Wisdom from my walk

Hmmm….this is interesting. I went to their webpage and I found it hard to take it seriously, but after reading some of it it sounds for real. I guess the look of it is to engage those who are used to looking at porn sites; it’s definitely an interesting ministry idea and I agree that we can definitely minister better to those we have similar struggles with, more interesting is how much publicity they are getting. I’m sure it’s mostly because of how outrageous the idea is.

just bought this for me just because I wanted it and it was on sale, free shipping and then got an add’l 10% off!!  Our slowcooker is 7 years old and is fine but I want something a little bigger with all of the  entertaining we use it for.   Not to mention I wanted a rectangular one.  Plus then I can cook twice as much and freeze leftovers, which is always a good thing, saves time and money!   I have used our slow cooker 4 times since Friday, it’s a well used appliance in our house so I thought it’s only fair I get a decent one.  I’m loving the idea of a tight lid for taking it from cooking straight to the fridge or for taking it out with us on nights we use it for potlucks/parties.

Now I just need an efficient hand mixer to keep up w/ all my baking, lately I’ve cut back on baking since it’s hard to do w/ my diet, those splenda cookies werent bad but still too tempting and bad for me too often.    I bought some entertaining things from Pamered Chef this week too, we keep hosting game nights and we tend to have people over a lot in general so it’s all money well spent, plus we got our tax money and the boy, I mean my hubby has plenty on his wish list that cost lots and not really anything I want to enjoy so I’m taking advantage of buying some things I will enjoy/ find useful.  Funny how i get practical things and he gets “toys”  I still havent bought any baby things yet, Dean wants to wait a little longer.   He did make us reservations at a B&B in  Phoenixville PA, where we went to college together for a semester.   we’re going for a weekend getaway to enjoy the memories the area holds for us and to get the last break before Baby E comes.  We’re aiming for the 2nd weekend in March but I’m so afraid my ob wont approve it, it’s 2 hours away and I’ll be 36 weeks pregnant!!   If all goes well we’ll have a nice weekend, wish it was sooner!

the other thing we want to do w/ our tax money is do some work on our bathroom.   I dont expect it to get done before the baby arrives but I would be sooo happy if it did happen before then!   We paid off the van we got a few months ago, and it’s nice to know we now own both vehicles.   Well I am worn out from my busy day and theres lots to do around the house now that one kid is in bed and one is on his way there.   I am really looking forward to having no where to go tomorrow, Just hoping Bo starts feeling better.   I’ve barely let him eat since he threw up and he wont drink much so I let him have a couple of popsicles but his diapers have been mostly dry so I’m getting worried.  After tomorrow morning it will be 24 hours of no milk so I think around mid morning I”ll try to let  him have some again.   Hoping tomorrow is a nice quiet day around here!!! I can wish cant I?

so….my life is always interesting when it comes to seeing the dr.  I went to my primary care doctors office today because I’ve had a rash for a while and it’s getting worse.  I was mainly concerned that it was scabies since the dr thought that’s what Caleb had, but we werent convinced.  The worse my rash got the more concerned I got, and it is sooo itchy.  So I didnt see my favorite dr because they were fitting me in, but after the dr looked at me she said I’ll be back and about 10 minutes later came back w/ a doctor I’ve never met and a book of different rashes.   The other dr looks me over says it could be exzema, asks me to take off my glasses and look at my eyes.  Says something about I have a marker, a line under my eyes or something, that is a sign that I’d be prone to exzema.   Funny that I’ve never heard this before, and was impressed.   As a Kid I had horrible scarring exzema that caused me to be the brunt of many jokes and comments by strangers, especially in the summer time when it was so noticeable.   My mom acts like it wasnt that big a deal but I guess since I was the who’s body looked so bad to her it wasnt that bad but to me it really affected my view of myself becuase how bad it was and how I was treated becuase of it.  but that’s another topic…..anyway… there are “suspicious” areas that are not exzema( I have a feeling I am spelling that wrong) and they didnt want to treat me w/ too much becuase of the pregnancy, gee thanks!   So I got a referral to the dermatologist whom they dont think will be able to get me in anytime soon.    I’m just glad it’s not scabies but now because my drs, yeah 2 of them, were baffled I’m more concerned.  how’d I get so lucky to have another set of mysterious symptoms?  I guess my life will never be dull.    fun times….as the day goes on the more lethargic my baby Bo gets, and he’s not drinking anymore.   at least tomorrow no one has to go to the dr, unless of course bo gets worse….

