I walked to get Caleb, we were running late because of a poopy bo diaper at the last minute.   I let him play with his friends at the school playground then we walked to the park playground.   It was funny seeing bo learn how to walk around on the wood chips.  i forgot that it was his first time walking at a playground.   Since Caleb was an early walker too and born in the summer by his first birthday he was playing outdoors at playgrounds but because this is the first it’s been warm and Bo has been walking well enough to do so, he didnt know what to do.  I couldnt figure out what the problem was til I realized it was really his first time doing so as a toddler!   he wasnt too keen on the swing, which is odd because as an infant he loved the swing.    I think he was just tired since he didnt nap much today.  by the time we lelt about an hour later, he was walking much more confidently on the playground equipment and wood chips but it was still pretty funny!

he throws a huge tantrum when you make him come inside after playing, he literally kicked and pushed me to try to get back outside.   we spent almost 2 hours out there between the walking to the school, the park and back and playing at the park for an hour then playing the yard and hosing off the kids bikes/ ride on cars.    he’s laying in bed now since he’s so wiped out!   caleb looks sleepy too!  I’m just hot and sweaty not too overly tired which is nice considering I still need to pack clothes and get things together for the kids.

I’m so frustrated w/ my diabetes and treatment.   I emailed my drs my levels today since it’s Friday and things were off some and I didnt want to go all weekend without informing them.  So when I got in I had an email saying what to do, so I’m waking up at 3 to eat a snack and check my sugar.   now they want me to eat more at that 3 am snack, I’m barely able to eat anything cause I’m not hungry and I’m so tired.  It’s not working and I dont want to do it anymore.  I emailed her back but it’s late so not sure I’ll hear anything before we leave for the weekend.  I’m fed up with the ideas they keep coming up with that arent even working.   I hate complaining to the drs but i’m sick of their ideas because they arent realistic.  I mean who gets up at 3 am to eat nearly a meal then goes back to sleep, let alone, I’m eating right before bed so most nights I already have heartburn/indigestion from the first nightime snack then making me eat again when I dont want to.   last night I almost threw up it was bad.   I am so ready to be done and I think I’m going to tell them I’m not doing it anymore.  I would rather take more insulin then deal with all this crap in the middle of the night.  Ok, enough whining, for now.  I cant imagine how people who are diabetic all the time deal w/ the depression it causes, cause I’m not doing so well w/ this.

well I need to get stuff done so we can leave after dinner.  have a great weekend everyone!