faith is a funny thing, sometimes anyway.  yesterday I didnt really freak out about the money but I felt completely guilty that all of the extra money from the sale of the house was gone. I know I sometimes overspend, heck I’m wearing a new shirt, I bought 4 shirts for myself this week, why? because I went shopping for a bathing suit, the stores I went to didnt have one but I found 4 shirts that were great and clearanced, I only spent $20 but I know it adds up. i know we eat out way too often, but by the end of the day I’m so wiped out I barely feel like eating let alone fixing something for everyone else to eat. anyway….so I wasnt worried about not having money, i just hated having to use up our savings since it was the first time in the 9 years of our marriage that we had a significant, ok, ANY money in savings. we got deans car fixed and today the a/c guy is coming. Like clockwork, Dean got a call about the for sale ad for our old van (we’d been letting my BIL use it so we just listed it for sale this week) and the folks came a little bit ago. they are coming back later today to test drive it but said they will more than likely buy it as long as the ride is nice, which I have no doubt it will be.  so that’s a substantial chunk of change, not to mention this morning Dean’s paycheck went into the acct automatically. just when we think things might get rough, things just fall into place.  this is how our life is, I have gotten much better at not sweating things, still not as carefree as Dean, but still, a lot better.
the irony is I totally freaked out today because of a sign at the Y. I thought it said that the childcare hours were changing for the summer.  it said it would open at 9, but my exercise class starts at 8;30 M-F starting Monday. i totally freaked, thinking I wouldnt be able to go to class anymore, a class that’s really helping me feel better, tired, but not nearly as achy and in pain.  I gave in and called the Y and sure enough I’d read the sign wrong, and there will be childcare at 8:30. I am so looking forward to going early every morning M-F to start my day out healthy and also get a break from all three kiddos. Today is caleb’s last day of school he gets out in about an hour. I am anxious about the summer of being home w/ all three alone, but I have faith that just like every day lately, I’ve managed and am managing fairly well.  the house isnt always spotless anymore, but the kids have fun, and so do I. And at the end of the summer I’m sure I’ll be ready for school to start but I’m really excited about getting to see my eldest son more. I really do feel bad that he’s not around as much as the little ones. I’m hoping he feels the same way about being w/ us all day…but I think he’ll be more excited that he gets to play with his friends almost all day!
well off to figure out what’s for lunch. praying this deal about the van goes well but most of all that the a/c gets fixed today!! it’s SOOOO hot!!
