I made cake for dessert for our bible study tonight.  I knew I would be tempted to try some since I had to level it off there were scraps of cake just sitting on the counter.  I’ve “cheated” a few times on the diabetic diet, once even w/ a rice krispies bar for snack instead of a healthy snack and my sugar level was fine. Thinking I would be fine I induldged in some scraps of cake(without icing) A little while later my head started hurting, not too unusual for me lately.  I was sitting on the couch and felt hot all of the sudden and felt like I was going to pass out.  I checked my sugar becuase at this point I was feeling very bad.  it was 180!! that’s really high for me, the only time it’s been that high is when I had the glucose tolerance test and then I didnt feel like this.   I told Dean to call 911 if I passed out because I felt like I was going to go to sleep and not wake up.  I laid down and closed my eyes until the crazy feelings ended.  A little while later my sugar was down to 140 which is better but still not great.
it was to be my first night doing the new meal plan and I’d already screwed it up royally. I set the alarm to go off at 3 and my level was still up there but not as bad; I ate a few crackers as I’d been told and prayed by morning things would even out. I laid awake for about an hour stressing out over this royal mistake I made that was putting mine and the baby’s health at risk. my sugar level this morning was just 2 points above the goal so i’m guessing minus the cake tonight things will go well and I might not need more insulin. I learned the hard way not to cheat and eat sweets and I will not make that mistake again. I really thought i was dying, it was the worst feeling. I made a cake because 3 people, including my hubby have birthdays this week. I told Dean before this incident even that I didnt think I’d be making another cake for his birthday game day on Saturday because it’s too tempting on me, it’s hard to make it and not taste the batter or the cake in the end. So I will probably buy a cake for him for Saturday, it’s sad but I cant let myself do this again, it is not good for me or baby.  so in the end, the lesson is, whatever you do , dont eat the cake!!
