It’s been a busy weekend, but today we’re being lazy!  well, I am at least!   Friday afternoon was busy with taking Bo to the dr, a trip to Ikea, and toysrus.  Saturday morning I ran errands in prep for Caleb’s birthday party, it was a very stressful morning.   I gave in to my physical pain and had ordered a cake from Sam’s club for the party, something I felt very guilty about to begin with.   I knew I could have made something wonderful, at the expense of my pain and stress.  So, when I got there to pick up the cake they couldnt find it, she finally did but forgot to put the price sticker on it, so I got to the checkout after waiting in a long line and had to have them cancel my checkout w hile we waited for the price.  A manager came over told the cashier it was $34, I said no it’s not, they had given the price for a much larger cake.  So…that meant more waiting, all the guilt I had been feeling about doing things that were easier to me as far as ordering a cake and holding it a bowling alley as opposed to our home built up while I waited not so patiently.   I broke down in tears in the car, it was just too much.  Knowing my son’s party wouldnt be as nice because I couldnt manage it physically to do it like I have in the past.   The cake looked horrible, they didnt do a good job at all on decorating it, it wasnt until after everyone said how good it tasted that I felt a little better about it.   we even forgot the candle that I had gotten for him, so no candle blowing out!!  Despite my being upset about how the day had gone, did I mention we ordered pizzas and they werent ready, so Dean had to go back and get them after dropping Caleb and I off to the bowling alley, having just one vehicle sucks too!     But Caleb had a ball at his party.   (the whole morning and afternoon before the party he was a complete horror, acting out and being miserable to Dean)   The plus side to having it elsewhere, the time was strict, no lingering guests, so the party was from 4-6, we were home by 6:30 to our mostly clean home and all we had to do was open Caleb’s gifts to play with, no clean up required.  So we had ordered pizzas for adults, the kids got hot dogs w/ the price of their bowling but hardly anyone at pizza, so we’re eating leftovers today!   So I didnt make the cake or party food, such a cop out I know.   I cant believe I let myself do such a thing, but Caleb did enjoy his party so maybe one day I can let go of the guilt of not being a supermom anymore.  the cake guilt will stay with me for a while I’m sure, I even had planned out the cake I would make, oh well, there’s always next year!!  thanks to all who attended or sent gifts, he’s enjoying so many new toys today!   He just built a lego firetruck, it’s pretty cool!