Another week coming to an end.  It was full of trips to the pool, the zoo, therapy for the kids, and lots of time spent outside.   I can never get much done around the house w/ the summer here, we are either never home or always outside.  I tried to get some things done this morning but as soon as Caleb saw his friends out he was outside and then of course Bo is and I cant leave him outside alone so now I am sitting out here watching them play thinking about all of the things I need to be doing inside and cant.  that and I’d really rather be in bed.    I only went to the gym two times this week, I knew I probably wouldnt go today or yesterday and was hoping the boys would sleep later, but they didnt.  well, I guess 8:30 for bo is sleeping in, but caleb is always up early.   I’m tired and the more I do and the less exercise I get the worse the pain gets.  It’s crazy.  I have also realized caffiene makes me feel a lot worse, the pain gets worse if I drink anything w/ caffiene.  I had given up soda but have had some lately and regretted it afterward.

this weekend is going to busy as is the next week.  I just want to go to bed and sleep for a few hours but I know that wont happen.  Dean is coming home for lunch and I am planning on taking a small nap then while he can watch the kids.  hoping that happens at least.

so nothing new going on here really, just keeping busy.  I want today to be a lazy day but caleb is so mad we arent doing anything “fun”  I am not up for much today and really need to catch up on chores too so I want to stay home but he doesnt understand.   Why should he when on my bad days I usually still make myself go out and do things when I should rest just because it’s easier to keep the kids busy than not? but today I’m too drained and all he cares about is how much fun he is having….he’s a kid and I know it’s normal to be selfish as a kid but it’s annoying, I wish he cared about other people some times.   well gonna run…