I am sure I am not alone with how I feel about this, but throughout this last month I have thought more than once that I think it would feel better to have my toe cut off than deal w/ the pain from gout.   today is another of those days.  dumb dr still thinks I dont even really have gout.  I go back for bloodwork this week, cant wait to see what she says if the labwork proves her wrong, again.  All I know is that I cant keep living w/ pain in every step, and sometimes pain just when I’m doing nothing.  Blah…I hate being in pain.  you’d think my body would get used to it and build up a tolerance or something, but in fact it seems quite the opposite, I’m much more sensitive to touch and pain feels worse these days.  and if I drink a soda w/ caffiene I feel even worse….stupid body….

Caleb’s had a fever hovering around 101-102 all day.  he says he feels fine, just tired.  so far no drainage from his ears.  no other symptoms, just a fever and fatigue.  we are scheduled to both work tomorrow at church all morning, from 8-1.  tonight he sat w/ Dean’s parents at church since he couldnt go to his class w/ a fever.  we’re not sure what we’ll do, praying the fever breaks or at least something else shows it self so we can know what’s wrong. if it’s his ears it wouldnt be something contagious so he could go to church, but if it’s something else??!?!?!?  I am only concerned about his ears since he had surgery this week.   I am torn about calling the ENT on call this weekend or not, since he has no ear drainage or pain…..I want him to feel better or truly get sick so we know what we’re dealing with.   he’s got soccer camp this week too so he needs to be well….