Wisdom from my walk

well we have a new baby!! Her name is Stella and she is 4 months old! caleb loves her to peices, and so do Dean and I!!

I want to apologize for not having gotten to people’s emails over the last few days, we are in the process of switching isp’s so it may be hit or miss or posting or returning emails so forgive me!! Doing well these last few days, eating way too much candy which I really need to be limiting but it’s so dawg hard w/ all this easter candy!! hope everyone had a nice holiday! I know I did. More on that later….

I am so paranoid about losing this baby. Mostly because we didnt think it would be possible to get pregnant, that and I feel like we may be telling people too soon. With Caleb we told everyone right away but we had been trying for a long time so everyone knew we were hoping to be pregnant. This time round its been more of a shocker to everyone. I am not sick w/ morning sickness and throwing up like I was with Caleb, even this early. I had some of that a week ago when we were waiting to find out if I was pregnant, and then on Friday all of that went away. So it kind of worries me that that went away, but I do have other pregnancy symptoms that I dont remember having w/ Caleb so I guess when they say all pregnancies are different it’s true. I am sooo glad I am not throwing up like I was my first pregnancies but it at least let me know I was pregnant!! I’m a worrier by nature so that doesnt help things either. I have complete faith in God that he wouldnt have given us a child then take it away from us but I know so many people that have miscarriages, so the thought scares me. So I know this is normal for all expectant moms but I dont remember worrying this much w/ Caleb, I think I was too overwhelmed w/ knowing it was my first baby and it was finally happening, I’m still in shock that we were able to get pregnant so easily and quickly. waiting til that first ob appt is going to seem like forever!! got 5 more weeks til my first appt!

well it’s a beautiful spring day and Caleb and I went out and enjoyed it at a nearby park. But before heading out we painted and did other art work, dyed and decorated Easter Eggs, made and decorated 4 dozen cupcakes, cleaned up and put laundry away. It’s no wonder I’m so exhausted come nap time if not sooner, but this pregnancy is wearing my out much more than my first. So it’s off to a good afternoon nap! we’re going out to friends for dinner so I am glad I dont have to worry about cooking so I can sleep later, if Caleb lets me!

Have a great Easter everyone!!

well most of all of the family members that we can notify have been told, now it’s your turn:

oddly enough, my brother and his wife are expecting chid # 2 at the end of May. Dean’s brother’s girlfriend is also expecting his first child at that same time. When calling his sister we found out his half brother and his wife are expecting child # 2 in October!! So all of the men in Dean’s family are expecting new babies w/in the year!! that’s crazy stuff. must be in the genes!!

we are way too excited, especially since we werent thinking this would happen anytime soon for us. Luckily all it took was some good old fashion babymaking and no extra medical help!! I think what it really took was me giving up my desire for another child to God and giving him control, as soon as I did that before we got pregnant w/ caleb and once again that is the case here. Funny how that happens, letting the Creator do His job!! But our little bundle of joy is expected on or around Dec 7th/8th. My first appt isnt until May 6th but I have had one blood test to confirm that we are indeed preggo!!!!

Can spring time get any better?? Dean was inspired to find some summer clothes and He couldnt find them where I had put them so I went looking, and found a lot of my spring/summer clothes and of course his ONE pair of jean shorts, poor guy, it’s his own fault, he hates to go clothe shopping! And I felt compelled to try on my shorts and for once in my life changing seasons feels good! all of my shorts were big on me!! that hasnt happened, ever I dont think!! I know I lost some weight over the winter months but felt like I had gained it all back, guess not!!! Wohoo for me! I wont have to buy new shorts this year, or at least not this soon in the season. Now if I just had a springy dress for Easter that I wasnt swimming in!! what a good feeling!!! I wonder how long it’ll last! 😉

My nephews birthday cake that I just made

I saw the gyn yesterday to discuss my u/s results in more detail and discuss whats next. First off let me say this dr was much better than the LPN i had been seeing. So the dr shows me the actual u/s report and goes over in it detail, basically saying everything is normal for a woman my age , that the cyst at this point are functional and normal and of a very small size. So when I asked her then why am I having daily stomach cramps she said that she didnt know but that the small cysts would not be causing that much pain and on a daily basis. This is completely different than what the LPN told me a few weeks ago. The worst thing was when I asked the gyn about the cramps she said what cramps? what back pain? I had to tell her about it all again and she said no where in my chart did it discuss those problems. basically that lpn didnt do a darn thing and just made me deal with pain that I could have been seeing the PCP for and getting help for. So basically for the last two weeks I was told that the cysts were causing the pain and to wait it out. So I did that. the only reason I never went to the ER for the pain was because I was told by the LPN that the pain was from the cysts. So all of the last two weeks when I was doubled over in pain or in bed from the pain, I should have either been calling my pcp or going to get seen somewhere. but I didnt because of that other damn dr, or rather LPN. SO thank God I have a cat scan for friday to find out what is causing all of this pain. It has been very bad and now I am super worried because for weeks I thought it was cysts and now I dont know what the heck it is. So now I wait and worry. I could just wait and not worry , but this pain is nothing to sneeze at so I am very worried. My mom thinks its kidney stones but I’m not so sure. we’ll see what happens. I am upset about how I was getting treated or rather at the lack of treatment I was getting. nothing to do about it at this point.

In other news, no wait there is no other news. Working very hard on coordinating the Easter Egg Hunt for church, which has been hard not feeling well, but I’m good at pushing myself even when I feel bad. Actually sometimes I think I do way too much when I feel bad but it cant get much worse so theres no point in laying in bed feeling bad when theres things to be done. speaking of which, gotta run , babysitting today….