a week ago today I was completely stressing out, today I’ve been lying in bed all morning. For a while I sat w/ laptop close by balancing the check book w/ one hand and w/ the other nursing the baby. When Dean got home from taking the big brother to preschool he came home and we sat together catching up on our Tivo playlist until he finally decided to get up and put away the laundry. Mind you I am completely able at this point to put clothes away, I’m just taking it all in today. It’s such a contrast to how my last Tuesday was spent. Right now I am here with the baby sleeping by my side while Dean goes to get the big brother from school. It’s an amazing thing, this family of 4.
Last time I managed to get in a good deal of sleep, the baby ate around 2 am and then again at 6 am. I’ve been awake ever since, but getting more than an hour of sleep at one time is a great accomplishment and it felt really good. I’ve been managing in a really good afternoon nap while both boys sleep and I can barely stay awake by that time and my body feels so much better after I take that long nap.
It’s hard adjusting to being a nursing mommy since I never was able to do this with Caleb, it’s an amazing feeling to be able to provide for the baby but I”m so tempted to give in to just one bottle feeding or a at least using a pacifier, but so far this baby has not had either, no bottle, no pacifier. I am in shock at that one. It’s been rough a few times, but as long as I can nurse when he gets fussy we are all set. it’s the whole nursing in public that is scaring the heck out of me. I dont know how we’ll do it and I’m really not looking forward to it, I guess for now we’re just doing our best to make sure he’s fed right before we go anywhere and praying he stays calm while we are out. I want to do this for my baby and for me but it’s a hard thing, dont believe anyone who says breastfeeding is easier than formula feeding. Sure there’s no bottles to clean, no heating up of said bottles, and no buying formula, but at this point I feel like the human pacifier and that can get a to be a little annoying. But overall this has been a ton better than my breastfeeding attempts with caleb, so thats an answer to prayer. If anything we’re saving money on formula this way even if it only last for a little while. I dont look forward to the day when Dean goes back to work, but I’ve got 3 weeks to worry for that day to come, so for now I’ll take what I have. I love having all my boys at home, we spend a lot of time cuddling in bed together, all 4 of us and it’s wonderful. Caleb loves holding his baby, and he’ll tell you it’s his baby, his baby boy. It’s adorable! For weeks I’ve worried how hard this would be, adding another child to our family but now it feels so natural, so complete.
we had our first outings yesterday, as a family of four. we took Boaz to the pediatrician to get his bilirubin checked again, then headed to visit Boaz’s great grandparents. After that we went to visit a friend who hadn’t seen the baby yet and I nursed for the first time outside of my home and the hospital, and it wasnt too bad, luckily we had no problems w/ latching on so it went well. Then we all came home and napped really well, even Dean! Last night we managed our first trip to Target, and it went smoothly. We’re trying to find some clothes that will better fit the baby. All of the 0-3 months outfits are huge on the baby as he only weighs 6 lbs 5 oz now. Dean’s brother gave us 2 outfits that are for Newborn, and say up to 7 lbs, so today we hope to find more of that size. Target only had newborn but it said up to 11 lbs and we have tons of those size clothes and the poor baby looks lost in them! So that’s the goal for today, another outing with all of us, ought to prove interesting!
well I just wanted to check in since I hadnt in a while but now the Baby is awake and it’s almost time for him to eat. so gotta get. hope everyone is having a great week!
