Who takes care of baby when mommy is sick? And who takes care of mommy when mommy is sick? It’s a question I am trying to figure out today. Two weeks ago I came down with a cold. It just went away a few days ago. Then yesterday I developed some sort of eye infection. Its a lot worse than pink eye and I just dont know what to do. Luckily I got the dr to call in some medicine so I wouldnt have to drag myself and the baby out. But I am having trouble seeing and I am so afraid I will give this junk to Caleb. Dean cant come home from work early, neither can my mom. My best friend started a new job today. So I am all alone and quite miserable. At least Caleb is starting to sleep more between feedings so maybe he’ll be okay today.
last night Dean and I had a huge spat, well huge because I am a drama queen! I realized as we sat talking about it last night that I was the one making it so bad, and I just gave in and gave up trying to get my point across. Sometimes it’s just easier that way. But its the first big argument we’ve had in I dont know how long and that scares me. I am so afraid that thing will get bad between us because of the baby. So many people split up after having a baby, and I dont want that to happen to us. And I got so scared last night that we were going to split up, we have a great relationship and like I said I am sure I made the situation worse by getting emotional. I have no reason to think we would split up but theres always that fear, especially after having grown up in and around so many dysfunctional families.
Speaking of dysfunctional families, my dad has called me more in the last 2 weeks than he has my whole lifetime! My parents split when I was six, and dad was never around or when he was it wasnt good. But since I’ve had the baby he has tried so hard to get together or even just call and talk. yesterday I had to make him get off the phone with me! I dont know what to make of it, and I am very cautious about getting close to him. We have dinner plans tomorrow, so we’ll see how that goes.
