Wisdom from my walk

looks like blessing are coming everyones way lately….cheryl had some and we got some great news today, looks like Dean may be a full time w/ benefits employee as of this upcoming Monday!!! We’re still sitting in a no a/c house enjoying the news, but the a/c man is on his way, so keep those prayers going for that a/c and that nothing comes between Dean and this going through as planned for Monday. If it goes as they say he’ll take a slight pay cut but get benefits that start on Monday!!! Wohooo!! Now maybe I can go see an ob/gyn before I get preggo!!! That would be a true blessing as this is month eight of ttc on our own!!! I have cried many a time today some sad tears other happy ones, it’s been a very hard week, well two weeks around here and I am hoping this is the beginning of our going back to good times….

Sorry for the confusion !!! My hubby was going about switching our servers and wanted me to be able to tell when it was done moving servers, so when that message was able to be read here I knew it was switched over.

In other news, our central a/c died. We all suffered through the night covered in sweat and today I had plans to be out visiting friends and family so we werent around much to notice the unbearable heat. We made a walmart run to get some more fans to make bedtime more comfy until we can afford to fix or find someone we know to fix cheaply whatever is wrong. So say a prayer that the heat isnt as bad in the next few days or that the a/c problem is cheap and easy to fix!!! The worst part for me is that we have no screens in our windows so when we open them to get some air we also get bitten by misquitos which are very bad in our area lately. So it’s a horrible situation but we are doing our best to appreciate what we do have. We’ve lived a quite comfortable lifestyle on our one income although the bills are getting paid later and later lately, that this is just a wake up call that we are struggling and have no savings at all for unexpected things let alone major things. So keep us in your prayers as we await news from Dean’s work about a permanent w/ benefits position or a possibility for me to provide childcare for a friend so she can go to work, either and/or both would be great news, so all we can do now is continue to be patient as we have for the last year as we’ve waited for more doors to open.

our little boy is acting all grown up. It’s as if w/ his birthday he realized he can do all sorts of big boy things and can each day blow us away w/ his new vocabulary or smarts. I love him so much….and I am so looking forward to having another baby so we can experience these joys all over. But once again, that patience thing is kicking us in the butt and harder w/ each passing month. Sorry for the infrequent updates, I’ll try to do better!!

Happy Birthday Caleb!!! My little boy is officially 2!!!! Wohooo!!!!

Worked hard all morning on this cake for Caleb’s 2nd birthday party. Luckily my girlfriend and I have started swapping kids once a week so we both get a day to clean run errands or whatever we want. So today was my day alone which was great cause I was able to do the cake and get some cleaning done. Now if I could just get Caleb to nap!!

having a hard time reading others blog right now and not wanting to participate in my own as there are so many moms out there w/ kids calebs age who are pregnant as well. my heart has been broken time and time again over the last few months of ttc and I just am having trouble coping. So it will no doubt be quiet in the next week as we see if this month was another failure. In other news, calebs big birthday bash is saturday and I’m doing my best not to stress over it. Big mess w/ the family harboring old pains so looks like it will be mostly friends and my parents. Last year we had the whole family, all sides, it was the first time some of them had been together in a long time. I guess they hadnt gotten over having to have dealt w/ it then and dont want to this year. I was stressed over that but now am deciding that its is their choice if they dont want to participate in my sons life. But it still hurts. Blah. I feel blah the weather is blah I just want to curl into bed and cry……….

Seeing as our budget is tight, getting this vacuum on clearance for $58 was heavenly!! It works much better than our old one and we can see how dirty our floors out, which is gross considering I vacuum at least once a day!!

The day w/ four kids in our house was quite interesting, but very worthwhile. Tomorrow night our church is having an ice cream social, and we are looking forward to the ice cream and the socialness of it!! Looks like we might watch the same kids I had today on Saturday so my friend can catch up on some more work. Which will be easy w/ Dean around, although it was pretty easy w/out him. Nap time being the biggest struggle but suprising I yet again pulled off getting 3 kids under the age of 3 to nap all at the same time, or to at least fall asleep w/in the same half hour and they all slept about 2 hours give or take a minute or five !!

Other exciting news, more for Dean than me, is that he got his wireless internet working on the lap top, yes our disconnect notice for BGE comes today and we can afford to hook up wireless internet??? crazy stuff, mostly being we were waiting for Dean’s pay check to go in today to pay bills. But the whole idea scares me. Our bills werent that late, and we’ll get the payment in in plenty of time, it’s just the irony of it all, I guess it’s just our priorities. Warped as they are…..but more than anything its the fact Dean got some money from working outside of his regular job and we felt that money was his to spend on him or his interests thus getting the wireless stuff. I am glad he was able to get something he wanted, me I get a vacuum!!!

Ode to the dead vacuum…. we got our vacuum a few months shy of 5 years ago, it would have made it to 5 years in October. Over the last few weeks it has slowly become unusable. My biggest problem is keeping it in one peice while I vacuum. Last night was the about the end, it would just decide to turn itself off as I used it. If I werent babysitting and expecting a visit from my family I’d already have a new vacuum. So I am hoping to get one either tonight or tomorrow. Any suggestions? We dont have too much extra money to use for a vacuum but we really cant live w/out one. At least I cant!

Watching 3 kids, including mine, today. It’s been good so far, except the kids dont want to share a thing. And lunch is always hard to try to figure out how to get it together, how to get them to sit and to feed a baby at the same time. But it all works out and I feel a great sense of accomplishment at the end of the day.

In other news, 10 days to Calebs 2 yr old birthday!! i am excited and not all ready for his party. I really need to make games or think of things for adults to do. Other than that nothing really exciting going on.

Last weekend Dean and i went away for the first time since we’ve had Caleb. We went to Virginia Beach and had a truly refreshing trip, it was hard to decide when to go home. caleb loved spending the weekend w/ his grandparents and uncles. He didnt even care we were gone. He decided he can sing along to songs now and sings constantly no matter what he is doing. The sad part was he decided to share his new talent w/ them before w/ us, but we were able to find out in a special way. We were trying to get Caleb asleep our first night back and of course he didnt want to go to bed so we laid in bed w/ him and as soon as we started singing him songs to sleep he started chiming in loudly w/ most of the correct words in teh song! It was wonderful, it was so sweet. I cried and laughed. he’s getting so smart it blows me away. I love my little baby boy so much!! I cant believe it’s been 2 years!!!