can it be true, Zeke is 5 months old. At 21 months old, Bo is just around the corner from turning two any my big 5 year old starts kindergarten on Monday. Dean has been laid off, he’s got a little while to find a job.    I thought I had recovered from my back problem, still never got authorization from insurance for the mri the dr wanted. then today my back is right back to where it was, almost as bad anyway. Perhaps that painting the bathroom last night wasnt so smart?  cleaning tomorrow as well as parent orientation for kindergarten. Friday is free I think, but Dean is supposed to be working at the theater this weekend.  He’s off on Monday though so one of us can attend the first day of school thing for Caleb. Hoping to do something fun in the afternoon, but chances are we’ll just be spending the day finsihing up house repairs.  We’re trying to plan to be in Ohio the following weekend, labor day weekend to look for a house and visit.
our van is fixed, nearly $600 to fix this week, it cost a little over $500 in repairs last week, the van isnt even worth either amt probably, except in new parts now!  I am sure something else could go wrong but if anything else happens to us soon I am sure to end up in a need of professional assistance to deal with the stress, seriously.  Caleb has taken on a horrible attitude, no doubt aided by my lack of patience this last week or two.  school starting will be good for all of us, then he and Bo wont be fighting over things all day long, just half the day! that should help my mental state!
I’m gaining weight at a rapid pace, or so it feels to me. I havent consulted a scale yet. Vaguely remember this and the other symptoms I have creeping up at this point post Bo, but could just be the consumption of golden oreos that I’m overeating to help me feel better, but in the end it just makes me feel worse.  sucks how that works!  with any luck if it is a thyroid thing I’ll start to lose quickly next month or so! I think I will try to cut back on the oreos to help too! 😉
i know some of you were concerned about my vague post the other day, I’ve been dealt my fair share of things in life and sometimes folks are impressed with how well I cope, but I cant this time. Too much piling up, way too much.  Too much too quickly and no way to relax or get away from it. life sucks sometimes and lately theres been little to take joy in, if it wasnt for the silly things my kids do all day I am sure I’d be in a much worse state.  but the other things they do arent helping to keep me any more sane either….
probably wont update again until theres more solid news of our plans.
