when things are crazy and stresful all around me , I’ve found I’ve been able to not worry so much about the future.  that what’s important right now is these kids God’s blessed me with. that if all I do is provide for them during this time and as long as at night they are all tucked into bed, clean, fed and contented with a bed to sleep in a roof over their head then that is all that matters.  I could worry about things but why. I have no control over the stuff going on in my life right now, I’ve freely given over my need for control to the creator of it all.  It’s odd because I never used to be able to do this, to not stress, it’s either an answer to pray (which would be a miracle that I’ve overcome this attitude in my life) or a result of the new medicine I’m on which may have changed my mindset as well.  I know it’s been one of the two, I’d like to think it’s a God thing, but I dont care, I’m just glad to be free of being so anxious and worried all the time. Deans noticed the change in me and I think if I hadnt changed I never would have made it these last two weeks. I thank God for the strength to have made it through and now know I can handle whatever comes.
oh yeah..here’s the lyrics to my new life motto:
Live For Today – Natalie Grant
Genre/Lang. : Christian
Sittin’ in my room staring at the wall
Wonderin’ about the meaning of it all
Why is it this thing called life
Has got me goin’ crazy
So I open up your word and let it speak to me
The purpose and the plan that you’ve designed
Is clear to see, and I believe
(Chorus)
I’m gonna live for today
I’m gonna follow in your way
I’m gonna let my little light shine
Like there’s no tomorrow
I won’t worry about the past
I know my future is intact
So I’ll choose to live my life one way
I’m gonna live it for today
You told me not to worry
About what lies ahead
So I am gonna focus on today instead
Making every moment count and counting
Every single blessing
I’m gonna set my mind on the
Here and the Now
This is what I want my life to be about
And this is How…
