And Today on Oprah…

I cant watch one single Oprah show w/out crying. It drives me nuts, I wonder why I put myself through the torture of personal growth through hearing others stories. Today the topic was Inside Personal Journals. I always get something out of her shows, and today it wasnt life changing, just affirmation that there’s more to my writing than just taking time out from my busy day. I know that the more I write the more I learn about how I am doing. I write things I would never say or even share with anyone. I also tend to write things and then look back at it and say wow is that really how I feel. Its like I start writing and my hands just type the words in my head without me even realizing what I am saying. Then afterward I can read it and see how I truly feel or think about things. There are days when I feel like crap but I’ll write about how great my family is. Chances are I am just upset about how we are struggling and how hopeless things seem, yet in the midst of all the stress, life goes on and great things are happening. We are all growing and changing and loving. I hate the days when I feel like I should write yet I try to and cant. Writing is my anti-drug. Today there are a lot of words in my head that I dont have time to write, and instead I share the feelings of them w/ Dean and Caleb through my actions. Lucky for them today I am in a good mood! 😉