Today I got an invite

Today I got an invite in the mail for a baby shower for a friend of ours from the theater. I got mad at myself because I actually got upset over it. I guess it is just hard knowing not to expect a shower since all of my family and friends are still in Maryland. Not that I want gifts or anything I just want to enjoy the fun of having a party for Kiddo, and playing all of those goofy baby shower games. I think my mom is kind of bothered about it too, she had told me before that she feels bad for not being able to have a shower for me since I cant make it home before Kiddo arrives. Oh well, I dont know why I let it get to me, but whenever I think about all of the things Kiddo will miss out on since most of his family is so far away, I get upset. It was our choice to move here not his. And I know we still have Dean’s family here and our church family but it’s just not the same as my family. I probably shouldnt get all worked up over it as is there is no changing things now, but sometimes I cant help but wonder what Kiddo will miss out on being here and if we did the right thing moving here to begin with. But then when I think about where we are now and the friends we have it’s hard to imagine leaving this either. So it’s kind of a no win situation. Too bad we cant just put all the people we love in the place that we want to live all within the distance of a short drive, instead of a ten hour one!