It is getting harder and
It is getting harder and harder to get myself up and about lately, mostly because if I go from laying down to sitting up or walking I feel like I will fall over. All of the sudden my belly feels heavy. It’s like I constantly feel like I have a full bladder or stomach, kind of like after you eat a huge meal, but it is all of the time. And it doesnt help that every now and then I get reminder kicks and movement shifts that make me realize that Kiddo is really in there. It is so odd, I can’t even explain how it feels really, no matter how hard I try. I just know that in the last few days the weight has shifted and feels much heavier, I guess that is what they call the bloated feeling or something. I wish I could explain it better but I just can’t.
I may really end up getting a day off every week, I asked over 1 and 1/2 months ago to go to a 32 hour schedule because I am so tired and now I am just getting fed up with my boss. I keep telling her when my drs appts are and I mean I have an appt this Thursday and I had to track her down today to make sure she knows that I will not be at work on Thursday. I told her that I will need Thursdays off at least half a day starting June 14 and I was scheduled to start having Thursdays off after June 25th but I need off every Thursday before then except for June 7 so I told her this and she said we will discuss it tomorrow. And after having this conversation with her I find out she just told my co-worker that she would be transferring to another office on Thursday which would make it impossible for me to have off every Thursday yet I asked off for these days well in advance. So none the less it ended up that she told me that tomorrow she will evaluate the office staff schedule and see if we can start to give me my 32 hour schedule starting this week, but this is the third time , at least she has said this. I am tempted to get a drs note this Thurs at my appt saying I cant work 40 hours just to kick her in motion, but I dont think that should be necessary, I mean I asked months ago to reduce my hours because I just get too tired and here it is almost June and they still wont make up their mind. I guess you could say I am mad about it, but mostly just frustrated that I have been exhausting myself over my job and no one cares. But this is my own fault.
I miss Dean a lot when he has rehearsals all of the time. But tonight I met him for dinner then went shopping for a few hours to occupy myself. I never go shopping alone, okay, not often, but I always feel so good after I do. I was so proud of myself for buying hardly anything. But I still end up missing time with Dean. yeah, we live together and all, but when he is working on a show he is never around, or so it seems. And I know this upcoming weekend will be even worse because he has to work on the play then too. I guess I should start to make plans for myself now so that it wont be so bad. I hear babies r us is having a huge sale Saturday! 
