Wisdom from my walk

My big boy

I always post pics of my baby boy, and rarely ever post the big Boy, caleb since he never wants to cooperate for pics. he always make insanely crazy faces and I’d rather show off the cute ones of him not the ones that prove he’s a nut like his daddy! So tonight I caught him being cute and took advantage of it. He’s such a handsome kid – much cuter than his daddy even! He must get his looks from his momma! 😉

Baby Doll Cake – February 2005

Baby Doll Cake, different view

My real life baby doll, 02.06.05

I really am not thrilled with how the baby doll cake turned out, it was the first time I made it and it didnt help that I was worn out when I started decorating it at 9 pm last night! I was frustrated that I didnt do better but for my first time with some new techniques I guess it will do. No one seemed to mind at the baby shower, they all loved it so I guess that’s all that matters; not to mention it tastes great and thats really ALL that matters! The shower was for a friend at church who is having a girl, sitting watching her open all of her girly gifts made me really want a baby girl. I love Boaz but even now I somehow wish we had a girl. Maybe we’ll get blessed and # 3 will be a girl. Maybe if I start praying now for a little girl my chances will be better! Another church friend delivered her little girl yesterday, up until these two friends all the new babies around us have been boys so it’s starting to even out a little more! The next baby due at church is going to be a boy, she’s due Valentines day! what a great Valentines present! It’s been a busy party filled weekend and I started it out sick and exhausted so it’s no suprise that’s how I’m ending it.

Boaz on 1/31/05

Spiderman Cake – Feb 4, 2005

Dean & I have a hobby of frequenting ToysRus to find out what they have on clearance since now everything w/ a green clearance tag is an additional 70% off!! So we got this package of wipes for $1.50! We cleaned out what they had left on the shelf of them, unfortunately it was only 4 packs. I’m a sucker for good deals but that’s just price was just insane!

The long week is coming to an end, just in time for a busy weekend! Dean stayed home from work today because I’m still not feeling that great, my biggest complaint right now is that I’m so tired. ironically though I got a decent nights sleep, ok about 6 1/2 hours straight sleep. Boaz slept from midnight til 7:30. I didnt make it to sleep until 1 a.m. since I had to pump, the stinker only nursed for 5 minutes total before that and still managed to sleep through the night. I’m praying this is it, him sleeping through the night. he started to over a week ago then got sick so he kept waking up due to his congestion. he’s sounding better every day, as am I.

I wish I didnt sound so horrible though. I keep losing my voice on and off and everyone keeps telling me I look like crap. That sure helps make someone feel better doesnt it! I think I”m just run down, I started to feel sick Monday night and since then it got worse. Every day this week has been busy with running to do and I havent had any time for rest. So today is my day to rest, well that was the plan! I’ll be happy with at least a little peace and quiet. Which I’m getting right now, Dean took Caleb to swim at the Y for the first time since we signed up for a membership. I was really hoping to have started a class this week but I am barely getting by as is so I decided I’ll wait til next week when hopefully this bug will be gone. Dean’s excited, he bought new shoes for working out and running. I wanted a pair but on sale they were still $50 and I couldnt justify paying that much.

We’ve got a birthday party to attend tomorrow and a baby shower on Sunday, and I’m making the cakes for both. So it’s good having Dean around today so I can work on the cake for tomorrow’s party. Then tomorrow morning before that party I’ll work on making the baby shower cake for Sunday. I’m keeping myself busy, but I enjoy it. Both cakes are pans I’ve never made before, a spiderman cake and baby doll cake. I cant wait to work on the baby doll one, it looks a little challenging but that’s the fun part!

well I’m going to try to catch a cat nap while Boaz is sleeping and the boys are out. Hope everyone has a good weekend, I’m hoping to get some pics up later today if I get the time.

Its been a busy week. Monday was Boaz’s doctors appointment and the first viewing for my great grandmother. Tuesday I started to get sick so while Caleb was at preschool I tried to rest some but I had some housework to do since we were having houseguests that night. My brother arrived last night around midnight to stay with us so he could go to the funeral today. So I fed the baby around 11 pm, my brother shows up at 12, he and Dean played Donkey Konga for a few hours and shortly after they went to bed Boaz was up again! I only got about 4 hours of sleep and we had to be at the funeral home at 8:15 this morning! I’m pretty sick now, word of advice, if you are sick, rest!! So after a long morning and lunch with our family my brothers family came over for a little while. I was asleep shortly after they left since I was so miserable. Now I’m sitting here writing because I can hardly talk and I’ve got to communicate somehow! 😉 Well the baby just woke up so I have to get. It’s been a busy week, if you are waiting on a call for me it might be a day or two as I keep losing my voice! sorry!! It’s always something around here!

For some reason I know that this is going to be a bad week. The good, Boaz had his 2 month check up today and did well. He now weighs 11 lbs 5 oz (50%) and is 23 3/4 inches long(75%). The sad news was she had to pull back his circumcision which had reattached some so he screamed his little head off for that, I felt so bad!! Then on top of that pain he had 3 shots, unlike his big brother who never even from infanthood cried at shots, Boaz screamed quite a bit. Add that to the fact he’s already congested and nursing less due to that he’s a happy little camper today, ha! I wish! So I had plans to visit some people today but by the time we were done with Boaz’s appt at which he was a mess and Caleb was not behaving at either so we came home after hitting the store for infant tylenol.

the bad of this week, my great grandmother passed away and we will be attending viewings and funeral with the above said fussy baby. Luckily we’ll be leaving Caleb with friends and family while we are there so that should be a little help. I’m no good at sick kids or funerals so this ought to be a challenging week. We knew the day was coming soon when my great grandmom was going to pass away, her health has been deteriorating over the last year. Sadly she never got to meet Boaz. I’m glad Caleb did have a chance to meet her even if he wont remember it very well. My great granddad passed away a few years ago so neither of my sons got to meet him. I’ve very blessed to have all of my grandparents still living, but it was great to have a great grandparent alive. I know it’s probably rare to have a living great grandparent at my age and we knew it was coming but it’s still sad. I dont look forward to any more deaths in the family. My dad, you know the one who never calls, has called twice in the last two weeks, each time to notify me of a death in his family. Sure I wanted to have better communication with him but I didnt want it to be this way or for these reasons. So I might not be around here much this week, it’s going to be pretty busy. I’m at least looking forward to seeing my family and showing off Boaz to them some more since I rarely get to see my dads family. Sadly for me writing this is what it’s taken to get my emotions going. I have been trying to stay focused on the kids and not thinking about things but as the viewing tonight gets closer its getting harder. If anything the hardest part of this for me is that this is my dads family, and I’ve never felt that I’ve known any of them that well. Now that I’m older I can choose to be in their lives but it’s so hard to get over the past and I feel like I’ve missed out on so much. I hate dealing with family stuff it really is one of my weaknesses. I’m blessed to have such a supportive and loving husband who will be there for me and is always a great comfort to me in times of sadness.

So today I’ll be celebrating our beautiful son who has recently blessed our life and the life of an amazing woman who will forever remain in our hearts.

These are pics of Caleb that we have hanging on our wall. Dean took these pics when Caleb was about 4 months old.

This is a pic of Boaz at 9 weeks. Can you see the resemblance to the above pics! It’s amazing to me. I will say this, I am blessed to have beautiful babies, they are some handsome kids!! But I might be a little biased.

Boaz Iain at 9 weeks old.

Boaz playing with Caleb today.