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looks like blessing are coming everyones way lately....cheryl had some and we got some great news today, looks like Dean may be a full time w/ benefits employee as of this upcoming Monday!!! We're still sitting in a no a/c house enjoying the news, but the a/c man is on his way, so keep those prayers going for that a/c and that nothing comes between Dean and this going through as planned for Monday. If it goes as they say he'll take a slight pay cut but get benefits that start on Monday!!! Wohooo!! Now maybe I can go see an ob/gyn before I get preggo!!! That would be a true blessing as this is month eight of ttc on our own!!! I have cried many a time today some sad tears other happy ones, it's been a very hard week, well two weeks around here and I am hoping this is the beginning of our going back to good times....

Sorry for the confusion !!! My hubby was going about switching our servers and wanted me to be able to tell when it was done moving servers, so when that message was able to be read here I knew it was switched over.

In other news, our central a/c died. We all suffered through the night covered in sweat and today I had plans to be out visiting friends and family so we werent around much to notice the unbearable heat. We made a walmart run to get some more fans to make bedtime more comfy until we can afford to fix or find someone we know to fix cheaply whatever is wrong. So say a prayer that the heat isnt as bad in the next few days or that the a/c problem is cheap and easy to fix!!! The worst part for me is that we have no screens in our windows so when we open them to get some air we also get bitten by misquitos which are very bad in our area lately. So it's a horrible situation but we are doing our best to appreciate what we do have. We've lived a quite comfortable lifestyle on our one income although the bills are getting paid later and later lately, that this is just a wake up call that we are struggling and have no savings at all for unexpected things let alone major things. So keep us in your prayers as we await news from Dean's work about a permanent w/ benefits position or a possibility for me to provide childcare for a friend so she can go to work, either and/or both would be great news, so all we can do now is continue to be patient as we have for the last year as we've waited for more doors to open.

our little boy is acting all grown up. It's as if w/ his birthday he realized he can do all sorts of big boy things and can each day blow us away w/ his new vocabulary or smarts. I love him so much....and I am so looking forward to having another baby so we can experience these joys all over. But once again, that patience thing is kicking us in the butt and harder w/ each passing month. Sorry for the infrequent updates, I'll try to do better!!

Happy Birthday Caleb!!! My little

Happy Birthday Caleb!!! My little boy is officially 2!!!! Wohooo!!!!

Worked hard all morning on

Worked hard all morning on this cake for Caleb's 2nd birthday party. Luckily my girlfriend and I have started swapping kids once a week so we both get a day to clean run errands or whatever we want. So today was my day alone which was great cause I was able to do the cake and get some cleaning done. Now if I could just get Caleb to nap!!

having a hard time reading

having a hard time reading others blog right now and not wanting to participate in my own as there are so many moms out there w/ kids calebs age who are pregnant as well. my heart has been broken time and time again over the last few months of ttc and I just am having trouble coping. So it will no doubt be quiet in the next week as we see if this month was another failure. In other news, calebs big birthday bash is saturday and I'm doing my best not to stress over it. Big mess w/ the family harboring old pains so looks like it will be mostly friends and my parents. Last year we had the whole family, all sides, it was the first time some of them had been together in a long time. I guess they hadnt gotten over having to have dealt w/ it then and dont want to this year. I was stressed over that but now am deciding that its is their choice if they dont want to participate in my sons life. But it still hurts. Blah. I feel blah the weather is blah I just want to curl into bed and cry..........