My poor poor hubby, as if its not bad enough that he had to change my bandages and help me get up and down, but he has to be on baby duty fulltime. It’s a job I am very used to and despite the countless night wakings I ussually do okay, but poor Dean doesnt feel good himself and is having to tend to a sick wife and baby. I am not sure he’ll be able to go back to work tomorrow, he may want to though just to get out of the house. Caleb’s cold came back and sounds worse than it did, so Dean will probably have to take him to the drs today.
My mom babysat yesterday while we were at the hospital and when we got home the house was a mess, and it was so funny cause my mom is obsessive about cleaning so I told her I couldnt believe how messy it was, and I really was suprised but I could also see how exhausted she was. I knew she wasnt at all prepared to keep up with Caleb but I also knew we had no one else who could do it. I have told her how mobile he is but its a lot different when you have to watch him all day then just hear about it. And boy did she learn. She couldnt even manage to get his diaper on right because of course he wont stay still that long, but I’ve got used to putting it on backwards or whatever way I can get it, but his diaper was falling off his bottom when we got home yesterday! He sure is a handful for a baby so young, I am scared how it will get the older he gets. And I dont think Dean realized how hard it is to do either, to do it 24-7 at least. And I think he keeps forgetting I am not very mobile, cause this morning I told him I was cold all night cause he didnt cover us w/ all of our blankets and he said you could have gotten up and gotten it and I just gave him a look, and said oh really. Then it clicked, sure I could have but I probably would have fell over trying! It’s been so hard, and its not even been a full 24 hours yet, not to hold my son. Especially when I can see Dean struggling to handle him all by himself. It’s not that Dean cant take care of him, he’s just not very patient with him, especially when they are both tired but Caleb wont give in. Plus I dont think Caleb understands, he keeps trying to come to me and when he gets to close Dean grabs him away, and he gets upset. I tried to hold him last night and afterward I had to keep gasping for air cause I just wasnt ready to lift him, even if I was laying in bed doing it. But Dean had to go get a bottle and left a squirmy baby with me who just wanted to be with his mommy or climbing on her so I had to do something. I hope I start feeling better soon cause I dont know how well we are going to be doing if I cant do stuff with him soon. But it doesnt help waking up feeling like you got run over by a mack truck…..
