Breaking through the Fibrofog…

I HATE INSURANCE COMPANIES. dont know why I was waiting until we got insurance to get medicine since the new insurance wont pay for the meds I’ve been on for months.   I have one pill left and if I cant get it worked out I’ll start going through withdraw in about a day after taking that med and I really need that medicine too so it’s not going to be fun to be me or be around me if the insurance wont pay for it.   I have to wait 2-3 weeks for the new rheumatologists office to call me and schedule me and appt, and who knows how soon after they call me I’ll actually get an appointment.   I am in pain.  only advice I was given was go to the ER if it’s that bad.  but not like they’ll do anything for me, since no one knows what’s wrong w/ me.   if I cant get this medicine I will probably admit myself in a day or two to make someone do something to help me feel better.   I’ve been in tears all day.   I need to pull it together though, Caleb has an appt this afternoon.  Dean’s co-workers wife is coming to watch the munchkins while I take Caleb to the dr.  I’m supposed to be going to dinner w/ the moms group from church tonight but I feel so crappy.   well I need to go call my primary dr to see what if anything they can do for me.   the pain meds she gave me last week arent helping, if anything the only thing they are doing is keeping me up at night.  so i cant sleep well on top of already being worn out….I’m so done with being sick!!!  oh well…like I said…gotta pull it together…gotta busy afternoon ahead…