It’s October already, I had been waiting for months and months for August to roll around and here it is 2 months later and I feel like time is just flying by. I cant really say what happened to September for me, I know we moved here on the 7th and since then the days all seem to blend together and I dont really do much but tend to house and baby. I am already looking forward to next week but only because that is Calebs next drs appt, it’s sad when all you have to look forward to during the week are drs appt but since I am without a car I cant do much but sit around with the baby.
Another interesting thought I was having about time going by, about a year ago I was getting really worried about our inability to ever have children. At my brothers wedding at the end of October last year people were asking us about when we would have kids and when we’d be moving back or coming back to visit. I tried to be hopeful and said if I get pregnant we wont be back until after the baby but if not we would probably be back for Christmas. In November we got a test done to see if something was wrong with my ability to conceive and we found out nothing was. So we were told to wait and if things didnt happen we’d take fertility drugs but I had decided that if nothing happened I didnt want to take the drugs because that was messing with God, wasnt it? So we decided to stop worrying about having a baby and just let things happen, so I let go of the worry and got on with my life. A few weeks later we found out we were pregnant! Since then my life has changed in more ways than I could have ever imagined.
As I sit here writing (in the room that used to be my bedroom when I was a teenager) my beautiful baby boy lays beside me staring up at his toys and my husband as at work at the US Senate building. Things are so different yet I cant imagine them being any other way. I am so happy every day to be able to hold my precious son and to be so close to my family here in Baltimore. My husband and I are enjoying every moment we get to spend together alone and/or with our son. It stilll seems odd to me to say that I even have a son! I am not quite sure why I am sitting here reflecting so, but it’s nice to be able to count your blessings and we really should do so more often…..
