Wisdom from my walk

Caleb and Bo spent the night at their grandparents last night and then went to Kings Island today.  So I just had Zeke for the first half of the day.   So we relaxed this morning and Dean came home to have lunch with us before leaving for the rest of the day.  Zeke and I napped before going to get the big boys and then spent some time at the pool w/ friends who came over for dinner afterwards.   My foot is doing tons better as long as I wear the brace and I can even tell a difference when walking w/out it.   It is helping the arthritis/bone spur pain as well which is great!!   I’d wear it all the time if it wasnt so huge and uncomfortable.

Poor Boaz has horrible sun burn because they spent hours at the waterpark at Kings Island and grandmom didnt put sunscreen on him.  I might have to get it looked at by the doctor.  Luckily he had his swim suit and shirt on, but he’s got a rash on his chest too underneath the sun burned area on his neck.    I tried to put aloe on it but he said it hurt and wiped it off.    I’m hoping it looks better tomorrow.  It’s really bad.

A qoute from a wise friend today via email:

Get some REST! Remember that line in the Little Mermaid, where Sebastian is talking about Ariel and goes “Somebody’s got to nail that girls’ fins to the floor” that now reminds me of you! 🙂   

I just got back from the podiatrist.  Turns out I have a stress fracture in addition to the gout which caused osteoarthritis, bone spurs and hallux rigidus in my big toe of the same foot that has a stress fracture.  So for now we treat the fracture, I have a boot on my foot for a few weeks, or until I can walk w/out pain, or as he said walking barefoot or taking a shower w/out pain.  I go back in three weeks and we will deal w/ the arthritis/gout/bone spur issues.

OW, OW and triple OW.  that’s how I feel right now.  Every step I take I take in you….yeah yeah yeah….every step I take I went to cry….seriously.  So how do I spend such a day?   At church volunteering in childcare for four hours.  Then stopping at the grocery store on the way home, then coming home to take care of my three selfish, grouchy, daddy missing kids who dont give a crap that mommys foot hurts so bad she wants to chop it off( did I mention I have hardly seen my husband these last two days since he’s off serving  so I shouldnt be whining but a part of me is jealous and wishing I could be doing something cool like being on stage videoing a live concert of Family Force 5.   but instead I get to limp around trying to keep up with my regular responsibilities…)……so now, once again, I’m in bed icing my foot and anxiously awaiting tomorrow…..when I’ll spend the late morning/early afternoon loading up the van w/ bottled water then driving someplace to take said water to a group of teens who will give it away for free.   then I will come home and eventually head to my doctors appointment and hopefully come home w/ answers and better yet a medicine to take away the pain, even if temporarily til something permanent happens to fix things.   until then….more cringing w/ every step and trying to not be selfish…..like my spoiled kids…..

Dean’s due home soon w/ the guys, apparently swapping one teen for another since ones’ allergic to the cat at his current host home, and they want two guys for some reason….although we have room for all 5 but anyway…one of our guys is going to the other host home, sometime tonight, midnightish or something.  who knows.  All I know if the guys luggage wont arrive here until after 1130 tonight.  loads of fun.  at least I’m in bed resting already and dont really have to deal w/ it.   (not being selfish there at all!:-) )

So Dean is not a worrier by nature, an exact opposite of myself!   So a few days ago, maybe even Sat/Sunday night he told me he was up stressing out about our guests coming in this week.  Our church is hosting a teen conference and we signed up to host.   They sent us a list w/ three teens names, 3 boys.   10-12th graders.   So he said that he was up worrying that we were going to have 4 boys staying with us, to me I didnt see the big deal.  I knew we’d have room no matter what, 3 or 4 or even more.    I got the boys bathed and tried to settle them down but they all were excited about daddy coming home, he has been gone all day.   then my friend came over to keep an eye on them since I knew it would be a tight fit w/ our 3 boys, 3 teens and Dean and I and all of their luggage.   (thanks Minda!)   I got there and it took a while to find Dean, because he was working on tearing down from the concert they had.   I asked him where our boys were, the ones that would be staying w/ us, and he said over there somewhere.  So I waited and then eventually we found them and he told me there were 4 boys.  I just couldnt believe it.  Dean worried about something for once and he was right!! I think it’s so funny.  I didnt stress about this week at all.  My biggest stress of the week is how we’ll all get to church with one vehicle.  Thankfully my friends (who happen to be neighbors too) are helping us out a lot, I dont know what we’d do without them really.  We do so much together it’s amazing….they know how awesome they are! 🙂

