The road won't always be bright and the journey may sometimes be hard, but it can be an amazing adventure if you keep your eyes and thoughts "on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable" (Philippians 4:8).
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  1. dad says:
    8/9/2007 at 3:23 pm

    Amy I am really proud of you. I cannot begin to imagine how you can do all you do. We are blessed to be healthy and even at our age–really healthy and we can barely handle a couple of them, let alone a house, hubby, 2 dogs AND your medical issues. We are just greatful that we have you close enough to help some. Please let us know how we can better help. I do have lunch hour available if you could make trips during that hour or just take a break, love ya & praying for you today–as always.