3/28/06

Poor Zekers!!  today they did his circumcision, the ob’s do them which I always think is odd.  So they told me which dr was going to do it and it was of course the one dr in the practice I cant stand.  I almost decided to not have him circumcised, that’s how much I didnt want her doing it.  So….they called to tell me they were getting ready to do it so i went to be there when he was done to comfort him.   the first thing I hear is that something went wrong, he bled more than he should have.  It looks horrible.   The dr apologized to me several times and said she doesnt know why it was so difficult to do.   I am going to be really mad if she screwed up the kids penis because she’s an idiot and inexperienced.   I wish I hadnt let her do the circumcision.

in other news, the nurses keep talking like he will be going home tomorrow.  they are doing more lab work on him early in the morning so if that goes well he will probably be discharge tomorrow!  they told us to bring in our car seat tomorrow so they can check it and show us how to fit it for a preemie.    I had to watch a freakin video on car seat safety for premature babies, ok folks, he’s the size of some full term babies, and was born just one day shy of full term.   I think its funny how one day screws up so much stuff.  I mean I know he would have been in the nicu if born several days later but to fuss over him being one day shy of full term…it seems silly.

I stayed for Zeke’s 6 pm feeding, which of course was shortly after his circumcision so he wasnt really awake or hungry. Then dean picked me up, Caleb was mad I was coming home and told me so.  He didnt want me to come home.  Bo on the other hand got very excited to see me.   We went to pick up the breast pump we’re renting before heading home to get the kids in bed in time for dean to go back to the hospital to be there for Zeke’s 9 pm feeding.  Since I cant drive for 2 weeks I couldnt take myself back and I didnt want to make Dean take the kids out late so he went and bottle fed him.  through the night the nurses will bottle feed him breastmilk.   I’ll probably be there for his 9 am feeding to try to nurse him again.    Hoping he gets to leave shortly after that, I’m calling there when we wake up to find out if they have decided and gotten his labwork back to know how to plan for our day.

we got home, got the kids settled and Dean went to feed Zeke.  I cleaned the house since it was quite neglected in my 5 day abscence, but overall it wasnt as bad as I was expecting.  I spent an hour cleaning up and made caleb’s lunch.  I also got Zeke’s coming home outfit ready and filled up the diaper bag w/ Bo and Zeke supplies.   So I’ve had a busy night and am worn out.    Dean just fell asleep next to me.  it’s nice to be home even if things are kind of crazy.  bo is still pretty sick and not much is comforting him.  it’s very hard for me to not pick him up and cuddle him since he’s so sad.   I feel helpless, he’s very miserable.  he has an ear infection that keeps draining and he’s been unconsolably fussy for days, almost a week even!   dean is going to call the ob if he’s still not better since he’s been on the antibiotic for a few days.  he’s started to have some strange drainage from his belly button too, nott sure what that’s about.  So he’s having ear drainage and belly button drainage and just keeps crying.  Hopefully tomorrow we’ll have all our boys home and healthier, even if it means taking Bo back to the dr.