Wisdom from my walk

Then, on top of all the other new changes in our life we had been planning on moving out to our own place after Christmas. We started packing and we started moving our stuff out on Christmas weekend, but we didn’t spend our first night at our new townhouse until December 29th. And believe me, never move when you are pregnant. I about drove Dean crazy. There is this thing, nesting, where moms must have the house clean and ready for the baby but you cant do that when you are moving, but I damn near tried. What will be the baby’s room is just now somewhat operationable, it is still jam packed w/ unpacked boxes, but it is getting there. But believe me, the rest of the house is unpacked and is neat and tidy. Until Dean gets home!

Oh yeah, on December 7th we went to have our first ultrasound, the dr was concerned that all of my cramps and loss of weight meant miscarriage. So, we went expecting bad news but really got no news, it was too soon to tell if the baby was okay or not. But all of the blood tests they were doing kept reporting that my hcg level was rising consistently so the need to worry just diminished. The cramps came and went with little to no relief when I had them, but there was relief that I never had any bleeding. So apparently the baby was just growing fast.

Thanksgiving was great, I missed my family and got all homesick and stuff, but I felt great. The week after Thanksgiving I gave my two weeks notice at the daycare as I’d been offered a good paying job w/ great benefits at a doctors’ office. I was doing great and the news of switching jobs took so much stress off of me, and I my usual bout w/ sickness stopped too. I was to start my new job on Dec. 13th. Well, then on November 29th I started getting really bad cramps, but I didnt get my period. Then on the 30th I started throwing up and the cramps got worse. Apparently I had the flu. But December came and I still was sick, and I still didnt have my period. So Saturday night we went and bought a pregnancy test and sure enough Sunday morning we found out we were pregnant. The first month we stop worrying about making a baby and it just happens. Then all of the sudden I realized that I’d have to tell my new employer and well then all the stress came back! A week before I start my new job I find out I am pregnant, I started to reconsider leaving the daycare but I was so sick that I realized I could never feel this way and take care of kids all day long let alone stand all day long. So I decided to keep the new job. The second day on the job my co-workers were trying to get to know me better and asked about my husband and if we had kids or if we were going to. At first I lied then being the good Christian girl I am I just blurted it out, I am pregnant now! They were so estatic. I told my boss that afternoon and she started rambling how she was about the have her first grandchild. So apparently I stressed for no reason. It was going to be ok.

Well, a little update, on November 14, 2000 I went to the hospital and got what they call an hsg test done. They poke and prod you and put you in terrible pain in an attempt to look inside at my ovaries, uterus and tubes. The whole procedure lasted only about 20 minutes, but afterward I felt raped almost. They warned me to expect slight to heavy bleeding for a day or two following the test. So I was bummed and wasn’t in the greatest of moods. Except for the fact that the dr doing the procedure said so far everything looked fine but that he would send a report to my gyn. So there was slight relief, but I still had to wait a week for my gyn to tell me I was perfectly able to have kids. But I had taken the day off of work because a very good friend of mine warned me how invasive the test was. So having had dragged along Dean, we went to enjoy a nice lunch out and then I went home and relaxed. We spent the day bonding and the evening enjoying ourselves(if you know what I mean) because we now knew that there was nothing stopping us from having kids. And we had been told that there is a higher risk of pregnancy the month or two after having such a test because it clears out any slight blockages that may have been preventing pregnancy. So now that we know there was nothing stopping us we resolved not to keep trying but let the baby thing happen on it’s on. I went on to look for a new job and stopped worrying about making a baby. So that night was one of the most carefree nights we had. (at least for me!)

On Wednesday afternoon I went to the gyn. to get more info on Dean’s fertility tests. Seems like he is perfectly enabled to procreate. So next month I have to go get this test done to make sure my tubes aren’t blocked or anything. The good thing about this test is that if there are minor blockages the test itself clears those blockages out when they inject your uteran cavity with gas so i has been known to happen that within that month or the following that a couple can conceive. If my tests comes back normal they will start me on Clomid to increase our chances of getting pregnant. In the meantime we have been taking advantage of our time with just ‘us.’ Today we are in Baltimore and are getting ready to go visit my brother and his six month old baby, whom I haven’t seen since his birth. And tomorrow we go to my brother’s wedding, ironically he is marrying a girl named Amy, so since I got married already she is going to have my old name! See, now my mom has two daughters named Amy, and well me are hoping soon she’ll have another grandbaby as well.