so it’s going to be a busy week.  I’m more anxious about my doctors appointment this week than much else going on.   I’m kind of bummed I’m not serving in the area I want to be for this event but I guess something good will come from it, afterall I will be serving others right??   I get to spend a few hours volunteering in childcare tomorrow…what’s the difference between being home w/ your own kids all afternoon or helping keep others kids so they can serve elsewhere, what’s  a few more kids is always my motto.  I just wish my foot wasnt hurting so badly.  Praying for nice weather so they can at least get outside some.   it should be a fun week overall…I’m just not that excited about what I’ll be doing, it’s not nearly as fun as what Dean gets to do all week…..

It’s father days and if you were looking for what the rest of the world is blogging about, happy go lucky “Dads” well you might want to go look elsewhere.   I could blog about how awesome Dean is at being a dad, but I try to do that more often then just on days that profit Hallmark.  But I will briefly by saying how great it was to spend the day as a family.   We went to church last night so that we could be at Kings Island today when they opened.   We werent there right at 10 but shortly after and walked around and rode a few rides but due to a promo they were running on cheap tickets today it was pretty busy so it felt like we mostly just walked around sweating!!   After a brief snack in the car to hold us over we went to Dean’s parents house for lunch and crabs!! they had been in North Carolina for a week or so and brought some back, mmmmm!!   After that we went back to K.I. to enjoy the water park.  I really enjoyed our time there,  despite the pain I was in!

This week is going to busy for us.  Our church is hosting SOS, a week-long conference for teens.   Personally we will be hosting 3 teenage boys in our home.  They will basically only be here to eat breakfast, shower and come back in the late evening to eat snacks and sleep.   Dean took the week off of work to volunteer for the whole event at church.  I’m volunteering some, but not as much as Dean, which is probably good considering how I’m feeling.  Tomorrow will be laid back for the boys and I but Dean has to be at church at noon to set up for the first concert tomorrow night.   My hubby the cool techie.  I wish I could be there to work with him more on the tech side of things this week but it’s just not meant to be.

It’s been a fun summer so far and I’m kind of bummed we’ll be spending a week of Dean off of work not even being together!   He’s off for a few days next week too, we were originally going away to a game convention but due to our finances I think we’re going to can that trip and maybe just find someplace close to home to go to hang out and get a day or so away from the kids.

Until then…more pics up on flickr…here’s a few to get you interested!

I havent blogged yet about a wonderful evening I had this week.  I dont have time to now but this is sort of my reminder to do that later…..

being the good patient I am I have googled arthritis and found many suprising things.   After they diagnosed me w/ sleep apnea I wondered if I really had fibromyalgia at all, now I wonder the same with this new development.  Before we left Baltimore my rheumatologists did x-rays of my hands and feet to check for things like this, arthritis.   Everything was normal.  Sure it’s been about 2 years but can it have happened that quickly?  And back then I had a positive test result at some point for Rheumatoid Arthritis but they said it made no sense with the lack of other test results to back it up.   I just wish I could go to a dr, have them start all over w/ a fresh slate and start again.   Many misdiagnosis’ later and I still feel crappy.  They are still bad days nows(good ones too dont let me mislead you!), more now since I havent been able to exercise lately.    but at the event I attended Tuesday night something I took home w/ me was something a woman said to me while praying over me, once even before I asked her to pray for my health ( and never mentioned what in particular health wise) and that was something like this ” that I’d never miss anything” that whatever opportunity He lay in front of me or whatever He’s called me to , that I’d always be up for it so to speak.   Later after I talked to her and mentioned wanting prayer for my health she mentioned it again, praying that I’d always have the strength to do what was needed of me and more.   I often pray that prayer but sometimes it’s easy to forget when you are in bed writhing in pain….like last night and today….that I’m not missing anything today.   that He’d make a way for me to be where I need to be when He needs or wants me there…and it’s true.    it always has been and always will be.    Todays just a bad day, and theres no where for me to be but here fighting w/ my grouchy kids, no doubt a side effect of my own impatience and pain.    Just another day…I’m not missing anything…and while it may not be great….this is where He wants me TODAY.     Praying for big things TOMORROW!!  🙂