So….yesterday Bo had some runny diapers and started with a diaper rash, or got the yeast infection back that looked like it had cleared up.  He’s been fussy and lethargic all morning, and his diapers got worse.   Then as I was eating my lunch he threw his up all over me!   I have a call into the pediatrician.  Two times ago when he had finished his antibiotic a day or two later he had these same symptoms.   I dont think it’s  a coincidence. he finished his last dose of meds this past Sunday and about 24 hours after that starts this;  exactly like last time.     he’s acting much better after having thrown up so I guess that’s good but I dont want to feed him any more yet I know he’s hungry.    I hate dealing w/ this stuff.     I dont want to have to take him to the dr this week, he has his 15 month check up next week, so that’s another week of 3 appts next week, I cant do 5 appts this week, I just cant!   I am so wiped out.    well he’s acting lethargic again, gotta run.     Plus side of the day, Dean is coming home in time to pick up Caleb and will stay home so I can go to the dr(again) and the lab.   Geez, what a day!!

Yesterday was day 1 of the week of drs appointments.  I saw my ob and got a non stress test done.  Showed a very active baby and some small contractions.    I confessed about the horrible headaches I’m getting again and she wasnt too concerned since my bp and urine check were fine.   I gained  a few pounds, putting my weight gain about 14lbs and for 32 1/2 weeks that no so bad.   I’m finally gaining which is good since i was losing weight.    She was of course concerned w/ my diabetes and lack of control over my fastings and my ketones.   I told her I was seeing the endo. today so she said we’d discuss it more on Thursday after I’d seen him.

So, before todays appt even I was stressed because my ketones were up and still an abnormal fasting number.   So I was expecting  him to make a big deal at my appt today but he wasnt as concerned as I was!   In fact he decided not to raise my insulin but instead to run some blood work and see if he could figure out what was going on.   So we’ll see what happens when those results come in, but first I need to get to the lab, I tried to go w/ Bo at the hospital where the dr was but Bo was too fussy to wait and I dont blame him as he sat contently in the stroller for my appointment.

I’m hoping Dean can come home early from work, I had to call my pcp to schedule an appt for other stuff going on and they got me in this afternoon, the other option was Thursday of this week but I’ll be at the ob for a long time due to my ultrasound, stress test and appt so this was all I could do for this week w/ them so I took the appointment.      So adding in this other appt today makes me have 4 doctors appointments this week and one trip to the lab.    Bo is sick too so I’m hoping he wont have to go in to the dr this week too, it’s no wonder I’m so tired all of the time w/ all of this running around town!   We are hping he’s just adjusting to being off the antibiotics since this is what happened after he went off them last time for his ear infection and not that he still has an ear infection.  he was up bright and early this morning and super fussy.  He fell asleep in the car on the way home from the dr today, around 10 am and stayed asleep when I put him in is crib where he is still sleeping.    So I am dreading having to take him to the dr too.   I am worn out and it’s so freaking expensive for us to keep having to go to the dr.    our medical insurance is going to hate us!  thank goodness we dont have a deductible, but the copays still eat up a ton of money!

so  nothing new to report babywise, looking forward to my appt on Thurs. to see what the ob is going to say about what the endo said, which wasnt much.   If anything at least the baby is getting checked often enough that we’ll know if the diabetes is affecting him.    I’m still torn about baby names, I have one I really love and dean has one he really loves and while he likes my name also I really cant see us naming our boy the name he has picked.   I told him maybe when we meet him we’ll be able to know for sure which name will suit him best.   I hope so anyway!!

You cant really tell since I didnt get much done to it, but I got a haircut this week.   For some reason in the last month or so my hair has completely changed, I used to be able to blow dry it and have it straight.  now my hair is super curly all of the time, I can try and try to straighten it and it still stays curly.  I’ve given in, so most days I wash it and let it dry and it’s super curly, I hate it curly but everyone keeps telling me how much they like it, that makes it more annoying, that everyone else likes it while I hate it!