For some reason I know that this is going to be a bad week. The good, Boaz had his 2 month check up today and did well. He now weighs 11 lbs 5 oz (50%) and is 23 3/4 inches long(75%). The sad news was she had to pull back his circumcision which had reattached some so he screamed his little head off for that, I felt so bad!! Then on top of that pain he had 3 shots, unlike his big brother who never even from infanthood cried at shots, Boaz screamed quite a bit. Add that to the fact he’s already congested and nursing less due to that he’s a happy little camper today, ha! I wish! So I had plans to visit some people today but by the time we were done with Boaz’s appt at which he was a mess and Caleb was not behaving at either so we came home after hitting the store for infant tylenol.
the bad of this week, my great grandmother passed away and we will be attending viewings and funeral with the above said fussy baby. Luckily we’ll be leaving Caleb with friends and family while we are there so that should be a little help. I’m no good at sick kids or funerals so this ought to be a challenging week. We knew the day was coming soon when my great grandmom was going to pass away, her health has been deteriorating over the last year. Sadly she never got to meet Boaz. I’m glad Caleb did have a chance to meet her even if he wont remember it very well. My great granddad passed away a few years ago so neither of my sons got to meet him. I’ve very blessed to have all of my grandparents still living, but it was great to have a great grandparent alive. I know it’s probably rare to have a living great grandparent at my age and we knew it was coming but it’s still sad. I dont look forward to any more deaths in the family. My dad, you know the one who never calls, has called twice in the last two weeks, each time to notify me of a death in his family. Sure I wanted to have better communication with him but I didnt want it to be this way or for these reasons. So I might not be around here much this week, it’s going to be pretty busy. I’m at least looking forward to seeing my family and showing off Boaz to them some more since I rarely get to see my dads family. Sadly for me writing this is what it’s taken to get my emotions going. I have been trying to stay focused on the kids and not thinking about things but as the viewing tonight gets closer its getting harder. If anything the hardest part of this for me is that this is my dads family, and I’ve never felt that I’ve known any of them that well. Now that I’m older I can choose to be in their lives but it’s so hard to get over the past and I feel like I’ve missed out on so much. I hate dealing with family stuff it really is one of my weaknesses. I’m blessed to have such a supportive and loving husband who will be there for me and is always a great comfort to me in times of sadness.
So today I’ll be celebrating our beautiful son who has recently blessed our life and the life of an amazing woman who will forever remain in our hearts.
